A Steford Sissy Wife

i've always been fascinated with (and fantasized about) the whole notion of being a "Stepford Wife."  The idea of being a submissive and docile "wife" is no doubt a fantasy of many sissies like me.  The novel by Ira Levin that was published in 1972 has helped to popularize that perfect combination of submissiveness and femininity. 

Yesterday i came across a reference on the web that led me to this link to some of photographer's Christine McConnell's work.  i had some of her stuff but didn't pay much attention most of the time.  However one of the photos that was featured in the piece i saw yesterday was enough to get my undivided attention.  It was this "1950s-style, Stepford Wives-inspired self-portrait."

According to the commentary under the photo, the picture is noteworthy because it "showcased all of her talents: modeling, painting, sewing, baking, styling hair and makeup, and photographing."  No doubt she's certainly a lady who's talented in some very traditional feminine tasks.

Seeing the photo was very timely and coincidental for me.  This week i spent time at Jake's house, doing housework, tidying up and making sure the house was in perfect order when he got home.  Like a good Stepford Wife, i served him his favorite beer and snacks before i knelt by his side ready to pleasure him.

Pictures like this and other 1950's style housewife photos, art and stories help put me in the proper feminine and submissive mindset that make doing housework and pleasing Diane or Jake more enjoyable for me.

Housework and other similar chores that are my responsibility aren't always enjoyable.  In a fantasy world they are, but in reality they aren't.  Dressing properly, getting into the correct frame of mind and accepting and embracing my status makes it easier and femininely fulfilling.

love,

sissy terri

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my Time in Chastity

It's been about three weeks since my CB-3000 arrived.  It's not a long time, but enough for me to start getting used to wearing it.  For Diane, it's also been enough time to start establishing some rules and a regular routine that i'm expected to follow.

Her purchase of the CB-3000 was to initially set a caveat for my seeing Jake:  i wouldn't be allowed to see him unless i was wearing the CB-3000.  Now that i've had an opportunity to get used to wearing it and without much discomfort, Diane's expanded Her demands.

With little exception (there haven't been any thus far) Diane's expectation is that i will be in chastity whenever i'm not with Her.  Since this new protocol has begun, i haven't yet had to travel on business so that hasn't been a problem.  When asked about that all Diane said was that She'd "come up with something that will work for both of us."

Diane doesn't insist that i wear the CB-3000 to bed, so since She started these new rules i'm locked into the CB in the morning after i shower and before She leaves and let out at night before bedtime.   i've gone to the gym while in the CB and even played a round of golf.  Interestingly, the first round of golf I played while in chastity took place yesterday afternoon while Diane was hosting Her lover Paul here.  It was their regular Wednesday afternoon tryst.

Wearing it to the gym hasn't posed the problems i thought it would.  There's been little discomfort.  And it's not unusual for me to come home and shower here after my workouts.  Same thing with golf.  i used to shower at the club once and awhile, but my not doing so isn't going to raise any suspicions with friends or anyone else.  My golf game didn't seem to be affected either.  It might have even prevented me from "over-swinging" and  help to keep the ball in play!

It's no surprise however that the most uncomfortable times are when i'm submissively pleasuring either Diane or Jake.  Serving them is very arousing and gets me into a very physically high state of arousal.

As medical professionals, both of us are careful about things we do and eat and about lifestyle choices.  There's not a lot of research and data about the long term effects of chastity on men (or on women for that matter).  Like many things, moderation and listening to your body is important.  Wearing a chastity device while in a state of arousal can cause some pain and that's something to be aware of.  By not wearing it at night, i don't have to worry about the compression my CB would cause from uncontrolled nocturnal erections.

i found this interesting article written by the well known sex writer Dan Savage.  Savage's column, "Savage Love" appears in many places.  In this particular column Dan answers this reader's question:  "Can locking my penis in a chastity device cause long term damage?"  Pretty interesting.  The suggestion that serious chastity players get a more expensive custom made belt is a good one.  Maybe down the road.  The biggest drawback there is that all the custom made ones i've seen are in stainless steel.  Diane is insistent on a pink colored belt.  No surprise. 

