Showing posts with label Diane and Paul. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Diane and Paul. Show all posts

4/16/15

Dinner for Three - Wife, Lover and Cuckold

The conversation at dinner last night between Diane, Paul and i was very pleasant, lighthearted and enjoyable.  Fortunately, the topic of whether or not the chicken kabobs i prepared had any phallic type resemblance never came up.  i never really thought it would but Mick, one of our loyal followers and frequent commenter seemed to think it might.  See his comment in yesterday's post.

i suppose more than 90 minutes of high octane sex will take the kinky edge of any conversation and let participants enjoy the mellow feeling that usually follows while enjoying a good meal.  Both Diane and Paul enjoyed the kabobs with their compliments dealing strictly with the chicken's taste as opposed to any sexually suggestive characteristics they might have.

It was a very relaxed atmosphere throughout.  We finished a bottle of wine and started on a second and the conversation flowed rather easily.  There was no reference to the sex Diane and Paul had just had but it was evident that the two of them were freshly showered when they came down for dinner.  Diane looked incredibly sexy.  Her hair was still wet and sensually disheveled a bit.  She wore a white blouse that had the top three or four buttons undone, no bra, some pink shorts and white sandals.

i tried not to show my disappointment that Diane had showered after the sex with Paul.  Likely washed away in the shower were the remnants of that sex which She knows i enjoy so much.  She later admitted that She sensed and even shared my disappointment, but the sex while showering with Paul was worth it for Her. 

After opening and pouring the wine i served dinner then removed my apron and joined them.  There seemed to be no expectation that i remain there strictly as a servant.  It wasn't that type of scene.  Again, any heightened sexual edge had been satisfied before dinner.

However, sex wasn't totally absent from the dinner conversation.  Diane injected a bit of kink when she commented on how i was "putting up some pretty impressive chastity numbers this month."  Paul agreed then momentarily surprised both of us when he said "I know.  Everyday I read the report it makes me a little jealous."

"Jealous?  Do we have to order another chastity cage?" She asked.  There was a bit of laughter all the around before Paul explained.

"No.  It's all the fun you've been having that makes me jealous.  All your orgasms when I'm not around" Paul said in reference to the days marked in green that represent Diane's orgasmic days.

"All you have to do is come around more often" Diane said. "i'll let you watch.  terri won't mind."

"Sounds like a plan for next week" Paul laughed.

i immediately thought of their next encounter and how i might be called upon to please Diane while Paul watched.  Would it be before, during or after they had their own sex?  All of the possibilities are good ones and i'm looking forward to it.

love,

sissy terri
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4/15/15

Guess Who's Coming to Dinner?

And i could also say "guess who's going to cum?"  i know, that's pretty crass and naughty.

i had my first opportunity to make not just one, but two appointments for Paul on "The Cuckold Calendar" Diane wants me to manage.   The first appointment was for a late afternoon date here today for the two of them, followed by an early evening dinner before Paul leaves.

Of course in situations like this there are always some sort of time constraints so while Paul and Diane are cavorting up in the master bedroom, the dutiful cuckold will be preparing dinner.  There's probably not going to be enough time to include me in any of today's sexual activity (that may have to wait until later if Diane requires any follow-up servicing) after dinner.  My time is better spent preparing dinner for the three of us.  i'm sure they will have worked up an appetite.

i've just returned from the grocery store with the provisions i'll need to prepare a Mediterranean rice salad, grilled vegetables and some chicken kabobs.  As made my way through the produce section, i glanced around and noticed what appeared to be a few other housewives doing the same thing i was
doing.  i just happened to be the only male there at the time and certainly wouldn't have appeared unusual to them, but the experience was just one other little thing that i have to do that makes me feel more submissive.

The second appointment is for early next week since Diane is not available on Wednesday.  Right now Paul is on Diane's calendar for Tuesday evening which may present itself for another opportunity for me to serve dinner.

As is the rule, i will be dressed feminine while Paul is here and will also be out on the patio in my apron manning the grill.   Real men often wear one of those grilling aprons, the one's that make sure
to highlight their masculinity and machismo and turn the domesticity of cooking into a manly task.

i won't be wearing anything like that today.  i have plenty of others to choose from, all either pink, flowery or ruffly and all unmistakably feminine.  The manly one's just aren't me.

Besides, i wouldn't be allowed to wear one even if i wanted to.

love,

sissy terri
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4/12/15

Punishing the Submissive Sissy

Earlier this week (the exact day escapes me right now) i forgot to send Diane and Paul the daily chasity report.  i was up early as usual, started the coffee, turned my laptop on and completed the report.  i just got sidetracked and never sent it to them. It's the first time since that's happened since this rule was instituted.

Neither Paul and Diane respond to the report every day.  More often then not they don't.  It's strange and counter intuitive to most people how ignoring someone like that is actually tending to their needs in a D/s type of relationship.  The submissive is expected to provide or complete a certain service or task which may or may not be acknowledged.  That's just the way it is.

It was later at night that Diane reminded me that i hadn't submitted the daily report.  i told Her i thought i had and immediately fired up the laptop to check my email's sent folder.  Sure enough, i hadn't.  The report went out immediately.  Diane didn't seem upset but just stated that my forgetfulness was deserving of some sort of punishment.

The punishment took place yesterday afternoon.  i received ten very hard swats from Diane's riding crop across my bare bottom while Paul listened in over the phone.  He may or may not have heard every single blow, but he surely heard my cries.  They were that hard.  i don't recall Diane cropping me that hard before.

As further punishment i was made to kneel in the furthest corner from the bed in our master bedroom while Diane talked and had phone sex with Paul.  i knelt there with Diane's panties over my head.  All day i had been thinking about worshiping Diane while Paul aroused Her over the phone.  The last time we did that was so wonderful.  It was not to be.  Instead all i could do was listen to the fun She was having; her moans, giggles, sexy talk and orgasmic cries leaving no doubt that She was enjoying herself.

