Sissy Lust

i had one of those increasingly rare "male moments" this morning, the ones where i get the sudden urge to have sex with Diane the way a normal man would.  Fortunately i kept the feeling to myself (until now), strained the confines of my chastity device and finished by acting upon it like a good submissive sissy cuckold wife.

It was a very brief incident, lasting no more than a minute at most.  But it's been stuck on my mind all morning, a testament to how powerful everyday routine and even innocuous moments can be.

i was out of bed first this morning, rising to the alarm on Diane's side of the bed which She immediately put on "snooze" after it first went off.  It's Her alarm and is set for the time She wants to get up, but it also serves as notification to me to get my butt out of bed and start the coffee.  That's what I did and climbed back into bed a few minutes later.

Diane usually goes through 2 and sometimes 3 "snoozes" but today She was up after the second one and headed into the bathroom to take a shower.  i stayed in bed just a few more minutes and went down the stairs to bring Her a hot cup of coffee just the way She likes it (first cup of the day with just a splash of skim milk, every other cup just black).  i set the cup on the vanity just as She was turning the shower off and went back into the bedroom to start making the bed.

When i returned to the bathroom, Diane had toweled off and was wearing just a white bra and a pair of white panties.  Her hair was up in a white towel.  That's when the "male moment" hit me.  She looked so sexy i wanted to fuck her right then and there.  The urge was sudden and powerful.  The lust to take Her in my arms, slide into Her and explode couldn't have been greater.

These randy and naughty feelings took place as i stood there wearing a pink babydoll,  pink slippers and caged.   It was then that my submissive instincts took over.  i moved behind Her, kissed Her on the neck, told Her how beautiful She looked, dropped to my knees and kissed Her beautiful bottom.

"Well thank you" She said in a very pleasing and happy voice as I continued to kiss Her.  "Maybe tonight you can get a little treat" She added just as i moved away.

A treat would be nice indeed.  i've only been allowed one orgasm in April (the same number i was allowed in March) and that may be the reason i had the "manly urge" this morning.  Another orgasm would be a treat.  We're going out to dinner with some friends tonight so if the treat is going to happen it's going to be a late one.  We'll see.

On the other hand as Paul mentioned when he was here Tuesday, Diane's had plenty of orgasms this month.  The Chasity Report is loaded with green with one lonely pink square for contrast.

Orgasm equality isn't one of the goals in a Female Led Marriage.

love,

sissy terri

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The Cuckold Calendar

During the best of times, Diane's calendar is pretty full and so is Paul's.  It's the nature of their jobs and their profession.  i used to be just as busy but now that i'm semi-retired and a sissy wife, my calendar isn't quite as full as theirs.  Diane's schedule being what it is and the responsibilities i have for taking care of everything on the domestic front, reinforces my role as Her "wife."

Of course by maintaining Her sexual relationship with Paul, She reinforces my role as Her submissive cuckold.  Both things go hand in hand and so far seem to have worked pretty well for us.

Keeping an affair of this type going and making sure it doesn't lose it's excitement can be a challenge. Diane's lucky in the sense that She and Paul have been able to play here at our home on a pretty regular basis, carving out some time on late Wednesday afternoons.  Our home provides a nice, safe and clean place that just so happens to have a sissy cuckold husband at their disposal if that's what they want.

There are times however where making the Wednesday afternoon work can be a challenge for either or both of them, often requiring constant communication between the two which takes up way too much time for two such busy people.  The problem has surfaced more so this week than usual because of some commitments Diane and i have over the next two to three weeks.  But of course, Diane always comes up with a solution to problems or at worse, a work-around.

Diane's given me total access to Her online calendar.  She can be quite the techie and uses Her iPhone all the time to manage Her calendar and other things.  Since She feels She has nothing to hide from me, why not use my skills to help manage Her calendar.  Now, when trying to find a time to see Diane and schedule a "date" with Her, Paul won't have to call Her office or even reach Her on Her cell phone.  He can simply call the cuckold.