Diane is actually the one that found this article and had me read it.  When we were talking about it She couldn't help but tease me about the urologist whose primary concern was "the long term health and preservation of erectile function down the road."  She couldn't help Herself and had to ask me why, as a sissy, would i have a need for erectile function anyway!

Ouch!

love,

sissy terri

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A Woman's Touch

This post is so way overdue.  There's just so much to tell you while at the same time plenty of ambiguity.

Late yesterday afternoon, alone at Jake's house, i applied the finishing touches of my lipstick (the bright red color that he likes best) in his master bathroom; the one he shared with his wife until their breakup.  i'd arrived there shortly before noon and let myself in.  i had chores to do and orders to getmyself all prettied up and waiting for him when he got home from work.

Putting on makeup and dressing up takes on a whole different level of importance when you're doing it to please someone else.  It's done with a care and attention to detail that just isn't present when you're just doing it for your own enjoyment or necessity.  It's one of those things that puts me in a deeper subspace than i already feel.  

He was leaving the office early so he could be home to see the first pitch of last night's Game 6 of the World Series.  On the way to his house i'd stopped to pick up his favorite beer and snacks.

The list of chores wasn't long, but enough to keep me busy most of the afternoon.  There was laundry to do, some ironing, dusting, cleaning the bathrooms and just regular tidying up of the house.  With his wife gone, Jake also decided that a "cleaning lady" might not be needed.  He thought i might be interested in the job.  He was right.

I was thinking that the house needs a woman's touch" he told me.  "Someone to keep it clean, nicely decorated, I'm sure you know what I mean."  He said this while i was on my knees pleasing him just the way he likes it, nice and slow.  No heavy sucking and taking him real deep until i can tell he's ready.  i'm getting better at sensing what he enjoys and when he enjoys it.

i knelt there licking and sucking him as he continued talking to me, holding my head firmly in place and running his hands through the black wig i was wearing.  His hands on my head were an indication that i was to listen while he talked.  "I just wonder if you can maintain two households.  I know you're Diane's wife but I'd like a similar situation.  Within her guidelines of course."

His words, my thoughts and the sensations i got from kissing, licking and sucking his cock and balls created a very painful situation between my legs.  The pink chastity belt i wore never felt so tight and restrictive.  Diane's rules haven't changed.  Each time i'm with Jake, i have to be in chastity.  Her demands coupled with Jake's indifference to my locked state have made me feel more submissive than i ever have.

When i'm with Jake, my pleasure comes only from serving him.  Since we've been together again, i've yet to experience an orgasm while i'm with him.  Conversely, he's had plenty of them.

Shortly before 5 PM my cell phone rang.  Jake was calling to tell me he was almost home and wanted me to greet him at the door in just my bra, panties and some heels.  i had to make some adjustments, careful not to mess my makeup or my wig.  i checked in the mirror one last time to make sure i looked my best.

The beer was cold and the snacks were ready.  The house was sparkling.  i'd even bought some fresh flowers and put them in a vase in the foyer just outside the den where he'd be watching the game.   i wondered if he'd notice?  Would it matter if he did or not?  i waited patiently for him, feeling a little silly in my bra and panties, the bra i wore filled with some silicone inserts to give me a more feminine look.  

My self-consciousness gave way to a feeling of anxiety when i heard the garage door open.  Should i be on my knees when he arrived?  Or should i just be standing by the door waiting?  He gave me no specific instructions.  My instincts told me i should rush to greet him but i didn't want to appear to "aggressive."

He walked through the door and i moved towards him.  "Wow.  Pretty sexy" he said ad he pulled me close to him.  He felt much stronger this time around.  He'd been working out and it showed.  He gave me a peck on the tip of my nose and said he didn't want to smear my lipstick.   "It will be smeared soon enough" he laughed.  "Now get me a beer."

He went into the den and i got him his beer and put some snacks on the table by his favorite chair.  He took the remote, turned on the television and laid back.  i dropped to my knees in front of him and waited.  i didn't wait long before he told me what he wanted.