Another, but much smaller disappointment took place when we never made it to Victoria's Secret yesterday.  Stopping at the mall would have made Diane late for Her "phone date" with Paul.  It was mostly poor planning on our part and not intentional.  It was a beautiful day and we took some extra time sitting in the shade listening to a small jazz group while we sipped on an iced cafe mocha from some local bean roaster.

Though it was a smaller disappointment than being denied participation in Diane's pleasure yesterday, it was nonetheless a powerfully symbolic event when it comes to my submissive status.  Diane wanted to be home in time for the phone date with Paul and at the time, i was looking forward to it also.  Yet Diane knew all the time that i wouldn't participate.  i'd be kneeling in the corner with Her panties over my head. 

The cancellation of the trip to Victoria's Secret was just the beginning of my punishment yesterday.  It was the first part of a trilogy that included a thrashing and some denial.

Was being on time for Paul more important to Diane than feeding my sissy submissive need for a shopping trip to Victoria's Secret?  Some would view it that way and insist that was Her sole intent.

Yet relationships like ours are complex.  Her actions yesterday, as selfish as they seemed to be, satisfied both Her needs and mine.

love,

sissy terri
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4/9/15

Cuckold Exctitment = Cuckold Frustration

Yesterday's much anticipated tryst between Diane and Paul didn't go exactly as planned.  And though i was in the master bedroom with them for the entire time they were together sexually, it was still a very sexually frustrating experience for me.

Diane called and told me the two of them would be late, so the waiting game began.  They didn't arrive until just a few minutes before 5 PM.  Their arrival was preceded by the usual phone call letting me know to get into my babydoll and matching thong panty and be waiting in the bedroom.  Paul was running late and wasn't in the mood to be wasting time.  At least that's how I interpreted Diane's instructions.

Talk about feeling silly.  There i was in the babydoll i posted yesterday, standing in the bedroom when they arrived.  Paul was polite and gracious as he usually is but dominant at the same time.  After saying hello and taking off his sport jacket, he lifted the front of my babydoll and pulled the thong out a bit so that he could look at my caged penis.  "Just checking" he said.

Diane was getting undressed in the walk-in closet while Paul was doing so in the bedroom, throwing his clothes on one of the chairs. 

"Why don't you lay down on the rug like you did the first time I was here with you" he said, making reference to my first cuckold date with the two of them.  i lay on the rug in front of our bed, face up as Paul finished folding his clothes.  Diane arrived and straddled over me, looked down at me with a smile, said nothing, and lowered herself onto my mouth.  Paul walked up to Her and She began sucking his cock as i did what i was there to do - get Her ready for Paul.

It was hurried,  but not so much that Diane wasn't able to get fully aroused and on the brink of orgasm before Paul told Her not to "cum just yet."  Surprisingly Diane was able to comply with his request, but only by pulling Herself away from my mouth.  Just a few moments later, She was back smothering me again, but not for long.

"I think you're ready" Paul said.  "On the bed."

Diane got up and as She made Her way to the bed got a hard slap from Paul on the ass (i couldn't see it but the sound of the slap was unmistakable, as was Her yelp) and threw herself down on Her back.  Though i still lay there on my back on the rug my face full of Diane's juices, and couldn't see exactly what was happening, there was no mistaking from the sounds (mostly Diane's moans, groans and cries of passion) that Paul had jumped on top of Her and was madly filling Her with his cock.

So there i lay wondering if i should get up and watch, leave, or just stay there.  i decided to stay there but much later when going over the events in my mind, realized that no matter what i did probably wouldn't have mattered.  The two of them were totally into each other and nothing else.  i turned my head and could see very little of them; the bed is kind of high and they were sprawled sideways towards the front.

Diane came multiple times and from that came from Paul, his orgasm was a strong, powerful and manly one.  They collapsed in what seemed to be total satisfaction.

"That was good" Paul said almost in exhaustion. 

"No it wasn't.  It was great" Diane exclaimed. 

Then they were done.  Paul had to get going.

They got off the bed and hugged as I still lay in front of the bed.  Yes, i was still feeling sissy.  i think they had actually forgotten i was even there. 

Paul started to move towards the chair to get his clothes when Diane said "Ah, excuse me, aren't we forgetting something?"

"Oops.  Sorry.  You're right.  sissy, you have some work to do before I leave, but you have to make it quick" Paul said.

He stood over me again, this time with Diane holding his cock out so there was no mistaken what needed to be done.  i got on my knees and cleaned his cock.

"Aren't you glad i reminded you?" Diane asked him.

"mmmm....yes.  I wish I could stay longer.  Next time for sure" he answered.

He delayed getting dressed long enough for me to feel i had gotten most of Diane's juices off his cock.  There were plenty to be sure.

When fully dressed, he said good bye to me and walked out of the bedroom with Diane.  She accompanied him to the front door totally naked.

A few moments later, She was back and it was Her turn to get my oral attention.  It resulted in another orgasm and some meaningful time together afterwards.

Other than our time relaxing in bed after Her last orgasm, i'm not sure the whole episode with Paul lasted a half hour.  It was kind of a "slam bam thank you ma'am" type of thing, with some consideration given to the cuckold. 

Physically i was a frustrated cuckold having been in chastity and unable to view their entire fun while Paul was there.  Yet i was 100% of the time.  More important than anything i felt it was emotionally fulfilling for me.

Diane was happy also.  That's what counts.

love,

sissy terri
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4/8/15

O/our Nighties

i've been quite busy this week but fortunately not so busy that i can't be here this afternoon when Paul and Diane arrive.  i've followed yesterday's instructions and selected a sexy nighty for Diane to wear and a pair of babydolls for myself.

Diane's nighty isn't the sexiest but it's one of Her favorite colors and one that She hinted at strongly this morning as being a preference.  It's one that i bought for Her years ago, made of lovely satin and a deep red.  She's always loved it.  That just adds to the excitement, eroticism and humiliation now that she'll be wearing it for Paul.

my own selection is a cute pink babydoll with a lace bodice and a flouncy and flared bottom.  It comes with a cute little G-string style panty which, when covering my chastity device will serve absolutely no purpose at all.  Just another tinge of humiliation there.