Now it appears to me that the easiest way for this to work is for Paul and Diane to communicate directly with each other.  i've already lost that argument.  Diane's already made the decision.  i'm going to manage "the cuckold calendar" among other things.   That's the name Diane's given it.

When their regular Wednesday afternoon rendezvous doesn't work, it will be my job to find a time where Paul can make love to my wife.  If you look at it that way, "cuckold calendar" isn't a bad name for what i'll be managing.


First the Chastity Report and now the Cuckold Calendar.

The first can be quite frustrating.  The second?  Let's just say it adds a tiny tinge of humiliation to the whole thing.

love,

sissy terri

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Punishing the Submissive Sissy

Earlier this week (the exact day escapes me right now) i forgot to send Diane and Paul the daily chasity report.  i was up early as usual, started the coffee, turned my laptop on and completed the report.  i just got sidetracked and never sent it to them. It's the first time since that's happened since this rule was instituted.

Neither Paul and Diane respond to the report every day.  More often then not they don't.  It's strange and counter intuitive to most people how ignoring someone like that is actually tending to their needs in a D/s type of relationship.  The submissive is expected to provide or complete a certain service or task which may or may not be acknowledged.  That's just the way it is.

It was later at night that Diane reminded me that i hadn't submitted the daily report.  i told Her i thought i had and immediately fired up the laptop to check my email's sent folder.  Sure enough, i hadn't.  The report went out immediately.  Diane didn't seem upset but just stated that my forgetfulness was deserving of some sort of punishment.

The punishment took place yesterday afternoon.  i received ten very hard swats from Diane's riding crop across my bare bottom while Paul listened in over the phone.  He may or may not have heard every single blow, but he surely heard my cries.  They were that hard.  i don't recall Diane cropping me that hard before.

As further punishment i was made to kneel in the furthest corner from the bed in our master bedroom while Diane talked and had phone sex with Paul.  i knelt there with Diane's panties over my head.  All day i had been thinking about worshiping Diane while Paul aroused Her over the phone.  The last time we did that was so wonderful.  It was not to be.  Instead all i could do was listen to the fun She was having; her moans, giggles, sexy talk and orgasmic cries leaving no doubt that She was enjoying herself.

Another, but much smaller disappointment took place when we never made it to Victoria's Secret yesterday.  Stopping at the mall would have made Diane late for Her "phone date" with Paul.  It was mostly poor planning on our part and not intentional.  It was a beautiful day and we took some extra time sitting in the shade listening to a small jazz group while we sipped on an iced cafe mocha from some local bean roaster.

Though it was a smaller disappointment than being denied participation in Diane's pleasure yesterday, it was nonetheless a powerfully symbolic event when it comes to my submissive status.  Diane wanted to be home in time for the phone date with Paul and at the time, i was looking forward to it also.  Yet Diane knew all the time that i wouldn't participate.  i'd be kneeling in the corner with Her panties over my head. 

The cancellation of the trip to Victoria's Secret was just the beginning of my punishment yesterday.  It was the first part of a trilogy that included a thrashing and some denial.

Was being on time for Paul more important to Diane than feeding my sissy submissive need for a shopping trip to Victoria's Secret?  Some would view it that way and insist that was Her sole intent.

Yet relationships like ours are complex.  Her actions yesterday, as selfish as they seemed to be, satisfied both Her needs and mine.

love,

sissy terri

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Tallying Orgasms

A few days ago Mick from Under Contract to My Wife left a comment to my post on Orgams Inequality.  The post was about how, as a result of my being locked in chastity, i've only been allowed to have one orgasm this month while Diane up to that point had enjoyed fourteen days on which she had one or more orgasms.

Mick was shocked that Diane had only had four orgasms through twenty-one days.  Here's his comment:

I'm wondering how Diane can only have 14 orgasms in 21 days? Mistress Molly rarely goes a day without 1 or 2. Is Paul restricting her orgasms the way she restricts yours?

Mick

i really can't leave Mick's question unanswered, nor could i respond appropriately without talking to Diane about it.  First, i needed to know if i Diane had told me about every orgasm She had (those that She might enjoy with Paul when i'm not present are conveyed to me and i put then on the Chastity Report) and second, i wanted to get Her thoughts on having "only 14 orgasms in 21 days."  And we also talked about Paul and if he'd ever restricted Her orgasms.  It was an interesting discussion.  And lastly, i also did some research over at the Under Contract to my Wife blog to verify Mick's claims.

