Sissy Stocking Stuffers

More than a week has gone by since i last posted.  My absence is reflective of just how busy the holiday season can be for everyone.  All the running around and excesses we seem to partake sometimes put me in a lousy mood but i change quickly once Christmas eve rolls around and the family is gathered together. 

Whether you celebrate Christmas or not, i do hope you all had a very happy holiday season and that you were able to do something nice for someone. 

Once our daughter's arrived here last week, things turned a little "sexually quiet" for both Diane and i.  Diane's only seen Paul a few times and strictly on a professional basis, with the exception of sneaking away for a passionate Merry Christmas kiss and maybe a little more.  i'm not going to see Jake until after New Year's.  He did email me and asked if i was "up for a round of golf" on Friday of next week - that's his way of saying he's available for some fun.

Although the week's been less sexually active than usual, it hasn't been totally quiet.

It's been a family tradition since the girls were old enough to go to midnight church services and when we returned home we would open our gifts.  We did that this year and by the time we were done it was almost 3 AM.  Just before we were ready to get into bed, Diane opened her drawer and handed me a small gift wrapped package.  "It wouldn't fit in your stocking with all the other stuff in there" she said.  "Open it."

The package contained five pairs of simple but very feminine hi-cut panties (size 6) in a variety of pretty colors.  All the pairs were the same, with a bit of lace trim around the waist.

"I thought they were perfect housewife panties.  Not too fancy and just sissy enough" Diane said with a smile.  It was a loving smile too.  She hugged me and we kissed as passionately as we have in a very long time.

As i took the plastic wrapper off the package, Diane surprised me when She told me to take a picture of the panties to post on the blog and to do it right away.   So i lay the package down on the bed and snapped a picture with my phone.

"Why the rush to take the picture?" i asked her as i was about to put them away in the drawer with all my other panties. 

"Because i want you to model a pair for me before you come to bed." She said.

As She took the bed down, i took out a pair of panties (the blue ones to surprise Her) and struck a couple of my best modeling poses for Diane at the foot of the bed.

i didn't model for very long.  She called me into bed after only a minute or two. 

"Time for you to thank me" She said and gently pushed my head between her thighs.

It was a beautiful way to start Christmas day.

Love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Christmas Stuff

It's been quite a busy seven days since i posted last Thursday.   i spent most of last Thursday, Friday and Saturday getting ready for our Christmas party on Saturday night.  Let me gloat for a brief moment here.  The party was a smash!

At one point in the evening Diane when got everyone's attention for a Christmas toast, She thanked them for coming and before She had a chance to offer the toast, many people chimed in to say what a wonderful party it was.   Diane responded by saying "Well, I barely had to lift a finger.  I owe it all to my wonderful stay-at-home spouse!"  Everyone cheered and thanked us.  i wondered if anyone noticed She used the word spouse instead of husband.  Maybe it's my paranoia that picks up on these little things, but i was at least relieved She didn't slip and use the term "wife!"

Like She had promised, before everyone arrived Diane had me put something pretty on under my mostly male clothes (we wore matching women's Christmas sweaters, red sweaters with white reindeer and snowflake patterns).  She apologized for not having purchased something special for me to wear for the party.  "Let's pick out something cuckoldy" She said, the same term She used last week when discussing what i should wear.

My undergarments for the party carried more significance because Her lover Paul would be there as a guest.  One of my many instructions for the evening was to make sure Paul and his wife Laurie were having a good time.  i was to introduce them to some of the guests if Diane hadn't done so, make sure their drinks were fresh if they wanted more and to just look after them.  "Just think of yourself as their personal maid or servant" Diane said.

So to make me feel like a sissy cuckold, Diane decided that i would wear a pair of white ruffled panties and a white sports bra (one of hers).  She definitely wanted me in bra and panties for the night and thought a regular bra would probably show through the sweater which was just a little tight.  There was also the possibility that with the many hugs that would be exchanged throughout the evening, someone might feel the bra under my sweater.  Diane does want to keep what we do discreet, with the exception of Her friend Linda who knows about our relationship.

i did get a chance to chat with Paul and his wife which seemed a little awkward.  i did my very best not to give him even the slightest hint that i knew about him and Diane.  Diane was pleased with my effort.  She saw Paul this week and told me that he's very assured now that i suspect nothing about their affair.

Diane's best friend Linda was also at the party and was a big help to me. Linda's recently divorced and attended the party by herself.  She was the first to arrived and helped me with many things.  She was kind of a co-hostess for the party.  i'm glad the whole thing is over and happier that it was such a success.

i did get a chance to spend some time with Jake last Friday.  He left work early and it gave us a chance to spend nearly two hours together.  i had worked hard all day and was as caught up as i could
be.  The two hours we spent together were as intimate as any since i've known him.   At his suggestion, we ended up in bed together after i slipped into a pretty baby doll nightie.  Jake took charge, and really made me feel like a woman....a submissive woman.  I hope you catch my drift :)

i'm seeing Jake again tomorrow afternoon.  It will be the last time we see each other until the new year.  We won't see each other for two hours, but i'm going to do the best i can to make his time with me special!

love,

sissy terri

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Party Time - Sissy Suggestions

i want to thank everyone who provided suggestions for our Christmas party on Saturday night, either through my regular or Tumblr email.  Some certainly wouldn't be acceptable at the type of party Diane is planning, but i have no doubt that at least a portion of the guests might enjoy it.  Let's be honest, many people have kinky fantasies don't they?  LOL!

Here's a few cute suggestions i received.  The first is from "Ellen" who says:

"Every sissy should look their best for their parties if they're the official hostess.  You should either have your hair done or put it up in curlers yourself.  Have the curlers on when the caterers show up."

You might not have guessed, but this suggestion actually got me a little aroused!  The idea of having my hair and curlers and being seen that way adds more than just a tinge of "sissy humiliation!"  Thank you Ellen!

"tatty" (maybe it's short for Tatiana) sent me a link to the following picture and asked if i thought it was a pretty outfit to wear to a Christmas party.  What do you think?

KPF Manere Classy

 

 

I love it.  So classy.  Just wish the green were a little darker and the blouse a little darker shade of pink, making it more "Christmassy."

And finally another sissy friend Jen wrote that every Christmas party needs a Santa and that i should play that role.  She even suggested a way that i do it without getting totally dress.  "Wear this pink Santa hat" she said.  "All you have to say is that it was the only color you could find."

Awesome idea!  Now all i have to do is find a pink santa hat.  i wonder what Diane's lover Paul would think when he saw me in a pink santa hat?  He's cuckolding me but doesn't know that i know.  Think he would catch a submissive vibe or two?