My lipstick was indeed smeared soon enough.  It was smeared more than once.  While he watched the game, i brought him to orgasm three times, refreshing my makeup after each orgasm turned my face into quite a mess....a mess any sissy would love.

love,

sissy terri

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Surrounded by Femininity

Our household was oozing with femininity this weekend.  As part of the preparations for my daughter's wedding next year, our two daughters were here along with four of the five bridesmaids who will be part of the wedding party!  Naturally our lifestyle takes a back burner when our daughters are around but that doesn't mean that Diane is any less in charge.  It's just not noticeable. 

There was plenty of shopping and bridal related tasks for all the girls to do which did give me some free time to see Jake.  That's a story for later this week; serving him while in chastity is more difficult than i thought it would be and also emotionally and psychologically challenging.

The Sissy Brides

All the girls are gone and it's back to "normal" for the rest of the week.

Whenever the upcoming wedding is discussed, planned, or like this weekend, taking up almost 100% of our time, my sissy mind can't help fantasize about being a bride.  i've written about it numerous times here and the fantasy never, ever goes away.

There's just so many beautiful bridal fashions out there i truly don't know where i would begin if i ever had the opportunity to be a real bride. No wonder brides-to-be take so long to make a decision
about what they'll wear on their big day!

i know i'd be more traditional and want something very elegant and feminine.  However, i would also like to try on as many gowns as possible :)

love,

sissy terri

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Pajama Party

All of my deep sissy fantasies don't necessarily involve sex.  Some are just girly things that i've never had a chance to experience.

One of these would be an old fashioned pajama party with other girls (or gurls)!  When i was younger, my older sisters would either have or attend these.  They didn't intrigue me until i got a little older and by then, their rooms were "off limits" to me and all i could hear was the laughing and giggling that went on.

As i grew older, i fantasized about what it would be like to be included or invited to these parties.  i'd fantasize about what i'd wear and what all the other girls would be wearing, what we'd talk about, the games we would play, etc.  i still fantasize about it.

i now wonder what a pajama party for sissies would be like?  Maybe i should throw one?  i wonder if Diane would let me?  Who would i invite?

Baby doll pajamas would be required!

love,

sissy terri

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A Sissy's True Confessions

i didn't go into great detail in my last post about the conversation i had with Jake last Thursday.  The more we talked, the more comfortable i got and i ended up sharing quite a few things with him that i never thought i'd be able to.  Most important is that i did this with Diane' permission. 

It was a huge step for me.  It also makes me feel better about myself and about not hiding anything.  i didn't plan it this way but Jake knows about 1) this blog, 2) my tumblr blog and 3) Diane and my Female Led Relationship and 4) Her cuckolding me.  Naturally, by knowing about either numbers 1or 2, Jake would have figured out both numbers 3 and 4.

There's a sense of relief by telling him the truth.  i feel less anxious about things.  Rather than lead him on that Diane doesn't know about certain things while She actually does, Jake now knows everything.  Like i said, i didn't originally plan it this way but happy it turned out like it did.  i didn't write about this yesterday because after we parted on Thursday, i told Jake to take some time to read the blog and to call me after he was done.  There are many posts and i figured it would take some time.  When i posted yesterday, he hadn't called me back yet.

i got that call today.  Naturally, he has many, many questions.  Who wouldn't have?  But the good news is that he saw nothing that would cause him to change his mind about us getting together again and developing a regular relationship.  i was very nervous about that even though he had already told me he doubted anything would change his mind.  But the reassurance i got this morning was very welcome.

He was amazed at my tumblr blog and said that he loves the insight it gives him into my sissy fantasies!  That led me to tell him something else, something i don't post about either here (i may have a few times) or on my tumblr.  i told Jake that whenever i see pictures that portray women as very submissive to a man, i see myself in that picture and want to be the woman!  It happens all the time.  It could be a woman on a leash being led by a man, a woman in bondage serving a man or other various types of D/s scenarios involving Male Doms and female subs.