Let's start with my research.  Admittedly, it wasn't exhaustive (the blog has been around for awhile and probably has more than 1500 posts.  But with few if any exceptions, Mick's claims appear to be quite accurate with little exaggeration.  His Mistress Molly seems to be a sex machine, an-orgasm producing dynamo that puts even very sexually active women like Diane to shame.   "Two-a-days" as they're referred to over there are routine.  Some of the orgasms even take place in Mick's office at lunch time.  Really.

Diane was even impressed but did admit that "there was at least one orgasm" She failed to tell me about "and maybe another."  She also put up a slight defense for Her meager number compared to Molly's:  "I have a very busy full time job and schedule you know.  I think my numbers are pretty good.  And it's not like I have access to Paul every day either."  That last comment kind of hurt a little.

"You do know that i'm always available" i added.  i couldn't let that last comment just hang there.

"Not always.  Sometimes you're gone and the timing with Paul isn't good.  Maybe I should do the solo thing like you used to before we got that under control."  OUCH.  It's true that my masturbatory habit has come to a dead stop since January 1st, but She didn't have to put it that way.

Diane does have plenty of toys to play with (yes, i'm one of them) and could certainly find something to suit Her if neither Paul or i were around.  So why not suggest it?

"That's not a bad idea.  But I still don't think I could match those numbers."  We both laughed which put the conversation in its proper context; sexy, fun and under Her control.

Last night when Diane got home from work i was told to go get a specific toy out of Her closet.  i think it was called a "rabbit vibrator" or something like that.  It has a funny little protrusion at the tip and it can also rotate in circles among other options.  "Just lay it on the bed and I'll be up in a few minutes."

Diane did use the toy for a bit.  But in the end, it was "old reliable" that sent Her swooning.  She tasted so good.  Another green day on the Chastity Report.

love,

sissy terri

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Cuckolding Postponed

The semi-regular Wednesday afternoon tryst between Paul and Diane never materialized yesterday.  A big disappointment for them and likely on a smaller scale, a disappointment for me as well.  i think the longer time span between the meetings between the two of them in which i'm involved, the more my anxiety builds.  If they were to meet more regularly and i was always involved, i would be less nervous and less anxious. 

Diane may have been disappointed but wasn't upset.  She was busy as well and they both have jobs that can be highly stressful at times and yesterday was one of those days for the both of them.  "Why should I be upset" She said, posing a rhetorical question of sorts and before I could provide any response added "when I have my own orgasm-producing machine right here" as She touched my lips with Her pointing finger. 

It was a very dominant statement and gesture and sent a little tingle down between my legs.  The tingle turned into arousal which in turn, given my chastised state, turned into discomfort.  i stayed uncomfortable for a very long time because She immediately went up to the master bedroom.  i followed and used those sensual lips between Her legs. 

It was another greed day for Her on the chastity report.  Again, there was no pink for me despite Diane's best efforts with the strap-on.

At dinner, Diane hinted that Paul might be free this weekend and able to stop by on Saturday or Sunday.  "Would you like that?" She asked me.  "Not as much as You would" was my answer.  "You're right" She said with a chuckle. 

i did get this from Paul in response to my Chastity Report email this morning.

Sissy,

Sorry to disappoint yesterday.  I'll try to make it up to both of you soon.

Sir

Another tease, yet nothing set in stone.  That's fine because i haven't made any set plans for this weekend.  Diane makes them for me anyway.

love,

sissy terri

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Orgasm Inequality

As i prepared today's Chastity Report for Diane and Paul, i added another green block to Diane's "Orgasm Column" and couldn't help but notice the growing disparity between Her green column and my pink one.  Of the twenty one days in March, fourteen have green blocks.  Only one has pink. 