The two nighties are laid out on the bed and just waiting to be put to use.  Good use i hope, still wondering what my role will be this afternoon. 

After yesterday's post i got a lovely email from a longtime online friend i've mentioned before.  i call him "Big Dave" and well....he's a real man who i've always had a "sissy crush" on.  He teases me as good as, or better than anyone i know, with the exception of Diane of course.  Big Dave is sexy, dominant, romantic, ruggedly handsome and well....well....big.  You know, well hung.

Every time Big Dave writes to me, he sends my sissy head swooning with his sexy little notes.  Yesterday was no different.  Big Dave really enjoyed the lavender babydoll i posted, but had some sissy suggestions for me....

Sweet sissy 

That lavender nightie is darling.  Hope you have some matching waist high panties to match.  I'm not a fan of tiny panties on sissies.  That nightie cries out for some high waisted 60s style sleeping panties, bubble panties? Love the look of a tiny tucked sissy way down in her panties.  Really don't have any reason to work the front of those panties down anyway, do we sissy?

Might have to have you work with a seamstress to get it right... Take the nightie with you so they match.  

Kiss
Big Dave
 See what i mean?

Wish me luck this afternoon.  i want to be a good sissy cuckold.  
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4/7/15

Clothes for Cuckolding

Paul visits tomorrow.  i'm here too and there seems like little to get in the way this week of his and Diane's regular meeting.  i have lots to do but i will be getting most of it done while at home.  i may not have that much time for longer posts, but Diane has already told me to make myself "totally available between the hours of 3 and 5 PM" on Wednesday.  No telecoms with clients or any other interruptions.

There were other instructions also.  "Pick out a cute negligee for me to wear tomorrow and one for you as well.  Make yours a babydoll" She said.

The simple instructions have raised my excitement level tremendously.  i now can't wait for tomorrow, even though i still feel nervous and anxious about it.  i still don't know what, if anything, they have planned for me.  But just the idea of selecting something pretty for both of us to wear is very arousing to me.

It makes me think about how important clothing and dressing are to a sissy cuckold when it comes to
pleasing the Wife.  It's almost priority number one.  For the wife, at least in Diane's case though She does dress sexy for Paul, i don't think there's nearly as much thought about what to wear when they get together with their lovers.  The sex is far more important to them.

For this cuckold, the sex wouldn't be nearly as exciting if i weren't dressed properly!

love,

sissy terri
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4/2/15

Erotic Cuckolding

The weather's been rather warm here in the southwest.  We're not native to the area and haven't lived here that long, but we went swimming in our pool earlier this year than ever before.  We were able to swim comfortable in early March, making our friends back east green with envy.

i believe that i've mentioned before that our backyard is rather private.  Because of our property's location and elevation, the closest neighbors can't see into it.  Distant neighbors could catch a glimpse with some powerful binoculars, a telescope, some satellite, surveillance or a drone but it's rather unlikely.  If they happened to do so yesterday around 4 PM, they might have seen Diane lounging topless on the patio with Her lover Paul after taking a relaxing afternoon swim.

Oh, and they might have also caught a glimpse of a sissy in a flirty apron serving them a gin and tonic.  That would have been me. 

The dip and the pool and the late afternoon served by the cuckold took the edge of a busy day for the two of them, relaxing them just enough to enjoy the hour or so of sex that followed in our master bedroom.

The two of them arrived at our house about 15 minutes after Diane had called me to tell me they were on their way and to take the solar cover off the pool.  Once i receive instructions from Diane like this, i can't help but think of what scenario might ensue after they arrive.  Would i be made to wear one of my feminine bathing suits and join them for a swim?  Would they be swimming before or after they made love?  Would they swim nude? Would i be made to serve them as they lounged by the pool?

They ended up in the pool for about 15 minutes.  Not much swimming took place.  Instead, let's just call it some outdoor foreplay in the pool, with Diane often being held by Paul with Her arms and legs wrapped around his muscular torso.  Diane must not have been able to quite convince Paul to go into the pool naked as he opted to wear the bathing suit he'd brought along.  When they got out, the suit did little to hide his excitement.

They didn't finish the drinks i prepared for them, leaving the patio for the master bedroom about 5 minutes after coming out of the pool.  i didn't join them until after 5:30 PM when Diane called me.  Paul had taken a quick shower and was almost fully dressed when i came into the room.  Diane was in a ruby red satin robe i'd bought Her for Valentine's Day many years ago.  It was always one of Her favorites.

Paul was pleasant and even thanked me for the drink, apologizing for not finishing it.  He seemed very comfortable with everything; being in our bedroom, seeing me dressed and the whole situation in general.  i had a sense however that he wanted to say something and i was right.

"Don't worry, it's not always going to be this way.  Diane has plans for you.  See you next week."  He gave Diane a kiss and he left.

Paul was no sooner out the bedroom door when Diane had Her robe off and was ready for me.  She was eager to have me go down on Her.  It was as if She couldn't wait for another orgasm or two.  And i couldn't wait to provide it.  Despite some remnants of Her lover's seed between Her legs, there was never any hesitancy on my part.  Later, She admitted that my lack of inhibition and reluctance about cleaning Her turns Her on.

It was a very productive "orgasm day" for Diane.  She began with one early yesterday morning, had "at least a few" with Paul that afternoon and ended the day with a long and powerful one with me.  She may not have as many as Molly at Under Contract to my Wife, but April was off to a good start.

As for me, i remained chaste all day.  Sure it was challenging...but erotically fulfilling at the same time. 

love,

sissy terri
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3/30/15

Sissy Cuckold Frustration

i hate thongs.  Yes, they look very sexy on many girls but on a sissy (even ones with the tiniest of clitties) i just don't think they look nice.  And since i don't think they look nice, i don't like wearing them.  And since i don't like wearing them....well, so on and so on.