Love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Housewife Stuff

With our holiday party only a few days away, i've been one busy girl!  Most of the food items are being catered but Diane insists on having some things homemade.  Guess who's responsible for whipping these things up from scratch?  The little housewife of course.

So if you don't see me posting regularly the next several days, rest assured that i'm busy making sure that our holiday party is a success.  i certainly don't want to disappoint Diane.  It's also important to Her because Her love Paul will be there as just another guest to most everyone in attendance.

It's still early to start the cooking and baking of the few items Diane's entrusted me with preparing, but when i do that the task is made just a little bit more enjoyable when i slip on one of several pretty aprons i have for housework and other special occasions.  Unless you have feminine feelings like a sissy, you might not understand why baking cookies can be so much fun!

Since the party is on Saturday, Friday is going to be a pretty busy day.  i'm trying to make time for Jake and he's also trying to make time for me tomorrow.  It's a really nice feeling knowing that he looks forward to our weekly meetings and the pleasure i provide him.  i wonder if he looks forward to them as much as i do. 

Last week i asked him if he looked forward to Fridays.  He just smiled and said "I'm here aren't I?"  i was kneeling in front of him and just starting to fondle and kiss him when i popped the question.  His answer was brief and he simply guided my head back down between his legs, an indication that he didn't want me to waste any time.  i loved it.

Jake was also very impressed with the slutty look i had for him, especially the lip gloss i had on.  He enjoyed seeing my pantied lips on his manhood.  There was little doubt about that!  i think he enjoyed that more than the see through blouse i had on with the black bra underneath :)

As i pleasured Jake as he sat on the leather sofa in our house, i had this thought about feeling like a housewife who was cheating on her husband, inviting her lover to the house and having an afternoon of fun.  That's pretty silly in a way, because such a wife would be cuckolding her spouse and in reality, i'm the one who's the cuckold!

Love,

sissy terri

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Holiday Party Planning

It was a weekend devoted mostly to Christmas shopping and decorating our house for the holidays.   Last year, most all of the shopping and decorating was my responsibility.  i remember Diane saying to me "That's what stay-at-home wives do."   This year She's playing a more active role in the shopping, decorating and the planning of the annual holiday party we host. 

This year's party is being moved up a week to next Saturday night.  Diane made that decision weeks ago and i sent out the invitations the week before Thanksgiving, giving people plenty of time to put it on their calendars.  When Diane decided to move the party up a week She said the following weekend was going to be to close to Christmas.  Last night, i realized there was probably another reason.

Diane is "on call" the weekend before Christmas, and so is Her lover Paul.  That made having the party on that night a potentially risky situation.  Moving it was safer, and it also gave Diane the opportunity to invite Paul and his wife to the party.

Diane did that last Friday.  He wasn't on the original list of invitations i sent out because Diane wasn't sure he'd feel comfortable.  Their affair is discreet and other than the two of them, Diane's friend Linda and i are the only two people who know what's going on.  And he doesn't know that i know.  

"Does that make you feel more like a cuckold" Diane asked me last night, "hosting my lover at our holiday party?"

i told Diane that in some ways it did.  i wondered if other people knew, or suspected of their affair, people who would be at the party.  That would be a very indirect form of humiliation to me.  Even if they viewed me as the innocent and unsuspecting husband.  What would they think if they knew the whole story?  Just imagine!

My thoughts were interrupted when Diane said "We'll have to make sure you're wearing something pretty under your boy clothes that night.  Something very cuckoldy!" 

"Cuckoldy?"  Hearing that term was a first!

love,

sissy terri

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Women in Boots

Both Diane and i grew up and went to school in cold weather climates.  Later, we began our professional careers in the Northeast where winters were rather harsh and summers way too short.  Later, opportunities arose for both of us so we relocated to the Southwest where the climate is much warmer.

We've been here awhile and i can't help but notice that some women here just can't wait to wear their boots.  The first sign of the temperatures dropping into the 70's around October brings out their boots.  They're in the minority of course, but there are still quite a few of them.   For someone who's lived in the Northeast, i have to say that it looks kind of funny.

i can't help but think that those women that do wear boots when it's really not that cold have more than just a "fashion reason" to do so.  i wouldn't be the least bit surprised that they have some sort of fetish (mild or otherwise) related to their desire to wear the boots.

The other day Diane called and gave me a short list of errands to run.  Temps here were in the high 60's and sunny.  i stood in line at the Post Office to buy some specific Christmas stamps she wanted for about ten minutes.  I noticed a woman at the counter being served by the clerk who was wearing some very nice looking brown leather boots that went right below the knee.  With her lovely white
slacks and a light brown sweater, she looked quite sexy.  i couldn't help but stare at her from behind as she leaned over the counter.  i admired both from a male's and sissy's perspective (jealous of the outfit).

A moment or two later i just happened to notice that the woman directly in front of me had a pair of lovely high heeled knee length black boots and a very tight pair of jeans.  I estimated her age to be mid to late 40's.  She looked even sexier than the woman at the counter.  She had a rather stern and dominant look which made her even more exciting to me.

Soon it was my turn and the women with boots were gone.  Walking out with the stamps for Diane I noticed another woman walking in wearing boots with even higher heels.

The women in boots helped the time in line go by faster.  It also got me to thinking that there are probably more potentially dominant woman around that i thought there were!

love,

sissy terri

P.S.  - had a lovely time with Jake yesterday afternoon.  More on that next week.

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Slutty vs. Sissy

i think most men who have a thing for crossdressers tend to prefer the "slutty" look as opposed to the "sissy" look.

Jake's like that.  Even though i don't really dress "slutty" for him i can tell from our conversations that he would really like to see me dressed like that. 

But Jake also knows from our recent conversations where we've been more open about our fantasies that i love being dressed like a sissy for him. 

i know a submissive sissy's job is to please her man and i fully intend to do that.  i also know that Jake's has at least some interest in my being more "sissy" for him from the tone of our conversations and the questions he's had for me ("Have you ever wanted to dress like a little girl?"....duh!!!!).

i think eventually, we'll be able to enjoy the best of both worlds.  

But this afternoon, i'm going to try and look at least a little bit slutty with a white see through blouse (so he can see my black bra!), black skirt, thigh highs, heels and a heavy dose of lipstick when I see him for about an hour.  Plenty of time to please my man like a good sissy/slut.

i love Fridays.

sissy terri

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Girl Talk

This morning i had an absolutely wonderful conversation with a sissy friend i met through the blog many months ago.  When "Jane" (as in Jane Doe) originally reached out to me via email, she seemed like a wonderful person who had many interests that were similar to mine.  i was very hopeful that our correspondence would continue and that we'd become friends. 

Well, i am happy (giddy actually) to report that we've become regular girlfriends despite the distances between us. 