The pink block represents the one, singular orgasm i enjoyed this month. On the other hand, Diane's green blocks rarely represent just one orgasm.  Like yesterday, She most often enjoys multiple orgasms during lovemaking, many times even insisting upon it.  Some women are multi-orgasmic.  Many men are not.  That's especially true of sissies in chastity.

Diane saw Paul briefly yesterday and it's unlikely She had an orgasm while they were together.  i didn't ask and She didn't tell.  When She got home we watched our local college team move on to the Sweet Sixteen in the NCAA tournament and once the game was over, i was led immediately to the bedroom.

As i pleasured Her, i had many sissy thoughts on my mind which added to my arousal.  When i'm like that i wonder if Diane can tell by how i provide Her pleasure.  Does my arousal make me do a better job?  Does She wonder why?  My arousal was heightened yesterday by several factors and with my CB-3000 preventing any full erection, it seemed like my sexual frustration was mounting.

As Diane enjoyed Her orgasms (one was especially powerful) it was obvious my condition was of no concern to Her.  Nor should it be.  i'm the submissive.  There for Her pleasure.  It's not the meant to be the other way around.  Yet when it was over and She told me to get Her strap-on and harness, for a moment i sensed an expression of concern, or at least interest, for my sexual frustration.

"Get the strap-on and stuff.  Let's see what we can do" She said.  There were no instructions to remove the CB-3000.  It would stay on.  "Let's see what we can do" meant She was going to try to give me an orgasm while i was locked.  Something that has yet to happen.

i've read that orgasms while in chastity are possible.  While i've yet to experience one, i've come very close so i believe it can happen.  From my personal "close" experiences, i believe they come about as a result of a combination of things.  The eroticism of what's taking place at the time is obviously important, as is the mental state and thought process of the individual trying to experience the orgasm.  Sensual touching, teasing, verbal and other stimuli also play a role. 

Yesterday, i came close....very close.  Diane made sensual love to me with Her strap-on and seemed to say all the right things that put me into deep subspace and sissy heaven.  A couple of times i thought i was going to cum and even seem to feel a little bit of precum leaking out.  i came close, but didn't come.

Diane enjoyed our little session and made it a point to tell me.  "It's fun to use you this way" She said, "even when you don't cum" She laughed.  "Especially when you don't cum" She added in Her own teasing way.  "Don't worry about it" She said, "It's going to happen sooner or later."

i could have easily had an orgasm.  All Diane had to do was unlock me and take the CB off.  i would have exploded in less than a minute.  But that would have been the easy and simple thing to do. 

Chastity is the new reality here.  My orgasms aren't going to be easy and simple.

Neither are they going to be equal in number to Diane's.

love,

sissy terri

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My Chastity Commitment

i spent much of yesterday doing some volunteer work, a situation that precludes me from wearing my chastity belt.  i could wear it, but it's better than i don't. So i spent a little less than 10 hours unlocked, bringing my monthly percentage down slightly.

The effect that chastity has had on me has been profound.  How i've handled this and the effect it's had on me has surprised both Diane and i.  For instance yesterday, as soon as i got back home the first thing i did was to get back into my CB-3000.  i've become very good at putting it on and i was locked in a matter of minutes.

The urge to "cheat" (or please myself like a sissy) was there and several months ago i would have no doubt succumbed to that urge.  But now, with almost three full months of chastity under my "belt" - thought you'd like that one - that same urge is overpowered by my commitment to chastity.

Last night shortly after pleasing Her and adding another orgasm in Her column on the Daily Chastity Report, i mentioned how i'd gotten back into chastity immediately upon my return from the volunteer assignment.  "That's what you're supposed to do isn't it?" was Her response.  Not that i was expecting a compliment because She's right, it is what we agreed upon and what i'm supposed to do in such situations.  i was just hoping She would share in my amazement at how well things have gone.  Eventually She did, sort of.

"Don't worry.  I don't take your chastity for granted" She said.   i wasn't quite sure what She meant by that, but was certain that it was said with much affection and love.

i sent out the Daily Chastity Report to Diane and Paul early this morning.  Diane was still sleeping and i'd forgotten that Paul was on call and possibly up and working this weekend until he fired back this quick response:

Sissy,

Your time in chastity this month is impressive despite yesterday's minor setback.  Also nice to see you took my earlier instructions to heart.  See you Wednesday?