Diane knows all this and after what happened yesterday, it's safe to assume She shared this information with Her lover Paul.  The information along with some plotting on their part made for a very frustrating and humiliating afternoon for me.

It all began when i received a response from Paul to my daily Chastity Report email.  Here it is verbatim:

Sissy,

You'll be happy to hear I'll be over this afternoon at 2 PM sharp.  And you're probably even more excited to know I have another errand for you to run where you will get to spend a little more of your Victoria's Secret gift card.  Like that?  

Today's shopping list is small, just like the things you're going to buy.  You're to buy two lacy thongs.  One for Diane and one for you.  Her thong in black and yours in pink.  Make sure you buy the right sizes, we don't want those pretty things to go to waste right?

I expect you back with the thongs before I get there.

Sir

The email came in shortly after 10:00 AM yesterday not long after I had finished yesterday's blog post.  Paul's noting to buy the right size was an obvious reference to that post.  And the requirement to buy each of us a thong?  Certainly Diane must have let him in on my distaste for them. 

I had a couple of other things to do and when I looked at the time, realized that I would have to get going soon if I wanted to be back in time.  I mentioned the email to Diane and She suggested that "you get your pretty little ass in gear and go shopping."  i was gone in about 10 minutes.

i did my other errands first before i went to Victoria's Secret.  i was my regular nervous self but found what i was supposed to buy and got the usual courteous service from the sales personnel at the store.  It was before noon and the store wasn't that crowded.  i'd be home before one in plenty of time before Paul's scheduled arrival.  i even stopped at a Starbuck's drive thru for a coffee.

Wasn't i surprised when i pulled up the driveway around 1 PM to see Paul's car parked in front of Diane's garage door.  My sissy cuckold mind imagined Paul himself pulled up right behind Diane in our bedroom, just like the front of his car had pulled up next to Her's by the garage.  My imagination wasn't that far off.

Paul and Diane were already in bed together.  It was 1:05 PM.  The bedroom door was closed with a note taped to it that read "Do Not Disturb!  We'll call for you P."  i could hear some soft moans and giggling behind the door.  They knew i was there, our security system has small chimes that go off (one of them is in the master bedroom) when certain doors to the outside are opened.  i had entered the house through one of those doors. 

i waited until 1:43 PM before i was called.  Diane opened the door and called down to me to come up and bring the thongs.  When i entered the bedroom both Paul and Diane were nude, She standing near the bed and Paul laying on it relaxing.  "Strip down and join us for a little while" Diane said then gave me a kiss. 

Stripping down to nothing but my CB-3000, even though Paul's seen it before, was more humiliating than ever.  Probably the circumstances of the whole scene made me feel this way.  While i stripped Diane had gone into the bathroom to retrieve some small scissors to cut the tags off the thongs.  She held them each out and inspected them, taking Hers and holding it in front of Herself while doing a little sexy dance while facing Paul.  He liked what he saw and chuckled. 

"Why don't you slip Diane's on for Her?" he suggested.  It was more than a suggestion and i did it.  Diane handed me the thong, i knelt in front of Her and guided the garment up Her lovely thighs so that it fit nice and snug.  She grabbed my head and pressed it against Her crotch.  i kissed it.  She held me there long enough for me to get an appreciation for Her wetness, probably the result of some heavy foreplay but i didn't think Paul had made "full love" to Her yet.

"Sexy! A perfect fit too." Paul said.  "You're turn, put the pink one's on."

i put the pink one's on quickly and felt silly.  The front of the thong didn't cover the CB-3000 real well.  my stiffled erection was a non issue since it was confined in the plastic dungeon and the back of the thong felt uncomfortable as it nestled between my ass cheeks. 

"Cute!" Diane teased.  "Turn around and show us your pretty little butt."

i did and Diane quickly gave me a swat on the ass. 

"Thank you" She said.  "You can go now.  Go check the laundry room.  There's some ironing to do."

That was it.  i was shocked, embarrassed, humiliated and then some.  i went to pick up my clothes and Diane stopped me.

"No no.  Just like you are now.  Scoot."  There was another slap on the ass.

i left the clothes there and hurried out of the room.  i was alone with my thoughts doing some ironing for some 45 minutes.  There was a pile of clothes in a basket that Diane had taken out of Her closet to be ironed.  Tucked in the middle of the pile were a pair of Paul's slacks that I hadn't seen at first.  Ironing his slacks became the most humiliating cuckold task i've done to date.

my ironing was interrupted when i heard Diane call out.  "Did you get to Paul's pants yet?  He has to leave soon."  i replied that i had and Diane told me to bring them up to the bedroom.  i did and when i got up to the bedroom She was at the door  waiting.  She kissed me, took the pants and closed the door.

i was in the laundry room when Paul left.  He didn't say good bye or anything.  Soon after he walked out the door Diane told me to meet Her upstairs.

i was finally physically involved.  Paul was gone, but had left me a reminder of his presence there that afternoon.

love,

sissy terri
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3/26/15

Cuckolding Postponed

The semi-regular Wednesday afternoon tryst between Paul and Diane never materialized yesterday.  A big disappointment for them and likely on a smaller scale, a disappointment for me as well.  i think the longer time span between the meetings between the two of them in which i'm involved, the more my anxiety builds.  If they were to meet more regularly and i was always involved, i would be less nervous and less anxious. 

Diane may have been disappointed but wasn't upset.  She was busy as well and they both have jobs that can be highly stressful at times and yesterday was one of those days for the both of them.  "Why should I be upset" She said, posing a rhetorical question of sorts and before I could provide any response added "when I have my own orgasm-producing machine right here" as She touched my lips with Her pointing finger. 

It was a very dominant statement and gesture and sent a little tingle down between my legs.  The tingle turned into arousal which in turn, given my chastised state, turned into discomfort.  i stayed uncomfortable for a very long time because She immediately went up to the master bedroom.  i followed and used those sensual lips between Her legs. 

It was another greed day for Her on the chastity report.  Again, there was no pink for me despite Diane's best efforts with the strap-on.