Today is a special day for Jane.  She's finally getting to meet a man she's been corresponding with and talking to for months.  Because of their work schedules and travel, it's taken this long for them to get together.   Even though she's not going to meet him in drag (of course she'll have lovely lingerie underneath her male clothes...more on that below) it's still an exciting event the first time you meet a man who's interested in you as a woman!

i just had to call her today to wish her luck and to find out how she was doing.  Jane's brimming with girly excitement.  She knows the man is smart, articulate and seems to be the dominant type she's looking for; one who understands her needs and apparently how to meet them!

We all know how "Mr. Right" is hard to find.  We laughed this morning about how many men we've corresponded with who say they're dominant and all, then we find out that they're just as interested in sucking our cocks as we are in sucking theirs!  Not what a true submissive girly-gurl is looking for right?

i naturally had to ask her what she was going to be wearing under her boring boy clothes and Jane said that for sure, she was going to be wearing some black thigh highs and either a black corset or
other black one-piece control garment.  i was surprised when she told me she might not wear panties and when asked why she said it made her feel "more submissive and available to him."  Wow!  Pretty sexy.  This opened up a whole other conversation about not wearing panties as part of being "objectified" by a dominant man. 

If things work out this afternoon for Jane, she and her new friend may get a chance to meet tonight where she can dress fully for him.  Obviously, i can't even begin to tell you how excited i am for her.

She's promised to let me know how things went as soon as she can.  i'm so happy for my girlfriend.  i hope she's not disappointed, but instead, finds the Man of her dreams!

love,

sissy terri

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Sharing Sissy Fantasies

The little funk i was in yesterday afternoon predictably didn't last very long.  After reflecting on what i'd written and how i felt, i understood that it was just another instance of a submissive selfishly wanting things to go their way instead of being satisfied simply serving their Dominant partner and doing what they're told. 

i guess it's called "topping from the bottom" in the D/s world, but i don't necessarily like that term because to me it has too much of  sexual implication.  i'm probably wrong on that, but whenever i hear it i think of a submissive trying to direct a BDSM scene or calling the shots sexually.  My own feeling is more in tune with lifestyle issues and day to day happenings between Diane and me.

Last night Diane called while on Her way to meet up with Paul.  She wouldn't tell me where they were meeting but did tell me later when She got home that he'd gotten a room for them at an out-of-the way hotel.  He couldn't stay long but their time enough together was enough to extinguish Diane's "female fires" for a little while.  Those were the words She uttered a little after 9 PM when i was told that her "pussy needed some soothing attention."

Her demand seemed too much of a coincidence after yesterday's blog post.  i waited until after i'd satisfied Her to ask if She'd read my post earlier in the day.  "No, why?" She asked.  i told Her i was just curious and admitted later that the post was an attempt to describe my being a little down because of not being involved with Her as much as i would have liked, especially when it came to being Her cuckold. 

Perhaps She did read it, but judging from Her reaction to the oral attention i gave Her i think Her decision to have me worship Her was spontaneous and something She really wanted.  In the end, i felt real good about what had happened.

Something else took place before Diane arrived that made me feel better.  i called Jake late that afternoon and told him that i would be free until around at least 7 in the evening if he wanted to call me. 

Jake called around 5:45 on his way home from the office and we had a wonderful conversation.  Surprisingly, Jake said he wanted me to be more open about my fantasies, hinting that i must have many more that he doesn't know about.  The conversation went back and forth with me saying i would also enjoy learning more about his own fantasies, even those involving real females.  "I have plenty of those" he laughed.

Jake's drive home wasn't long enough for us to get into any fantasies at length.  We agreed that the next time we were together we would each share one of our fantasies and also ask each other a question about something sexual to see if the other has any interest in it.  So really, it's like sharing two fantasies!

Talking with him had me very excited as i thought about what i wanted to share with him and ask him.  Somehow, i want to get cuckolding in there along with finding out if he has any interest in becoming more dominant and in what way.  i also can't wait to hear what he has to say. 

What started out as a downer of a day ended up splendidly.  i performed like a good sissy cuckold for Diane, and fantasized about so many submissive things that could be on the horizon with Jake.

Somehow, i have to let Jake know how much i love ruffled panties.  Maybe he'll get the hint and have me dress as his little girl once and awhile :)


Love,

sissy terri

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Holidays and Sissy Cuckolds

i hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving.  Both our lovely daughters were here, one with the fiancee and the other with the boyfriend.  Diane teased me afterwards that i was a shining example of how husbands should help out their wives when it comes to domestic duties.  i hate to disappoint everyone but all the help i provided was done without my wearing an apron or other visible femme clothing!

i've always felt a little melancholy around Thanksgiving and Christmas.  It seems to get worse as i get older.  There's so much poverty around us and to know that some young children go to bed hungry through no fault of their own bothers me very much.  Since i've retired i've done some volunteer work which sometimes brings me closer to such situations and it seems to be on my mind more and more.  Sorry to be such a downer but it's prominently on my mind at this time of year.

Diane wasn't able to see Her lover Paul at all this weekend but let me know this morning before she left for the office that She was seeing him late this afternoon.  There were very little details other than Her telling me she would call me to let me know about dinner.   The conversation was short and quickly changed to what She wanted done around the house today.

Being excluded from her affair with Paul the way that i am also has me in a down mood.  Her affair with Paul is much different than the one She had with Brian.  Even though i wasn't present often when they made love, Diane found many ways to include me in what was going on.  The humiliation was intense at times and this may sound very strange but i appreciated the effort She put into it!

It's just not the same now.  There's not even that much sex after She's been with Paul (something She seemed to enjoy after every session with Brian).  The last few times Diane's been with Paul She hasn't insisted that i worship Her at all. 

i've asked Her if there's anything wrong, or if She still enjoys having me please her after sex with Paul and She insists that all is well, She loves me, still enjoys it and not to worry.  i can't help it, but i really want to be included more than i am.

My apologies for the gloomy state of this post.  i'll perk up in a day or two :)

Love,

sissy terri

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A Stuffed Sissy

i hope everyone had a wonderful Thanksgiving.  We had a wonderful day here but i did eat a bit too much.

i shouldn't have had desert, since i'm having a hard time lacing my corset as tight as i usually do!

i think i'll just have to wear a girdle today :)

Have a great weekend everyone.

Love,

sissy terri

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Giving Thanks

Many sissies (even this one) often complain about their lot in life.  Our desires and fantasies aren't always in line with society's norms.  Oh well.

Let's not complain today.  Instead, let's be thankful for the good things in our lives like...

Having someone to serve, and something to serve them.

The hard work of our pilgrim forefathers.

And of course, having pretty things to wear.