"Well, you should either start posting them somewhere or send me the pictures you like" Jake said.  Wow....he might be sorry he said that.  i may be inundating his inbox with pictures/ideas.  i also might become a little more liberal in what i post on my blogs!

love,

sissy terri

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A Sissy in Chastity

i haven't been able to post because of some personal commitments both Diane and i have had this weekend.  This one is also going to be a little short, but i've been dying to tell everyone that my meeting with Jake on Thursday went real well.  It wasn't rushed, we had time to talk privately so that i could tell him everything i wanted to and best of all, he was more than accepting of Diane's decision to insist on chastity when i see him.

Our meeting could be summed up very well in two short sentences he said to me:  "Why should I care if you're in chastity or not?  When we're together you'll be there to please me and your pleasure will be secondary."  It's the most dominant thin he's ever said to me.  It's evident that he wants to be far more dominant with me than he ever was before.

There's also another wrinkle that's changed things a bit since we last met.  Jake is getting divorced.  It will be final in a few weeks.  His divorce has nothing to do with his bisexual desires or me at all.  It's not even a nasty divorce.  It's an amicable break up and Jake is going to keep his house here, at least for now unless he decides it's just too big.  He teased that he's now going to need a "lady of the house" once and awhile and asked if i was interested!

The afternoon ended with my following him to his house.  We didn't have much time because i had something going on Thursday evening with Diane, but there was time enough for what he wanted.

After sliding down the pantyhose i was wearing and dropping my pink panties so he could check out my CB-3000, i dropped to my knees and took his cock into my mouth.  The combination of sucking his cock and being in chastity created as submissive a feeling as i've ever felt.

From Jake's reaction he enjoyed it plenty as well.  "It's been way too long" he said.  True.  It has.  Now that we're back together, this is going to be a regular thing.  i'm going to get used to serving in chastity -  both Diane and Jake.

love,

sissy terri

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Full Cut Panties and Fall Hosiery Styles

i'm slowly getting accustomed to my CB-3000.  Daytime wear isn't that much of a problem (unless i become aroused and even then, the discomfort isn't as bad as i thought it would be) but wearing it to sleep results in quite a bit of discomfort in the morning.   A couple of my readers commented on my earlier post that "morning wood" would be a problem. 

Diane laughed when i mentioned this to Her.  "Morning wood?" She giggled.  "I think you mean an enlarged clitty!"  It was a cute joke and being accustomed to these comments, i took it in stride and appreciated Her sense of humor.  For now, Diane doesn't make me wear it at night.  At least i'm under close supervision as She sleeps by my side :)

Full Back Panties

i've also found that i'm more comfortable wearing a "full cut panty" when the CB-3000 is on.  If the panty i wear is too small, the extra bulk of the CB stretches it out and the leg openings seem to rub against my testicles causing a little bit of irritation.  i also mentioned this to Diane and She thought itwas a good idea that i wear a panty that "covers everything."

I'm going to have to do some shopping for more full cut panties.  Many in that style are plain.  Even though i love the plain pastels, i want to vary my selection so that i can get some that have pretty lace, trims and bows like the panty shown here.

i'm prepared to meet with Jake tomorrow, at which time i'm going to tell him about the conditions Diane has set for my seeing him.  It's going to be a long discussion.  i want to explain things fully to him; how Diane knows not only about my dressing, but about my seeing him.  i'll also tell him about Her Dominance over me, most of our lifestyle and Her decision to put me in chastity.  i'm going to be honest and up front with him.  It's the best way to go and given the circumstances, i don't have much choice.

i'm glad some of you enjoyed yesterday's post about the Maidenform sale.  i should also mention that i get a daily email from Bare Necessities.  This company has an excellent panty selection that features all the brand names in various styles.  Today's email blast from Bare Necessities promoted "6 Must Have Hosiery Styles!  Check it out.  Why miss out on all this sissy fun?

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Shopping - Bras BOGO 1/2 Off!

My sissy inbox is always overflowing with promotional emails from all the brand name lingerie stores and websites.  A gurl needs to stay in tune with the latest styles and even more important, the sales!