At dinner, Diane hinted that Paul might be free this weekend and able to stop by on Saturday or Sunday.  "Would you like that?" She asked me.  "Not as much as You would" was my answer.  "You're right" She said with a chuckle. 

i did get this from Paul in response to my Chastity Report email this morning.

Sissy,

Sorry to disappoint yesterday.  I'll try to make it up to both of you soon.

Sir
Another tease, yet nothing set in stone.  That's fine because i haven't made any set plans for this weekend.  Diane makes them for me anyway.

love,

sissy terri
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3/5/15

Cuckolding Aftercare

By the time Diane's lover Paul "visits" here again, it will have been three weeks since the last "live cuckolding" episode.  Paul was unable to make it this week and next week Diane and i are away for several days.  The break is a bit of a disappointment to both of them, however they're still able to see one another every few days for some privacy and yes, some intimacy.

The break also gives me some time to reflect on the past few months during which so many things  have happened, seemingly at breakneck speed.  Diane's decisions to put me in chastity, include me as part of Her affair with Paul, reveal the blog to Paul and establishing a hierarchy amongst the three of us where he's clearly the Dom was a lot to handle.  Diane's skill in managing the situation, Her planning and understanding of all of our needs was key to making it work.

After Paul's last visit here (see the blog post Wearing Diane's Panties), Diane and i had a very intimate and loving conversation that evening.  i shared some of it with my sissy gurlfriend Candi who by the way, had a very beautiful post here (It's a Beautiful Thing) last Saturday.  The conversation i had with Diane was both loving and emotional; an opportunity to share our deepest feelings about how things were going. 

In the BDSM community, the term "aftercare" refers to the time spent attending to the needs of a partner (typically the submissive i would think) after some rather intense physical or psychological feelings related to a sex scene involving D/s or BDSM.  Though not true practitioners of D/s as a lifestyle, some of the activities we partake in do put me into "subspace" at times.  Diane's recent meeting with Paul where i played some part as Her submissive cuckold are a good example of this.  It follows that there's a benefit to spending some time to discuss what took place.

The intimate discussion with Diane was a good example of "cuckolding aftercare" and a living and beautiful expression of Her love and concern for me.  i'll share more of this and other conversations we've had in future posts, but for now i'd like to focus on one of the things that Diane shared with me while discussing among other things, the "differences" between Paul and i.

That particular discussion began in a very teasing and fun-like manner but turned quite serious when Diane put it into the context of the types of relationships She has with each of us; Paul being Her lover and i being Her spouse.   She told me how She views each of them, and just how different they are.  Her explanation was beautiful in its simplicity.

"The relationship I have with Paul is sexy and fun.  I love it"  She said.

"The relationship I have with you is a lifestyle.  I love it and we live it" She said, staring right at me with as serious a look as i've ever seen on Her.  She continued.  "I like Paul an awful lot, both as a lover and as a person, but I love you.  He knows that and I want you to know it."

Cuckolding is an activity that evokes a wide range of powerful emotions, particularly in the cuckold.  That's evidenced here on the pages where i seem to go on and on, over and over, again and again, about the anxiety i feel so often.  One would think i'd get over it eventually.  However, cuckolding combined with a female led lifestyle is a very powerful force.

i'll probably always experience some level of anxiety before, during and after cuckolding scenes where i'm allowed to play a part.  For that reason, i'll always welcome a little aftercare from the Woman who loves me.

love,

sissy terri
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2/28/15

It's a Beautiful Thing!

Like many of the readers of terri's blog, I've been avidly following the wonderful new developments in terri and Diane's - and now Paul's - relationship. Personally, I just love the way terri writes about their developing connection, and their adventurous exploration of this new intimacy, and I want to send all three of them my admiration and congratulations.

On re-reading terri's posts so far, I notice two things, and it is these I want to write about today.

The first is about how wonderful it is when both partners fantasies are in sync. Exploring them together involves lots communication, sharing of private feelings and thoughts, and looking deep into ones own interior. There is an intrinsic vulnerability to this process. And it turns out this is an *amazing* way not only create deep, lasting pleasure for each, but also to build incredible intimacy, and a continually deepening bond. It feels emotionally risky, because of the revealing of inner self that it requires (and it is - no doubt about that!), but done slowly and carefully, it is immensely powerful - and quintessentially human.

And this happens, with the caveat that the fantasies don't involve lasting harm to anyone, *no matter what the fantasies are* - no matter how 'kinky' they may seem, mutual exploration of this synchronicity seems to always lead to greater intimacy, greater love. Two - oh, sorry, *three* :-) - people find each other and can create this private world where together they reveal and manifest their deepest psychological and sexual needs.

Which is a very, very, very beautiful thing!!! 

So-called 'deviant' sexaulity, judged by the 'normal' world as depraved, leads to the same, deep - perhaps even deeper -  human connection that 'conventional' sex is supposed to foster. I find that just so thrilling.

Secondly, it just became even more apparent to me how pivotal to this whole thing Diane is. She is the one who orchestrated this, had the overall vision, and got all the parts to fit. Even Paul, who *appears* to be , and is many respects *is*, the top dog here, has been subtly manipulated - perhaps that is too strong a word - shall we say 'directed', 'guided' or 'led'- into playing his part in Her overall plan. It's really quite something, and I have to say the Dom in me is in admiration of her skill and tenacity. It's taken a lot of planning, persistence, patience and intelligence to pull this off. She's a remarkable person - but I'm sure you know this already. Diane, you have my deepest respects!

Diane, Paul, terri - congratulations to all of you. It's a beautiful thing!

Love to all,
-candi

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2/27/15

Wearing Diane's Panties

Diane insisted "it" was Paul's idea.  If it was, then Paul certainly "gets it" when it comes to humiliating a submissive sissy cuckold like me.  If it wasn't, and Diane had at least something to do with it, then it's just an innocent little white lie on Her part.  And there's not doubt She "gets it."  More about "it" later.