Love,

sissy terri

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Girly Stuff

It once was that i, probably unlike many other young men with sissy fantasies, was thrilled just to be able to slip into a pair of my sister's or mom's panties.  Another feminine garment like a bra just put me over the edge!

The passing of time along with a growing comfort level with my sexuality and preferences for all things feminine has led to a growing desire to include more and more feminine garments and accessories.

Yesterday i mentioned wearing a necklace with a white one piece foundation garment and how sexy it would make me feel.  Simply adding jewelry to lingerie makes me feel so much more feminine and submissive.  Submissive in a way that i'm prettying myself up to please my man.  i want to be his pretty little doll.

Here's a cute little halter bra that has some pearls attached to it, built in jewelry for brassieres!  The pink and white floral ruffles along the top make it one of the most sissyish bras i've seen in a long time.  It might not matter to the men we're serving (especially while we're kissing them between their legs!) but i think it would matter to us right?

Do you think the necklace this woman is wearing is a too fancy for a simple sissy session with your boyfriend?

NEVER!  At least that's my opinion.

The only thing missing is a matching set of pendant earings.

i'd love to service Jake wearing a pretty white bra and panty set and a luxurious necklace like this. 

Or do you think just the jewelry and a sexy set of heels would suffice?

Personally, i think some sort of panty is necessary. 

Doesn't a sissy have to hide their sissy clitty?

Love,

sissy terri

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Girdles for Sissies

i'm a more mature crossdresser, so the things i like are naturally going to be quite different than a CD or TV in their teens or twenties.  Maybe that's why things like girdles, slips, one-piece bodysuits and petticoats tend to get my attention. 

Lingerie fashion has certainly changed over the last four or five decades, as have so many other things.  But I think when it comes to feminine undergarments, the lingerie of yesteryear, especially that of the 1950's an 1960's, remains quite sexy and attractive to more people than just those of us near or at middle age.

Foundation garments like the one pictured here are difficult to find today, but i'd find it hard to believe that a CD of any age wouldn't love wearing something like this.

Girdles and and other control type garments (including corsets) were worn with the goal of looking of either looking more flattering to the opposite sex or accentuating a woman's curves or assets.  That alone makes the wearer feel a bit more submissive and feminine.

i love that feeling.  Adding some pretty jewelry makes it even sexier.

Love,

sissy terri

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Wearing my Bra Again

It's a busy week for housewives (real ones and sissy ones) and some of us just love our domestic responsibilities.

Diane's at work today and i've finished running errands this morning and am ready to start in on my daily chores while dressed en femme.  i'm becoming a bit more risque when i go out in public though, although with the weather turning a bit cooler it does make it much easier.

My last two posts about sissies wearing bras have motivated me to try and wear a bra as much as possible.  i've been wearing a pink bra and panties all day and some navy blue tights but i doubt anyone noticed the tight fitting ladies' jeans i wore while shopping this morning.

i guess that most CD's have an exhibitionist streak in them but most probably back off before they go out in public out of fear.  The closer fantasy gets to reality, the greater the fear. 

i'd love to show off my bra and i wonder if i were a real female how liberal i would be with such things.

For instance, would i be willing to wear a sheer white blouse with a black bra underneath?

Does that make a woman look trashy? slutty?

i'd probably love the attention!

love,

sissy terri

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Sexy in White

Sure, pink is my favorite color but i also have a weakness for a pretty bra and panty set regardless of the color. 

The color white can also be very sexy.  It has virginal hints about it but depending on the style and the wearer it can be worn so seductively.

This bra and panty set is soooo pretty.  And the way the model is wearing it just drives me crazy.  Makes me want to have full and beautiful breasts just like her!

i'm going to wear a bra all day today with some gel breast enhancers.  They're heavy and noticeable enough to give me the feeling of having cute little breasts!

i won't look like the model in the picture, but i'll have a lovely feminine feeling.  i found this picture on the The Dominant BBW.

She may or not be dominant, but she sure is sensual!

love,

sissy terri

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The Sissy Bra

Panties always seem to be the focal point of many forced feminization fantasies.  It's the article of clothing that gets the most attention.  They're probably the first article of female clothing that got a young and budding sissy's attention when they were growing up.

There's also something about being "put in panties" by a dominant or authoritative female figure. The panties also encase your male private parts, providing you with a contrast of what you're supposed to be and what you are being turned into. 

But panties are simply a feminine version of male underwear.  They're the brother and sister of undergarments so to speak.

The bra is an entirely different story.  It has no "male" counterpart.  Because of the female anatomy, it is a uniquely feminine garment.  It's also usually very noticeable when worn, unlike the panty.

A sissy can wear panties 24/7 and not be discovered.  Try that with a bra.  It's not impossible to conceal a bra, but definitely more difficult.

Many of my forced feminization fantasies involved being made to wear a bra, and an extremely feminine one at that.   And whenever i fantasize about being made to wear ultra-femme clothing, my fantasies always include cuckolding.  Specifically, i'm made to wear such things in front of my wife's lover.

Can you imagine having to wear (and model) this bra in front of your wife's lover? 

i can only imagine how much humiliation i would experience if Diane made me wear this in front of Paul!  What a cuckold experience that would be!

Speaking of cuckold experiences, i've added a new link to my blog list and i've also corresponded with the blog owner, James.  Cuckold Scenes is a blog that portrays various cuckold scenes that reflect James' and his wife Judy's experiences over the years.  They seem to be a happily married couple who have navigated the cuckolding waters very effectively.  James also has an accompanying blog The Dominant BBW, that features Dominant Women of size.

i'm not going to be modeling a bra for Paul today, but i am seeing Jake this afternoon. 

i'll be wearing my most feminine bra for him :)

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Wife Duties

With the holidays just around the corner, sissy husbands and sissy wives are going to be spending more time in the kitchen.

Shouldn't they go about their domestic duties looking as pretty as possible?

 

So why not pretty yourself up, pick out your favorite dress, slip on some heels and a frilly pink apron and at least enjoy your femininity while toiling in the kitchen?

The picture is from the tumblr blog Eye Catcher, which features beautiful retro-style girly stuff.  i'm quite sure you'll enjoy it.

Love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Shopping Tips

If i had more time and if i was technically savvy enough i would either turn this blog into a site where there could be more interaction among the readers.  Another option would be to have a sort of mechanism here where we could post some thoughts, ideas and yes....sissy shopping tips...other than in the comments section.

More than a year ago i wrote a post called Looking For Panties that dealt with my search for panties that had a seam up the backside.  My search for these was prompted by Jake telling me that he found those type very sexy.  Well, a woman has to please her man right?

i got a few suggestions and eventually did find a couple of pairs, but they are hard to find.  But today, i noticed a new comment on that post from a new follower, Jenny Jones.  Jenny referred me to One Hanes Place where they have a wonderful selection of "skimp skamp" briefs and others that have
lovely backseams that accentuate our sissy bottoms!    Guess what i'm buying today?