Today i happened to take advantage of Maidenform's sale of its most popular bras and shape wear - buy one and get one for 50% off.  Not a bargain basement price but a good deal just the same.  And for you sissies who are either too shy or too busy to go shopping for these in person, then this online sale is perfect for you!

While you're browsing their site, why not sign up for their newsletter?  It's like a daily reminder of your femininity!  Sissy shopping and browsing can be fun, even from the privacy of your own home or better yet, boudoir!

love,

sissy terri

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Sissy Workouts

i exchanged a few emails with Jake yesterday and early this morning.  We're going to meet for coffee on Thursday for sure.  Between now and then we'll probably talk some on the phone as well. 

i'm going to let him know that i want to see him again and tell him how eager i am to explore what appears to be a much more Dominant Jake.  Our email exchanges thus far have indicated that he surely wants it that way.  i'm also going to bring up the subject of the CB-3000 and the reason i'm being forced to wear it when with him.  It's simply a condition of Diane giving me permission.  He's going to find out about my total submission to Her.  Until then, i'm putting together some "bullet points" that i want to bring up in our chat.  i want to be prepared.

Preparation for the meeting is also going to involve working on my physical appearance.  i'm in pretty good shape, but i want to be in the best shape i can be in when i see Jake again.  i've already lost a couple of pounds and want to lose a few more (a total of five pounds) by Thursday. 

These types of preparations make me feel more feminine and submissive.  Toning my body so that it's pleasing to Jake.  i'll be dieting and going to the gym regularly, but i've also thought about a few other activities that might be fun.....

How about working with a hula hoop to tone my waist and hips?

Or maybe a round of golf?

Tennis is a great sport for sissies.  Is it more fun to play, or get dressed for the match?

There were never any real girls on my little league team, but i know there was at least one gurl!

Football?  i'm not sure....i think it would take a pretty tough sissy to play that game :)

love,

sissy terri

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Diane's Decision - Chastity

A few weeks ago i wrote that Jake, the man i had an affair with a while back, had contacted me again and wanted to reestablish our relationship.  This time, Jake seems far more interested in taking on a more dominant role than he did before, something i also wanted.  However, i needed Diane's permission to see Jake again.  i discussed it with Her and She told me She would think it over and decide.  

i followed this up with a post called "The Sissy Waiting Game" where i wrote: "Diane hasn't yet given me permission to get together with Jake.  This morning She assured me Her decision was imminent.  "Don't be so impatient" She said with a laugh.  i have the feeling She is going to let me see Jake.  At least that's how She's acting.  She just seems to be enjoying the "waiting game" She's making me play.

After that post, i didn't put anything up here for a week.  When i finally wrote again i explained my silence by letting everyone know that i had some things to sort out in my life and how i wanted to proceed.  i'm ready now to let you know what led to the silence and what i've decided.

Diane did give me permission to see Jake.  From the way She was acting i thought She would, but i also thought She was simply enjoying the control She had over me and the fact that She could make me wait while She took all the time She wanted to make Her decision.  Her decision however came with a catch.  The condition She put upon my seeing Jake took me completely by surprise.  It was something She'd previously expressed no interest in.

"You can see Jake" Diane said.  i immediately thanked Her but was quickly interrupted.  "I'm not finished.  There's a condition attached to my decision.  If you're going to see him, you're going to be wearing a chastity belt when you do."

"What?  i'm not sure what You mean." i stammered.  Diane had usually discounted chastity as a means of expressing Her dominance.  i'd brought it up several years ago and whenever the topic came up She dismissed it immediately, saying the whole process or lifestyle was simply "too much work."  She would also say that She knew i masturbated and it didn't bother Her that i did.

"That's my decision" She continued.  "I ordered a chastity belt and it should be here in a couple of days.  If you're with Jake, you're in chastity.  Besides, isn't it a fantasy of yours?"

i suppose it is.  It was then that i remembered having a discussion with Diane and Her teasing me about locking me up while i was home alone.  i wrote a post about it and finished the post writing about what it might feel like to be locked up while with a man of my own.  Diane doesn't comment much about my posts, but it's clear that She had read this one and filed it away.  