Sir

The note surprised me and for a moment, i wasn't sure what he meant by his "earlier instructions."  Then i remembered that last month, he sent me a brief note telling me that my time in chastity for February needed improvement.  Paul's subtle display of his dominance in the note along with his teaser about this coming Wednesday has me aroused.

Coming from my Wife's lover, it's also pretty embarrassing.

love,

sissy terri

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Chastity Update

We're on our way back home in a short while and remarkably, while on this mini-vacation, i've remained in chastity throughout.  And even more surprising is that barring any "emergencies", by the time we get back home later this afternoon, i will have been in constant chastity for more than a week, with the exception of when i'm allowed out to bathe or shower.

i would never, ever have thought that i would ever be able to accomplish that.  Diane is very proud of me also.  Above all else, that's what is most important.  A Domme's satisfaction with their submissive is hard to quantify.  Even more difficult to explain is the submissive's own pleasure that is dervived by the Domme's satisfaction.  In a way, it's a cycle that pleases the other exponentially.

my percentage of time in chastity this month is in the high 90's.  And even though the year-to-date percentage barely moves each day as the numbers grow larger, it does creep up as i progress.  i know there will be setbacks and times where i just can't be in chastity.  Those times will make me more committed to the lifestyle when i can be locked.

The whole thing makes me wonder just how high the expectation will be in the future.  Will there be any changes?  Great demands?  Or maybe, something totally unrelated to chastity that will be expected of me.  Crazy thoughts, but that's how a sissy cuckold's mind works.  At least it's how mine does.

love,

sissy terri

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Chaste and Feminine

Yesterday marked the beginning of my third month in chastity.  As required, early in the morning i sent Diane and Paul a copy of the daily Chastity Report that included a monthly and year-to-date summary of the time i've been in chastity.

In February i spent 81.62% of the time locked up in my CB-3000.  Year-to-date, the percentage is a bit higher at 85.29%.  February's drop in percentage was driven by our hosting guests for a two week period and the various activities that surrounded that time.

Diane is very happy with the percentage of time i've been locked up.  Similarly, i am pleased but also proud of what i've been able to accomplish.  The percentages are far greater than either one of us thought they'd be and are driven by the fact that almost every night, i've slept in chastity, despite some morning discomfort.

i still find it surprising and remarkable that this has worked so well.  If you recall, Diane was never a fan of chastity, insisting that the whole thing would be too much work.  She prefers a "low maintenance submissive" and in that regard  She's trained me quite well.  The chastity has turned out to be pretty low maintenance and as i get used to it, should be even easier for Her.

In addition, the "results" of this effort aren't only manifested by the hard data She and Paul see every day.   Sure, those numbers represent concrete and easily measurable results, but they fail to take into account other intangible benefits that my chastity has provided.  Among these are a more submissive demeanor (i know, that's hard to believe i could be more submissive), greater obedience, a calmness that comes from accepting my sex life is under Diane's total control and even greater commitment to  my role as Her sissy wife.

Finally, chastity has at times made me feel more feminine. Yes, i am in panties 24/7 and very often wearing more than just lingerie, but the pink CB-3000 also enhances my submissive femininity.  Even if i'm wearing just a pair of panties, or even nothing at all, the cute little pink cage and lock between my legs reminds me of my sissy wife status!

However, it's always nice to get really "gurlied" up while in chastity.  Maybe a cute pink corset like this.  Do you think it's feminine enough?

The photo is courtesy of my sissy gurlfriend Jo Bradford.  Kisses Jo.....xox!

And for those of you who guessed that the last pair of panties shown in yesterday's post were my favorite, you guessed right!  But let's be honest, i'd be happy to wear any of them!

love,

sissy terri

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Missing my Cuckolding

It's been more than a week since my cuckold introduction to Paul.  Nine days to be exact.  With all my anxiety, nervousness and preparations leading up to the big day, it was like i was running as fast as i could on a treadmill that just suddenly stopped.  With the arrival of our guests last Thursday things have slowed down quite a bit, at least for me.