Wednesday's little tryst between Diane, Paul and i didn't last very long.  i didn't look at the clock when they arrived, but Paul was certainly there less than an hour.  The brief encounter was announced by a phone call from Diane when they were probably 10 minutes from our home.  The phone call was to tell me how to dress (nothing but some pink slippers, my strawberry shortcake apron and of course my chastity belt) and what to do (take the bed down but leave the panties and crop there and wait for them in the kitchen) and to let me know that Paul wouldn't be able to stay long since he had a meeting that evening.  i sensed some sort of surprise was coming.  i was correct.

The two of them wasted little time in heading to the bedroom.  There was a "hello sissy" from Paul and "we'll call you when we need you" from Diane.  i stayed in the kitchen for fewer than 10 minutes before i was summoned by Paul.  "You can come in now sissy" was all he said.

When i walked into the room the first thing i noticed was how bright it was.  We have a very large picture window on one side of our bedroom that faces the back patio and a view of the desert.  Despite it's privacy (no one can really peek into it the way the house faces and because of the elevation) we usually keep the window shades down.  On Wednesday, they were wide open with a full view of our pool and large patio.

Now, let me get to "it."

My eyes quickly adjusted to the brightness and i saw Diane kneeling on the bed, face down buried into a billow, legs spread and with Her beautiful bottom raised up.  She was wearing nothing but the panties i had bought at Victoria's Secret earlier that morning, following Her's and Paul's specific instructions.  The panties looked far better on Her than they would have on me.  Diane didn't move at all when i came in, nor did She say anything.  Her face just stayed buried in the pillow.

Paul stood at the foot of the bed naked and holding the riding crop.  Diane's white panties lay crumbled on the floor at his feet.  "And you were so worried about how the panties would look on you" he said with a sarcastic smile on his face.  "Don't you think they look nice now?"  i was able to come up with a "Yes Sir" as i stared at Diane's beautiful frame on the bed, Her ass on full display toward the wide open window.

My dreamy state was quickly broken by Paul.  With the end of the crop, he picked up Diane's panties from the floor and handed the to me.  "Here, put these on.  But before you do, feel how wet the crotch is."  i took them and immediately felt the dampness of the crotch.  They hadn't been there very long and Diane was definitely aroused when She took the panties off.  Either that or they had purposely wet them in the bathroom.  i think it was the former and not the latter that got them wet.

"Diane wants you here for her spanking" Paul said.  "Kneel over there like a good sissy" he said pointing to the front side of the bed.  i knelt on one side of her while Paul stood on the other with the crop.  It was as intense a scene as i've ever been involved in, kneeling there in chastity, in my wife's panties and watching Her as She awaited a spanking from Her lover.

Paul began by teasing Her with the crop, running it up and down Her inner thighs and using the flat leather at the end of the crop to tease Her vaginal lips.  "She gets wet so easy" he said looking at me then gave Her a little slap on the ass with the crop.  "Are you ready honey?" he asked Diane.  "Yes Paul" She said and then, no doubt on queue added in a very submissive sounding voice "Please spank me."

"You're such a naughty girl" he told Her as he began to swat Her.  As the swats became more intense, He asked Her why She was being spanked.  "Because I wet my panties" was Her reply.  Paul laughed and continued the spanking, he would only stop to use the end of the crop to massage Her pussy.  When he did, Diane would moan in pleasure.  He did this often and once, set the crop down, pulled Her panties aside and used his finger to probe Her.  i wasn't sure, but i thought She might have had a mini orgasm when he did that.  He then resumed the spanking.

There was plenty of verbal teasing which i thought was obviously for my benefit but after seeing and hearing how Diane responded to it all, there was definitely pleasure all around.  "Bet you'd enjoy having a patio full of friends to see you get spanked eh?" Paul asked Diane.  She loved the teasing. 

And Paul? By now he was totally erect, clearly pleased with how things were progressing.  The spanking lasted until Diane's bottom was bright red.  There were no welts or serious marks, as if Paul knew exactly when to stop to avoid such things.  He'd accomplished what he wanted.

He pointed to the panties She wore with the crop and told me to "take them off."  i slid them down with Diane's cooperation.  When they were off, She got back in the original face down ass up position, her reddened backside waiting for more. 

"Would you like to get me ready for Diane?" Paul asked me.  i told him i would and he laughed and said "Maybe next time when I have more time."  Maybe he sensed my disappointment, or maybe he had it planned all along but he then said "But you can at least kiss it."  i submissively planted a kiss on the head of his cock.

"You can go now and come back in when I leave" Paul said.  i left them alone for the remainder of their lovemaking.  It was short but intense.  i could hear their moans of pleasure.  There was no faking it. 

Not long after, i was called in again but this time by Diane.  When i got up to the bedroom Paul was dressed and giving Diane an intimate kiss.  "She's all yours now.  Enjoy" he said.  "Don't worry, I can let myself out."

i did what a cuckold does after the lover's left.  Diane had multiple orgasms, surprising since She'd had at least two with Paul.  i could taste and feel Paul in Her, which made it that much more intense and satisfying for both of us. 

i'd never seen Diane so submissive and yet so aroused.

i never did get a chance to wear the panties i bought that day.  Funny, but wearing Diane's made me feel even more submissive.

love,

sissy terri


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2/25/15

Cuckold Date #2

Shortly after dropping our guests off at the airport this morning, i obeyed Paul's "Panty Shopping Instructions" and headed to the mall to purchase a single pair of panties (a panty or pantie) at Victoria's Secret, using the gift certificate he and Diane had given me for Christmas. 

There are a few Victoria's Secret stores in the metropolitan area where we live.  Considering my task and how self conscious i felt about doing it, i would have preferred to carry it out at the store located in the mall furthest away from our home and nearer to the airport.  However, Paul was very specific in his instructions, telling me which mall he wanted me to by the panties at.  Even though the mall is about 15 miles from our home in the foothills, i'd be more likely to run into someone i know there than at the other locations. 