So don't be afraid to leave a comment, an idea, your thoughts, sissy experiences, etc.  Even if it's in the comment section i'm quite certain readers here will appreciate it.  i know i will.

And of course, sissy shopping tips are always welcome :)

Thanks Jenny!

love,

sissy terri

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A Desire to Please

i believe that at the very core of very submissive's desire is a strong need to please someone else or to be used for their pleasure.  In my own case, and i think in the case of most submissive sissies, crossdressers and transvestites, part of that desire to please includes looking attractive for them. 

i've spent hours getting ready for Diane and now Jake trying to pay attention to every detail.  It's disappointing at times when you spend quite a bit of time or put a lot of effort into doing something like panting your nails or picking out a special outfit or piece of lingerie and they either don't notice or don't even mention it. 

However, i do get satisfaction out of the effort i put into looking pretty for them.  If they say little about my appearance, then i take it as if it is just their expectation that i look as best i can for them.

The other day, i spent a long time giving myself a pedicure.  i'm not that good at it so it takes quite a bit of time.  i felt so feminine doing it and it put me in a very feminine and passive mood before i saw Jake. 

i knew Jake wouldn't be staying long and since i was in stockings and heels it wasn't likely he would see my pretty pink toes.  But i have to say that while i was sucking him and worshiping him between his legs, my fresh pedicure made me feel more like his sissy girl.

love,

sissy terri

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Real Men - Their Needs Cum First

my time with Jake last night but short but it was very intense.    i sucked him to orgasm twice within the span of thirty minutes.  Not that impressive but considering what he made me to to him, i thought it was noteworthy.

i may have mentioned this before but i love facials.  Feeling Jake's cum all over my face puts me in a submissive and femme mood.  The only thing that probably makes me feel more submissive is when he withholds that pleasure from me.  Last night he did just that, at least for a while, telling me that when a real man is with a sissy, the real man's needs come first.

Jake had me take his slacks and underwear off before he sat back in the leather easy chair.  He moved his bottom to the edge of the chair and lifted his legs over each of the arms and told me to lick his balls and his ass.  Simple as that.  It was an order, and i obeyed.

Jake was verbally dominant last night.  More than he's ever been.  He talked to me while i licked his ass, telling me how i was now his sissy, ass licker and cocksucker.  The language turned me on so much.  He knew i wanted to play with myself while he shot a load all over my face.  He would have none of it. 

When he was ready, he stood over me, shoved his cock in my mouth and made me swallow his big load.  "Looks like my sissy was thirsty" he laughed.

After another session of ass licking, he was ready to cum again.  This time, it wasn't nearly as big a load, but it still felt nice on my face.  He smeared it over me with his fingers, and made me lick the fingers clean.

Minutes after he was done with me, he was gone.  i still felt some cum on my face.  i felt like such a slut.  His slut.

i know this is a little more risque than what you usually find on these pages.  Sorry about that....it's just that i'm loving sex like this more and more and felt the need to write about it.

love

sissy terri

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Sissies & Sports

Diane's away until tomorrow so i've had plenty of free time to play with Jake.  Unfortunately, would couldn't get together until last night when his work day ended. 

His excuse to his wife was that he was going out for a beer with friends to watch a college basketball game at a local sports bar.  It was a very believable excuse.  He's a big college hoops fan and a season ticket holder for the local university team. 

Jake watched the game at our house.  i didn't see much of it at all.  He insisted that i spend most of the time on my knees with my head between his legs, focused on pleasing him. 

It was a submissively heady experience for me.  i've never spent so much time simply focused on and devoted to another man's cock. 

Even between the tree orgasms he had, i knelt there while i kissed, licked and simply worshiped his privates. 

He's stopping by again tonight for more of the same but won't be able to stay as long as last night.

Maybe it will be a quickie, or maybe time for more than one.

Either way, it makes me feel special.  Just knowing he enjoys what i do for him also makes me feel so girly.  Even slutty.

i think i'll wear something more sexy than sissy tonight. 

i feel more womanly than sissyish.

i can't wait to please him again!

love,

sissy terri

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The Bridal Fantasy

Sissies, CD's, TV's and submissive males have many fantasies that deal with feminization and gender play.  i think that one of the more popular ones is the "Bridal Fantasy."  i can't think of any other outfit that expresses femininity, or has the opportunity to put the wearer in an ultra-femme state of mind than the bridal gown.

Diane left yesterday afternoon for a conference that begins today and runs through Wednesday.   She called me this morning to let me know that maybe i should have gone with Her because there was a Bridal Expo being held at the hotel where She's staying.  It was a tease, but one that we both knew was so true.  She's well aware of my bridal fantasies and hinted that some day "we need to act on some of them."

Diane's call has me thinking about how much fun it would be experience everything that comes with being a bride.  The engagement, planning the wedding and of course shopping for a wedding gown!

The honeymoon might be fun too!

love,

sissy terri

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A Submissive Sissy Friday

i got to see Jake yesterday afternoon and even though it was only for a little while, it fulfilled my sissy needs.  Most of them anyway.

What made the afternoon more erotic for me was that while i was doing the best i could to please Jake as he was laying back comfortably on our leather sofa, i knew that Diane was likely doing the same thing (and probably more) with Her lover Paul.

While Diane was in some sexy black lingerie pleasing Paul, i was wearing something similar but only in pink.

i loved getting down on my knees for Jake, and i did it as sexily as i could!





As i paid attention to Jake, i thought about what Diane might be doing with Paul and it was all i could do to stop from wetting my own panties!

Of course, i couldn't share all of my thoughts with Jake.  He doesn't know i'm a cuckold even though he's asked me before if i think Diane suspects anything or if She Herself is "messing around."

The whole afternoon was just "girlie heaven" for me.

And when Diane got home early in the evening, i got to please Her also.  Putting my lips and tongue where Paul had been just hours before put me in another deeply submissive yet satisfying frame of mind.  i guess you could call it 'cuckold heaven."

Love,

sissy terri

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A Sissy's Lesbian Desires

i really wish i had a "sissy girlfriend" who lived close by.  Someone with interests that parallel mine, both sexually and emotionally.  Someone to share my femininity with, do girly things, shop, etc.   Maybe even a big sister of sorts. 

Sapphoria.tumblr.com

i haven't done anything to find that special someone.  With so many outlets to do so on the internet one would think i would have made more of an effort to find a girlfriend.  Shame on me.

My feelings  here are quite sexual and often see myself as having a "lesbian" love affair with another sissy girl or even being a real girl and in love with another woman. 