Diane has seen Paul a few times, none of which have been situations where they've been able to make love like they do here in our bedroom.  But there's been enough intimacy to make Diane happy, and to keep the cuckolding fire alive.

Despite our guests being around and more golf than usual, i've still managed to maintain a respectable amount of time in chastity.  i'm not in the mid 80% range like i was in January, but i believe once they leave next week i'll be able to end the month at near 80%.  Paul continues to receive the daily Chastity Report and responds with an occasional comment.  His inclusion in this intimate piece of correspondence between Diane and i makes me feel even more submissive.  i sometimes wonder how much more submissive i can become!

Diane informed me last night that i'd probably enjoyed my last orgasm for the month of February.  It was yet another affirmation of my submissiveness.  When She said it, it was a tease meant to arouse me, especially since it was combined with some very tactile affection.  "It's not that bad" She said, "February is such a short month!"  i always loved Her sense of humor.  Perhaps She'll change Her mind and i'll be allowed some pleasure before March comes along.

Our guests leave on Wednesday morning of next week and the plan is for Paul to be here with Diane that afternoon.  Am i anxious about it?  Just a little :)

love,

sissy terri 

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Real Men Don't Wear Chastity Belts

Will tomorrow ever come?

i spent much of today doing some administrative volunteer work for a local non-profit organization.  More than anything else i've done over the past few days, it helped take my mind off tomorrow.  But as soon as i got back home, the anxiety started again.

It's also been complicated a bit by a call from an old friend who's in town and insists on having lunch tomorrow.  Diane's told me to relax and "chill out" a bit, accept the invitation to lunch and come home when i'm done.  If She and Paul get here before i do,  "you don't have to worry, we'll just start without you.  We've done it before!" is what She said with a smile.

She's done Her best to help me relax, telling me time and time again that it will work out because it's what we've both wanted for a long time.  As true as that may be, until it happens and is enjoyable, then i don't think the anxiety is going to go away.  i'm more nervous now than i've ever been on any "first date" in my life.

Paul seems quite relaxed about it all and apparently enjoy the role he's in.  He's only sent me a few brief notes via email in response to a Daily Chastity Report i send to both he and Diane.  One such note came earlier today:

Sissy,

I'm quite impressed by the amount time you're spending in chastity.  I could never do it.  Nor would I of course.

And my intrusion into your blog doesn't seem to have affected your openness.  Make sure that continues.

Sir

The notes are short but very direct.  As the submissive cuckold, and being who i am, i pore over every word and over-analyze every phrase, searching for any hidden or every possible meaning it contains, along with wondering what he's really trying to convey.

Today's note had two things that immediately jumped out at me.  The compliment about the time i spend in chastity, even when taken alone, emphasizes my submission and his superiority.  Put together with the "Nor would I of course" phrase, it was even more powerful.  The difference between Paul and i is made very clear isn't it.  The "hidden" message?  Real Men Don't Wear Chastity Belts!

Then there's the "Make sure that continues."  i took it as a direct order.  i have been doing my best to continue blogging just the way i did before i found out he knew about it.  So i'm happy at least he thinks i haven't changed.

So i continue to wait for tomorrow.  i'm sure if they have to start without me, Diane will have instructions ready for me when i arrive.  Or maybe they'll be Paul's instruction.

love,

sissy terri

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Safe, Sound and Satisfied

Diane arrived safe and sound yesterday afternoon a little after 4 o'clock.  Though i'd only been away from Her a couple of days, it felt so much longer.  i was so happy to see Her.  After i pulled up to the curb at the airport to help put Her luggage in the back of our SUV, the first thing She did was kiss me and reach for my crotch to feel for my CB.  The kiss and the groping for my CB were simultaneous.

"You missed a couple of my orgasms on the chastity report" She told me on the way home.

"i did?  When did You have those?" i asked, unaware that She'd actually pleasured Herself over the last two days.

"I had some free time with no one around and took advantage of it.  The last time I was even on the phone with Paul" She said with a big smile as She reached over and put Her hand on my thigh.  "And i missed you too.  Can't way to feel you between my thighs."