Diane also added her own specific requirements to the task this morning.  She wanted me to buy a medium hip hugger style panty, something that had a bit of pink in it and if possible had a Victoria's Secret logo or other type of marking highlighting the VS brand on it. It was a simple instruction but one specifically intended to cause me future humiliation this afternoon.

Diane knows that i prefer panties that hide my male privates.  Skimpy panties like the hip huggers She was insisting upon don't do that very well.  Fuller cut panties, even in a medium size, fit me much better and hide my maleness.  i asked Her if i could at least buy a large size hip hugger and She said no.  "You wear medium sized panties often.  They'll be fine" She said.

i started to mention the bulk of the CB-3000 and Diane just laughed.  "What?  Are you trying to hide your chastity cage from Paul?" She asked with a big grin on Her face.  That just made me feel more self conscious about what i was going to do, and how i was going to look this afternoon.

"There's one more thing" Diane added.  "Take the bed down when you get home, take out the crop, lay it on the bed next to the panties you buy and take a picture for the blog.  Just to make it pornographic okay?"  The last comment being an obvious reference to Google's new Blogger guidelines.  Compared to the other things i had to do, and would likely have to do later in the day, this seem to be the easiest of the tasks.

Purchasing the panty was indeed a bit embarrassing.  i had to wait a few minutes for the store to open, sipping on an overpriced cup of coffee and strolling around the mall.  i found a panty that met Diane and Paul's requirements and brought it to the check out counter where a young woman in her mid twenties waited on me.

"These are really pretty and popular" she said with a smile as i handed her the gift card.  Not knowing what to say i smiled back and said "That's nice to know.  It's just a little surprise for the wife."  i immediately thought how stupid my statement was, especially since i was paying with a gift card that had $250 on it for a panty that was around $8!

"Well I'm sure she'll love it" the girl said, handing me back the receipt, the gift card and the panties in a cute Victoria's Secret bag and adding "looks like you'll be able to buy her plenty more with that card."  i blushed, thanked her and made my way to the parking lot.

So now i wait for Diane and Paul to arrive this afternoon.  With our guests gone, there's plenty of housework for me to catch up on and that will keep me busy.  i'm anxious and nervous again about this afternoon's "cuckold date" of sorts.  i hope it all goes as well as the last one.

love,

sissy terri
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2/20/15

Missing my Cuckolding

It's been more than a week since my cuckold introduction to Paul.  Nine days to be exact.  With all my anxiety, nervousness and preparations leading up to the big day, it was like i was running as fast as i could on a treadmill that just suddenly stopped.  With the arrival of our guests last Thursday things have slowed down quite a bit, at least for me.

Diane has seen Paul a few times, none of which have been situations where they've been able to make love like they do here in our bedroom.  But there's been enough intimacy to make Diane happy, and to keep the cuckolding fire alive.

Despite our guests being around and more golf than usual, i've still managed to maintain a respectable amount of time in chastity.  i'm not in the mid 80% range like i was in January, but i believe once they leave next week i'll be able to end the month at near 80%.  Paul continues to receive the daily Chastity Report and responds with an occasional comment.  His inclusion in this intimate piece of correspondence between Diane and i makes me feel even more submissive.  i sometimes wonder how much more submissive i can become!

Diane informed me last night that i'd probably enjoyed my last orgasm for the month of February.  It was yet another affirmation of my submissiveness.  When She said it, it was a tease meant to arouse me, especially since it was combined with some very tactile affection.  "It's not that bad" She said, "February is such a short month!"  i always loved Her sense of humor.  Perhaps She'll change Her mind and i'll be allowed some pleasure before March comes along.

Our guests leave on Wednesday morning of next week and the plan is for Paul to be here with Diane that afternoon.  Am i anxious about it?  Just a little :)

love,

sissy terri 

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2/13/15

Keeping Everybody Happy

Our guests arrived early yesterday afternoon, while both of us were still enjoying the aftermath of a very beautiful afternoon with Paul.  Neither of our pleasures were solely the result of the eroticism of the encounter.  Rather, there were other factors that made us so happy.

For Diane it was the fact that She'd pulled this off and it worked so well.  Her strategy, with all its behind-the-scenes tactics, wasn't without risk, though She'd done Her homework to minimize it.  One such tactic, telling Paul about this blog, seems to have been the key to making this work.

My own pleasure came from knowing, and seeing first hand just how happy and content Diane was.  Sure, there was plenty in it for me, not the least of which was seeing Her happy, but it was evident that this was something She really wanted for Herself.  She wasn't doing it just to keep Her submissive wife happy.  There is something incredibly special when a couple's most intimate fantasies are so closely in sync.

The two of us spent a lot of time talking on Wednesday evening.  Yesterday's post was long enough without going on and on about our discussions.  It's a blog post, not a novel!  Diane reassured me that Paul also enjoyed himself and was looking forward to our next encounter.  i was a little unsure yesterday though.  i sent him a copy of the Daily Chastity Report at which time i also thanked him for Wednesday.  i added that it was helpful for me to see just how happy he made Diane.  i felt both silly and humiliated (two common feelings of mine) telling him that but it just felt right.   

After sending him the report, i expected a response of some kind and was disappointed each time i checked my email and there was nothing from him.  His message didn't arrive until late in the afternoon....

Sissy,

I had my own fun too.  With both of you :)
Looking forward to next time.
Diane was right about you.

Sir
Short, but reaffirming what Diane had told me.  Finally, i'm feeling more comfortable.

i showed Diane Paul's note and She just smiled and said "See, I told you.  Now comes the hard part for you.  Keeping the two of us happy!"

On a somewhat related note, i also forgot to mention that earlier last week when i asked Diane about doing some shopping at Victoria's Secret with the gift certificate She and Paul had bought me for Christmas, she told me to "hold off" until She gave me the go ahead.  i asked because i wanted to know if there was anything She wanted me to buy for Wednesday of this week.  So, i still have the gift certificate, waiting for further instructions.

love,

sissy terri
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2/12/15

My Beautiful, Loving and Hot Wife

i hurried home yesterday after meeting an old friend for lunch.  He was visiting in the area and insisted we get together but leaving me very few options for a meeting time.  i arrived early hoping that it would give me a good reason to leave early enough to beat Paul and Diane home.  That came close to working, but not close enough.  They were already there when i arrived, with Paul's car in the driveway and the two of them behind the closed door of our bedroom.  It was then that the butterflies returned along with a bit more anxiety.