There's little doubt that if i were a lesbian i would definitely want a more aggressive and somewhat dominant partner.  i don't want to stereotype here and what i'm about to say isn't meant to be disparaging in any way. 

i'd love a partner who was a bit of a tomboy.  i think women like that can still be very feminine.  i wouldn't want someone who was real "dykey" if you know what i mean.  Especially in public.  But in private, she could be as dykey as she wants to be!

Sapphoria.tumblr.com

love,

sissy terri

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FemDom Sex

Last Tuesday Diane got me all excited when She called me with instructions to be wearing some ruffled panties when She got home from work.

The call had come around 1 o'clock and She didn't get home until after 6:30, a little later than usual.  That left me plenty of time to fantasize about what might happen or what She had in mind.  The call made me very horny and it took all i had not to play with myself.  i wanted the orgasm i would experience at Diane's hands to be powerful; expressing my pent up emotions, feelings and urges that had built up because of Her phone call. 

An hour after She had arrived, Diane seemed quite satisfied after the two orgasms i'd brought her to with my oral attentiveness. 

As for me, i never got to experience one.  It was a huge disappointment and i know Diane knew i was upset, yet She said nothing.  In fact, little, if anything was said for much of the evening.  There was a "that was really nice" after the second orgasm but that was it.  The rest of the evening was simply small talk and my serving dinner and cleaning up afterwards.

All night, and into the next day i battled mixed feelings.  There was the disappointment and the feeling of being used for nothing more than to provide Diane pleasure.  Those same feelings also provided a perverse feeling of arousal, igniting my masochistic and submissive needs and making me feel a bizarre sense of enjoyment at how She treated me.  

The feeling were magnified because i couldn't see Jake on Friday.

The incident only reinforced the reality of living with a Dominant Wife.  Her sexual needs come first.  my own are not just secondary to Her's, but in Her mind, they only exist if She wants them to. 

love,

sissy terri

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Ruffled Panties

"I want you in ruffled panties when I get home" Diane told me just a half hour ago.

It was one of those calls I get from Her from time to time; an indication that She's in the mood to dominate me and possibly use me as a woman.

i'm all too happy to oblige.

"Is there anything else You want me to wear" i asked, hoping there would be more direct orders and specific instructions.

"No, nothing special.  Whatever you want.  Just make sure you have ruffled panties on" was all She said.

Now my imagination has gripped me.  i'm fantasizing about Her walking in with Her lover Paul and making me show my panties off to him.

"See why i need a real man" She would say.

As usual....a gurl can dream right?

love,

sissy terri

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Another Sissy Date - In a Dress

Last Friday was one of the most femininely fulfilling times i spent with Jake.  Wanted to write about it earlier but i had to go out of town for some consulting (something i thought was over and done with) and just returned yesterday. 

Jake must certainly "be in the mood" for me again because he said last week that he wants to try to make this Friday afternoon get together as regular a thing as possible.  And, given how last Friday went, i wish we could do it even more often.  He was even concerned that i wouldn't be back by today so that he could "use" his "little sissy girl."  Wow.

Last week the pleated skirt i chose to wear pleased Jake and was the perfect piece of clothing for what he had in mind.  After sitting down on the leather sofa in our living room, he ordered me on my knees and had me kiss him between his legs with his slacks still in place; a type of teasing he hasn't used with me very much.  i wanted him so bad, but he was making me wait.

He then ordered me to stand up and lift the navy blue pleated skirt i had on to show him my "girly ass."  i was wearing some white tights/pantyhose over some pink panties because i didn't like the way the thigh highs looked with the skirt.  Little did i know that Jake was really turned on by the pink panties under the white tights!  He took me over his lap and spanked the crap out of my ass!!!  It was the most forceful spanking i'd ever received and put me in the mood for all that followed. 

i felt as submissively feminine with him as i ever have.  He was aggressive as i pleased him and talked to me soooo dominantly.  i loved having him in my mouth as he talked dirty to me.  One thing i love is getting a facial from Jake and he usually obliges.  Not last Friday.  Everything was his way and i was told to make sure not to spill a drop of his juices.  i felt like, and was, such a slut.

Today, he's said if i was good he might let me have a facial.  i'm hoping he does.  There's something so sexy about the humiliation of it.

And, he wants me in a dress.  i wish i had more sissy dresses.  Maybe a vast collection of the most sissyish dresses anyone could find.

Don't you think these would be a good start???

You can find these and other feminine finery on my tumblr site A Married Sissy.

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A Sissy Date - In a Skirt

It's been a long time.  Weeks actually.  Finally i am seeing Jake this afternoon.  He called me early this week and said he might have time off Friday afternoon and asked if i were available.   i used to get upset over these long periods where i don't see him because he probably doesn't have "the urge" to be serviced by another man.  i'm mostly over that.  i understand it.

i also know that phone calls like this make me feel even more submissive, like i  need to be available when he wants me to be his little slut.  So yes, i told him i was pretty sure i'd be available.  In fact, i'm very available.  Diane won't be home until around 7 PM so i have all afternoon and then some to be available for him.

Jake called this morning to confirm and sounded very horny.  i am too.  "Can you put on a skirt for me?  A short one?" he said.  My sub sissy side would have preferred he simply said "I want you in a short skirt when I get there."  Don't ask me, just tell me and expect me to follow orders.  But nothing is perfect right?

i wish i had a skirt like this to wear for him, because of the bow.... 

i love bows, and i'll have to look for one like this.

But i do have a lovely pleated one to wear, and i'll be wearing it when he gets here.  i'd love to crawl to the front door and open it for him while on my knees.  That might be a bit much. I'll wait until he gets inside the house :)

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Halloween Ideas #2

Today's a holiday and Diane's office is closed so we're spending some time together, doing lunch and maybe even a little shopping for something pretty for both of us.  Been awhile since we've done that.  She's also expecting a call from Paul later today, a not-too-subtle reminder that i'm a cuckold, even on holidays!

Here's a follow-up to yesterday's post about possible sissy halloween costumes....

This outfit has plenty about it that i like, not to mention that it has a retro look as well.  There are pig tails, knee socks pink shorts and even the bubble gum gives it a lolita or bimbo type look!  Now all i have to do is learn to roller skate a little better.

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Halloween Ideas

Halloween is coming soon and i can't help about think of what i'd love to be this year.

This is what i feel like today...

...but i still have more than two weeks to change my mind :)

love,

sissy terri

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A Cuckold in Babydolls

Diane's lover Paul was on call last night but i was still surprised when he called Her some time after 10:30 PM.  The call came on Her cell of course and we were in bed reading; i in a pair of summery pink plaid babydoll pajama set and She in some navy blue silk pajamas.  After answering, She took the call in an adjoining room upstairs that we share as an office.

i later found out that Diane had told Paul he could call Her if he wanted.  As a reminder, Paul's unaware of our lifestyle and that i know about their relationship so he naturally expresses concern about either he or Diane "getting caught" or raising unnecessary suspicions.  Since Diane also has a loose professional relationship with Paul, She explained to him that She could easily dismiss any call he made to Her outside of normal work ours.  If Paul only knew how easy it is for Her.