The chastity belt arrived as scheduled and i've been wearing it regularly, beginning with only a few hours and working my way up to most of the day after about 10 days.  It's not as uncomfortable as i thought it would be, but i haven't yet been made to wear it at night.  It's a  CB-3000 pink package  from A.L. Enterprises.

i want to see Jake but haven't yet got back to him to let him know i'm "available."  If i do, i'll have to explain to him that i'll be in chastity and that will no doubt lead to an explanation on my part that will reveal far more about my relationship with Diane than he already knows. 

The fact that Diane decided to have me in any type of chastity is not the only thing that's surprised me about this whole thing.  i'm also very surprised that Diane is prepared to have me share this part of our life with Jake.  She knows Jake, but not in an way that She'd want me to share such intimate details of Her dominance over me.  

i'm going to call Jake early this week.  i want to be with him again, and i think he'll understand.  His only contact with my cock has been fondling it through my panties and seeing me masturbate in front of him after providing him with pleasure.  The fact that it would be locked up while i serve him shouldn't be an issue as far as that concerned.  i'm hoping that perhaps, he might even be aroused by it.  i would think that some Dominant men would enjoy having a chastised sissy to use.  We'll see,

Once again, Diane's exerted Her control in an a way i never thought She would. 

love,

sissy terri

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Female Led Relationships - Another Insight

Yesterday afternoon, while Diane was with Her Lover Paul at the far opposite end of the house, i sat safely locked away in the guest bedroom, alone with my thoughts and ideas about many things.  Having completed a final report and recommendations for one of my consulting projects, i passed the time by reading, looking at my tumblr page and other news sites until i was summoned by Diane and told that "the coast was clear."

While looking at tumblr, i came upon this blog posting on Female Led Relationships.  It's a question from one blogger to another.  Read on...

loveisalandfill asked:

Do you think the kind of relationship you have with your wife is becoming more common? Does she network with other dominant, breadwinner wives, or talk to some online maybe? The benefits of this lifestyle for an alpha female seem obvious..

 cryanisback:

 This is an excellent question. The quick answer is yes. She has several alpha friends (she is a senior exec in an industry dominated by men) and the women that are in similar roles find each other. She has a few friends who have female led marriages and, of those, a couple over drinks have asked about sex and submission. Pegging is becoming much more common and She has encouraged more than one to give it a try only to have them call Her and tell Her “thanks for the suggestion - he wanted it but was afraid to ask”. For us, chastity, pegging, bondage and discipline all are natural companions of a female dominant marriage. Not only are they the glue of the role reversal, they are fun.

An interesting question and a very interesting answer which gets into some pretty specific detail about what exists in the dynamic of this specific Female Led Marriage.  First, let me talk about the larger issue, which is the fact that these type of marriages are becoming more popular than one might think.

Some of you may know that both Diane and i were professionals in the medical field.  i think it just so happens to be a field where women have risen to higher levels of administration and management than many others.  i think there are a few reasons for this.  First, years ago the nursing field was overwhelmingly made up of women.  Men who chose the nursing profession were sometimes ridiculed, made fun of or sneered at behind their back.  At the same time, many nurses were entering the profession with not just nursing school backgrounds, but with undergraduate and even graduate degrees.  This type of education, intelligence, and the culture changes taking place that emphasized more equality for women made them excellent candidates for advancement in the field.  Soon, they were climbing the corporate ladder of hospitals and other health related organizations throughout America.

The larger issue of course, was their intelligence and ability.  The cultural changes that were taking place just gave them an opportunity to showcase their talent.  Over time, these women were in powerful positions and sometimes earning more than their spouses.