There was arousal stirring in my CB-3000.  It didn't hurt now, but i knew it would when i was between Her thighs.  "Feeling" me between her thighs doesn't mean the same thing as it would when another woman would say such a thing to her husband.  She didn't need to clarify it or anything because i knew what She meant.

Since i'm not allowed to penetrate Her, She was obviously referring to my pleasuring Her orally.  My lips and tongue are always welcome between Her thighs, the cheeks of Her beautiful bottom and anywhere else She so desires. 

Diane moved on to a different topic as we drove home.  Yes, i was paying attention to what She said but my mind had flashed back to an email i'd received from Paul earlier Saturday morning.  It was, what i thought at the time, just a short note in response to the Chastity Report i had sent him and Diane just a couple of hours before:

sissy,

Thanks for the update.  Had a lovely chat with Diane yesterday.  Wished her a safe trip back.

Sir

Diane's view

Now i knew just how "lovely" that chat was.  Obviously, he knew how much Diane enjoyed it.  i wonder if he can appreciate the type of perverse enjoyment i was receiving from it as well.

Later in the day, i did find myself between Diane's lovely thighs.  There was plenty of discomfort between my own thighs with all the straining against the restrictive confines of my CB-3000.  Diane had a powerful orgasm, one during which She was far more vocal than usual.  It took awhile for my discomfort to subside and i wasn't allowed any such pleasure for myself.

In the orgasm department i'm still "0 for February."

And Diane is far, far ahead.

"As it should be" She says.

love,

sissy terri
 

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Accepting Paul's Rules

Last night, much to my surprise Diane suggested that rather than wait until we return home, i let Paul know of my decision to accept the rules he set out for my full cuckold involvement with he and Diane. 

"Include Paul on the daily Chastity Report you send me tomorrow morning" She told me.  "I think it will it would be a very pleasant surprise.  I'm sure you'll make him happy.  Sending him the report was one of his rules right?"

It certainly was and in retrospect it was one that he appeared to emphasize a bit more than some of the others.  Diane believes he has no interest in being my "keyholder" other than at the times he is
there with us.  She also has not intention of relinquishing Her rights as my ultimate keyholder.  

Originally, Diane seemed to want to have some sort of formalized or symbolic event or scene where i would officially accept his terms in front of the two of them.  But always one to spring the element of surprise on me, She's now done the same thing to Paul.  Diane also wanted me to include January's Chasity Report in my email to him, giving him "a greater understanding of how this works."

Diane's "suggestion" fell short of a strict directive but i knew it's what She wanted me to do.  i refer to it as a suggestion because She did ask me what i thought about it.  i was surprised at Her suggestion, believing that all this would have to wait until we got back.  The wait was making me anxious for several reasons, one of course was wondering what Diane had planned and how all this would play out.  By doing it this way, much of that anxiety is gone or at least diminished.  i told Her it was a good idea.

So this morning, i entered yesterday's data on my time in chastity, attached the January and February reports to the email i routinely send to Diane each morning, added Paul's email address to the "To" line, wrote a brief message to both of them, and clicked "Send."

The message to Paul in part read:

"Sir....after careful consideration i've decided to accept the rules you set out at our meeting on January 14th and the subsequent discussion we had on January 23rd.  Beginning today, i will include you on this Daily Chastity Report....i look forward to doing my best to make this work so that it is pleasurable to both you and Diane.

submissively,

sissy terri

i let Diane read the note before i sent it and She thought it was nice.  i'd originally signed off with "regards" instead of "submissively."  The latter was Her suggestion, saying that it expressed a deeper commitment.  i agreed.

i'm not completely sure when i will get to see Paul with Diane next, but right now it looks like it will be next Wednesday.  i'm sure the anxiety might build up again, but for now at least i feel a bit relieved.

love,

sissy terri

p.s. - A special thanks, hugs and kisses to Candi for the beautiful post about her new maids uniform and the beautiful picture!  Aren't i lucky to have such a sweet and beautiful sissy gurlfriend?

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