As i lie in bed in my girly pajamas while my Wife was in another room on the phone with Her lover, i thought about how my relationship with Diane has progressed to where it is today.  Some would call it a regression, but all in all, even though the road has sometimes been bumpy, we've made progress.  i know that personally, i've become more accepting of my role and understanding that cuckolding isn't always what you read about in fictional fantasy.  And if it was, i might have a difficult time dealing with it.

i also thought about how long it's been since i went to bed in something other than a nightgown or other feminine sleepwear.  i think it's approaching two years or maybe more, but who's counting?

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Cuckold Outfits

Last night i thought about how humiliating it would be to be made to dress up to greet Diane and Her Lover Paul. 

The most humiliating outfits i could think of would be those that symbolize a stark difference between Her Lover's masculinity (the reason She finds him so sexy) and the cuckold's lack of same.

For instance, here's one that i believe fits that description:

 

When i see this picture, all i can think of is a sissy cuckold being called downstairs to meet her wife's lover, and i'm the cuckold.  Diane's already selected what i'm to wear and laid it out on the bed for me.  When they're ready, i'm called downstairs to meet Paul for the very first time, dressed like a little sissy girl.

Just another one of my dreams.

love,

sissy terri

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The Devoted Cuckold

i'm sitting here waiting for Diane to get home.  Ever the obedient sissy cuckold wife, i've dressed to look pretty for her, prepared dinner so that it will be almost ready when she arrives, and chilled Her favorite bottle of wine.

She may be a few minutes, half hour or maybe even an hour late.  Sometimes, She and Paul spend a little time together after regular office hours.  Knowing that my wife is enjoying the company of another man, a real man, excites a sissy cuckold like me.  The fact that She looks forward to coming home to me after being with Paul also excites me.  Diane likes the attention i give Her.

This weekend, She confided to me that She loves the attention i give Her even more after She's spent time with Paul.  When i asked Her why, She thought about it for awhile and said that it mad Her feel more loved.  "Your devotion to me turns me on" She added.

i love being a devoted cuckold.  i love Her too. 

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Cuckold Outfits

Just a thought as my wife Diane is on the phone with Her lover Paul.  i know what i'm fantasizing about is not likely to ever happen but.....

i would love to be made to dress like this in front of my Wife and Her Lover....

 

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Cuckold Dreams

i woke up this morning in a very aroused state.  i have a very difficult time remembering my dreams with even the most minor level of details but all i know is that it involved my being in one part of a very large room while Diane was in another part.  The room was full of people and i could see Diane talking to a group of people, both men and women and pointing over in my direction.

i couldn't make out the faces of anyone except Diane, but yet they all looked over at me when She pointed, and i became extremely self-conscious, yet i made eye contact with Diane and She jus smiled. 

i lay in bed for awhile and my arousal didn't go away.  i thought about a regular fantasy of mine, being a sissy maid for Diane and serving Her and Her friends, be they male or female.  Perhaps She'd throw a dinner party, maybe even a coming out sort of party to introduce Her new lover Paul to Her close friends.

The party might also served to introduce everyone to Her new husband-turned-wife-and-sissy-maid.
Of course, i'd be wearing the most feminine of sissy maid uniforms.  It would be pink satin, with ruffles, a petticoat and all the most sissyish accessories Diane could find.

A sissy cuckold can dream can't she?   i wish i knew where we could buy this!

love,

sissy terri

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Another Sissy Spanking

Diane gave me another spanking last night.  It was similar to the one She administered on Saturday with one of my black leather belts.  It's an accessory which i rarely wear these days, unless we're going to a formal event or i have to wear a man's suit.

Diane gave me the spanking for no specific reason.  To the contrary, She noted how happy She's been with not just how well i've been completing all my "wifely duties" but on how improved my overall attitude was.  "I like spanking you and I think we should do this more often" was Her explanation.

i just couldn't leave Her comment alone and wanted to know more, like what caused this increased interest in spanking.  i asked Her if it had anything to do with Her new lover Paul.  Diane was a little coy in Her answer telling me that She wasn't quite sure why She now seemed to enjoy spanking me more but that it could be related to this new romantic interest of Hers. 

"I'm enjoying the diversity of having a man who's a little dominant and another who's very submissive" She went on to say.  "The difference is more pronounced and visible than it was when I was with Brian.  Lately, you've been more submissive and obedient and Paul's more dominant than Brian ever was."

Her frankness and openness about Paul, along with the fact that She clearly enjoys it, is one of those things about being a cuckold that makes it very uncomfortable and causes me anxiety.  As much as we (submissive males) fantasize about being a cuckold, the reality of your wife submitting to another man and relinquishing control to him in a D/s or BDSM context can be worrisome and bothersome.

Again, i felt i had to ask if She had ever received a spanking from Paul.  "Yes, a couple of times.  Once with his belt too" She said.  Diane broke the silence that followed by reassuring me everything was safe and fun.  "There's nothing over the top that takes place.  And, I promise to tell you everything we do from now on."   Her reassurances made me feel a little better,  but it was still a difficult topic to deal with.

"You know, all women have at least a little submissive streak in them.  You should know that!"  She had a big smile on her face. 

She's so right.  my own feminine side has a very, very strong submissive streak; far stronger that Hers.

love,

sissy terri

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Extremely Sissy

On Sunday i posted pictures of a few outfits that i thought portrayed "ES."  A sissy named Alicia wrote to me suggesting that it's not only the femininity of the outfit that makes one appear extremely sissified, but the circumstances surrounding why you're wearing it.

Alicia wrote "For instance, if you're only wearing a pair of simple pink panties, but your wife is making you wear them in front of her mother, sister, friends or worse yet, boyfriend, to me that would be extreme sissification..."

Of course, Alicia brings up an excellent point.  Any outfit can evoke high levels of humiliation and sissification depending on the surroundings, circumstances, audience, etc. 

However, there are still some outfits or makeovers that can heighten anyone's femininity.  Take this one......

Does anyone know where i can get a Barbie necklace like that?

And how about being a bunny girl for your wife's lover and his friends?

Love,

sissy terri

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My Saturday Sissy Spanking

Today marks my fourth day in a row of posting; this after another self-induced funk that caused an all-too-frequent hiatus from these pages.  So, this is quite an accomplishment.