Situations such as these lend themselves to an easier development of a Female Led Marriage.  The woman is intelligent, financially independent and easily able to support a spouse and family.  However, the woman in my opinion must still have some predisposition to Dominance.  For a Female Led Marriage to work, She needs to enjoy being in control as well as all the other things that might come with that.  My point is that Her education, financial independence and powerful status in the workplace makes it easier.  The seeds for such a FLR are already planted and ready to germinate so to speak if She so chooses.

i'm not sure how often the specifics of such a relationship are discussed as shown above.  I'm sure it does happen when women of similar situations gather together for a cocktail after work and the talk starts to flow a little easier.  And naturally, when common ground is found between the women, then more details are likely to be shared.

Not all Female Led Marriages have as much of a sexual component as ours does, or the one discussed in the answer above.  For these type of marriages to be successful, both parties have to want it.  They also have to be prepared to deal with the problems and issues that will naturally arise.

As time goes on however, if two people are truly committed to it, the submissive realizes that the power, control and final decision making in the marriage rests with the Wife.  Sex is also on Her terms and the submissive's role is to be there to please.  The sexual aspect of the realization is just as important.

That realization is an awakening of sorts.   The sooner it occurs, the happier they both will be.

love,

sissy terri

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Girdles, Femininity & Sissy Feelings

".....Imposing, certainly, and demanding. Pour yourself in and cinch it. A promise not to jiggle or shake. A promise to aspire to feminine shapes, to adjust the ratio of your belly to your hip, to believe in one perfect female ideal."    Amy Larocca, New York Observer 1/24/00

 Beautiful words aren't they?  Especially when read by a submissive and feminized sissy male like myself who has been trained by a Dominant Wife to look as attractive and feminine for Her as possible.  i've been in many a control panty before, but the girdle and corset hold a certain feminine and submissive mystique to me that's difficult to describe. 

As i contemplate my fate when it comes to whether or not i will serve Jake again as His submissive sissy, my desire to look uber-femme for Him wants to include the wearing of a girdle or corset.  Not just any one, but something feminine and flattering.  Something confining enough to remind me of my girly efforts to look nice for Him. 

Even though girdles and corsets find their way onto many a Dominant Woman in the BDSM fetish world, a submissive male should never forget what these beautiful garments are intended to accomplish....

"All these items have one thing in common - they're designed to mold the wearer's body into a more pleasing shape, smoothing undesirable lumps and bumps whilst accentuating more feminine aspects, ultimately seeking to achieve an archetypal hourglass figure. In order to accomplish this, foundation wear imposes itself upon the wearer by means of constrictive or unyielding material, often enhanced with rigid boning to force the body into the desired shape. The degree of control exerted can range from light to severe depending on the design, but the fundamental principle remains the same whether a lightly elastic basque or a heavily boned corset is involved - unlike other underwear, it is the body that is shaped by foundation wear rather than the reverse."  Brassiered.com

"Forcing the body into the desired shape."....powerful words.  The Dominant's Desire?  The submissive's?  Both perhaps, with one obviously having the final say.  How feminine and shapely would they want me to appear?  How restrictive do they want the garment to be?  Would they even ask how it feels? my own girdle might feel far more restraining, restrictive and unyielding if perhaps say....i was mandated to wear it by Diane, Jake or someday, maybe even Paul....."Is sissy wearing her girdle like she's supposed to?" He might ask with His words dripping with contemptuous humiliation.  my answer to Him would be expected and mandatory, despite the obvious visible signs of the garment's effect on me - the girlish silhouette my body presents. 

"...Plus, starting today I want you girdled until after dinner. Nine hours minimum. So get your girdle on and get the dog out for his walk before it gets too hot. You have at least five pounds to go so you can have coffee and a piece of toast for breakfast and a nice salad for lunch. Now get cracking.” With that Hannah, beautifully naked went to take her bath.   A Man in my Position

 A beautiful position to be in; "girdled" nine hours per day minimum.  It's an exercise to please his Dominant Wife Hannah. 

i'm suddenly jealous of this man's position.  His wife doesn't seem to have a lover and consequently, he receives so much of Her attention and Dominance.  i on the other hand know full well that i share Diane with Paul.  My submissiveness and femininity, along with all the duties and responsibilities that come with it, is always expected regardless of how much or how little attention i am paid.

love,

sissy terri

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