Saturday turned out to be a rather wonderful and important day for me.  i wrote that Diane had gone into Her office and was likely to hook up with her lover Paul while there.  i was correct.  Little did i know that She was planning to involve me in her little tryst that day.

Diane's offices are closed on weekends and given the location of Her office, Paul's office and the nature of what they do, they can easily gauge when there will be no likelihood whatsoever of anyone showing up unannounced.  Also, their personal offices lock with no one else having the keys.

Two hours after She had left i received a text message from Her to call Her.  i wondered why She hadn't just called me and as soon as She answered, it dawned on me that Paul was right there in the office with Her when i called. 

"Hi honey" She said in her sweetest voice and condescending tone.  "What are you up to?  Did you get all the errands done i asked you to do?"

i told Her what i had done and what i was planning on doing for the rest of the day.

"You're such a sweetheart.  I shouldn't be that much longer, maybe an hour.  I'm really getting a lot done, and feeling really good about it" She said almost giddily. 

"See you in a bit, surprise me for dinner okay?  Love you."  That was it.

i wasn't 100% sure that Paul was there because i didn't hear him, but i just knew it.  Diane verified it later.

The one-sided exchange excited me.  The thought of Diane and Paul embracing and messing around in Her office while she paused temporarily to tease me over the phone (without him knowing) kept me aroused all afternoon. 

i couldn't wait for Diane to get home, knowing that She wanted me to look pretty and that i was going to get a spanking for failure to capitalize a pronoun in an earlier post here. 

i wore a flowered little girls dress with yellow ruffled panties, the bloomer square dance type panty, ankle socks and white mary jane shoes, and waited for her to arrive. 

She commented on how pretty i looked and marched me upstairs to the master bedroom and told me to lean over the edge of the bed while she pulled my panty down.  She lifted the skirt portion of the dress to reveal my smooth buttocks and used a pillow to hold the dress down so that it would fall back over my bottom. 

The spanking was a long one.  Diane used one of my old leather belts.  "A man's belt, something a

 sissy doesn't wear anymore" She said.

Her teasing continued.  She referred to Paul several times, talking about their fooling around in Her office and how many orgasms She enjoyed.  "I had three big orgasms, and several smaller ones.  Here's the proof" She said as she removed her panties and put them up against my face. 

"I'll bet you wish Paul was spanking you don't You?" She asked me.

She was right, and it old her that yes, i did wish that. 

She let me cum in the ruffle panties when it was over, and it was a wonderful orgasm as She continued to tease me. 

She cuddled me after and we talked for what was the longest we've talked in a very long time.

i admitted to Her that i had lied to Her.  She gave me a funny look and asked me to explain.

"Before i said that i wished Paul was spanking me.  Well, that is a fantasy but it's really not my wish.  i'm glad it was You who spanked me and not someone else."

She smiled and hugged me.  i'm accepting the type of cuckold that i am.  It's not the type i've fantasized about, but i realize that it's probably for the best.

love,

sissy terri

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Extreme Sissification

Many sissies have fantasies of being outed, put on display in front of others while wearing the most extreme sissy clothing possible.  It's about the effect that humiliation has on them.  i'm not a psychiatrist so i can't explain it.  But i know the feeling. 

Here are a few sissy outfits that i think fall into that category.  When i see these, i can't help but think about being made to wear something like this in front of my Wife Diane's girlfriends or Her Lover Paul...

Sissy outfit #1:

Sissy outfit #2:

Sissy outfit #3:

Which is your favorite?

If you have any "extreme sissy" outfits that you'd like me to show here, just send me an email and i'll be glad to share.  No nudity please.

Love,

sissy terri

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Simple Sissy Saturday

Diane went into the office today, even though it's closed.  She had a busy week and says She has to catch up on things.  She could easily catch up on those things here.  i wouldn't be a distraction.  I'm sure part ofHher "catching up" might include a visit from Paul. 

She understand the funk i am in and is helping me get and stay out of it but under Her terms. 

"Be looking pretty for me when I get back this afternoon.  I'll call you" She told me  She also added that She owed me a spanking.  i asked Her what i did wrong. 

"I read your blog post last night.  Did you forget the rules about capitalization?" She said.

i told her i hadn't but had probably made a mistake. 

She left without a comment.  It was a small exchange but one that made me feel like i was getting back into Her life, O/our life.  What i did, or didn't do, mattered to Her.  i felt ignored, insignificant but at the same time important.  Sounds crazy but that's how i felt.

i'd put on simple white cotton panties today.  Nothing fancy but they make me feel feminine and like a housewife. 

 

But now i know that i'll have to change into something prettier for my spanking, and that makes me feel as good as i have in a long time!

love,

sissy terri

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Back Soon

i'm slowly coming out of my funk and will post more details soon.

i realize that so many of the things i fantasized about four or five years ago have come to fruition and i'm not happy.  i seem to want more and i feel like an ungrateful and selfish submissive.

Diane is still with Paul and i am a full blown cuckold, just not directly involved in the sex they have.  That may never happen and i have to come to grips with that.

i also feel that my submission to Diane is something so routine now that She takes it for granted.  

i haven't seen Jake in a few weeks and that's also put me in a down mood.

i wonder why i require so much attention?

My tumblr blog has been very active however.  It's been an outlet to express my femininity in a somewhat non-sexual fashion.

Thanks to those of you who have left comments, written me here or on tumblr.  Your kindess and thoughtfulness help very much.

love,

sissy terri

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Accepting Some Changes

i haven't posted in awhile because i'm having a difficult time dealing with the changes that are taking place in my relationship with Diane.  Because of that, i have a hard time putting my feelings into words.  Eventually i will but right now i can't.

On the "home front", Diane has become much more dominant and demanding.  That's been coupled with a reduction in the amount of sex she demands from me.  i worship her on demand but not as often as i once did. 

She also wasted little time in becoming involved with Paul, her new lover.  i'm being cuckolded, but not involved in any way in their fun.  Diane doesn't see my involvement changing.  She's happy to enjoy Paul just the way it's going on now. 

Diane's also shared details of our relationship with her best friend Linda, whom she trusts deeply.  Last week, Linda saw me dressed in a maids uniform as i served the two of them lunch.  It was set up as a display of Diane's dominance over me.  It was something i had fantasized about for so long, yet had a difficult time accepting it when it finally happened. 

i haven't seen Jake since the last time i wrote about it.  He's been traveling on business and it seems as though his interest in me has wanted.  i opened up to him the last time we were together that i would like him to be more dominant, even suggesting that i craved for a "Dom Daddy" type.  Perhaps that scared him away.

So that's where i am right now.  You can probably sense my feelings, even though i haven't really tried to expound on them here.

i'm just in a funk, experiencing what it means to be a real submissive.

love,

sissy terri

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