Just as Diane had said, there was a not on the island with a few instructions for me.  "There's some panties for you to wear and something to serve sitting on the table upstairs.  It makes for a cute picture.  Change into it.  You can do the serving later.  When you're changed, knock on the bedroom door.  Love, Di"

The table Diane was referring to sits against the wall in the walkway leading to the master bedroom in the upper level of our home.  It's not a huge table so i doubted the outfit She, Paul or the both of them had selected was very complex.  i was correct.

On the table was a pair of my pink ruffled sissy panties, strewn next to a bottle of  2012 "Menage a Trois" California Red Wine.  To the side sat a pair of white thigh high stocking with a little lace around the tops.  More anxiety, as i thought about knocking on the door and facing Paul in this outfit.  i'd have preferred something that would cover me up much more than this.  But this wasn't about my preferences.

i almost forgot about Diane's hint in her note - "It makes for a cute picture" - and ran back down the stairs to get my iPhone and took a picture of what She'd set out.  i slipped out of the clothes i was wearing and into the panty and thigh highs.  i heard a bit of stirring in the bedroom but it wasn't very loud. i took a deep breath and walked into the little alcove leading to our bedroom.

There, hanging sexily and daintily on the door handle, were the black panties Diane had been wearing yesterday morning.  The one's i kissed as i knelt behind Her while She put on Her makeup.  The panties on the door seemed fitting.  There i stood staring at them; panties that symbolized Her nudity while in the arms of another man just on the other side of the door.  Strange, but i decided to take another picture.

Before knocking, i decided to touch the panties just a bit, wondering if they were wet in the crotch. They were a little damp, but far from wet.  Maybe they hadn't been there that long.  Finally, i knocked on the door.

There was a pause of a few seconds, maybe more like 5 to 10, before Diane's voice beckoned me to come in.  "Welcome home, you can come in" She said.  i had my own pause, experiencing a little fear for the first time not knowing what to expect, and finally opened the door.

Diane stood in front of Paul as he held Her in his arms.  She looked beautiful.  Absolutely stunning.  She wore black thigh highs, black heels and a black collar around Her neck.  The collar was simple black leather with a ring on the front.  Unmistakable, it was a collar that was made to have a leash attached to it.  Diane had the most beautiful smile on Her face as Paul held Her.

Paul was totally naked.  My first impression was that he was more muscular than i thought he'd be.  He wasn't overly hairy, but neither was he smooth.  The hair on his body was a sharp contrast to my own smoothness; just another one of the many difference between the two of us.

Paul broke the silence and said "Relax.  We're glad you're here.  We've actually been waiting for you."  i stammered a "Thank you" and Diane immediately corrected me by saying "Thank you what?'  Submissively, i corrected myself and said "Thank you Sir."   "That's better" She said and Paul smiled.

Surprisingly, Paul wasted little if any time in getting down to why he was there.  The idle chatter was over.  "sissy" he said, "I want you to lay on  your back right here" pointing to the southwestern style rug in front of the bed that covered part of our wood floors.  i did as i was told.  Paul then stood over me with his legs straddling my chest as he looked down at me.  Our eyes met briefly before i got a glimpse of his cock.  i couldn't tell you its exact size, but it's bigger than mine.  Longer and thicker.

my line of sight to his crotch was quickly interrupted when Paul said to Diane "your turn."  Diane wasted little time to straddle my face and kneel in front of Paul.  "You both know what to do now I assume" he said.  i began to kiss the lips between Her legs, and i could hear Her doing the same, and more, to Paul's cock.

Though the panties Diane had left on the door handle were merely damp, She was already very wet when i began to kiss Her.  i mean, very, very wet.  Perhaps there had been some foreplay the moments before i arrived, or perhaps She was incredibly turned on by what was happening.  Probably a combination of both.

My face was covered by Diane and though some of my hearing was affected by the same, but there was not mistaking what was happening above me.  Diane was feasting on Paul and enjoying it.  And Paul seemed to be enjoying it even more.  He was very verbal, teasing Diane (and me indirectly) that She'd missed having access to a real cock for awhile.  "You can never get enough when you're with me right?" He ask Her.  i heard Her say "Huh huh" but it was very muffled, not willing to take a break from what She was doing.  Her juices flowed more and more and it was then that She had a smaller orgasm.  His comments turned Her on immensely.

Paul must have sensed how aroused Diane was and abruptly pushed himself away from Her.  "Up on the bed" he told Her, "facing us."  Diane got up, but not before sitting on me just a little heavier than She had been and running herself over my face.  i watched Her strut to the bed, get on all fours with Her butt facing the headboard and Her eyes glued on me.

"Your turn" Paul said.  "On your knees.  Let's see what Diane's taught you, or maybe it was Jake."  Both of the laughed.  i knelt, and submissively took Paul into my mouth.  i thought about a cuckold's role or fluffing duties.  If this was fluffing, it was purely symbolic in nature.  Paul was already fully erect (and bigger than my original impression) and ready for Diane.  The most erotic (and humiliating) part of my doing this was that i could smell and even taste Diane on him.  i could smell Her in his crotch and taste Her on him.  The slight smell of Her perfume and the taste of her oral juices seemed unmistakable.  i was filled with a rush i'd never experienced before.

i continued to do my best to please Paul and when making eye contact with Diane, always noticed a smile on Her face.   Paul was a little less vocal with me, but did compliment me on my oral skills.  "It must run in the family" He laughed.  Impressed by his size, i was happy he didn't force himself down my throat because i certainly would have gagged.

"That's enough" he said pulling out but rubbing the head over my lips before waking towards the bed.  "We don't want to disappoint the Mrs. now do we?  Or make her jealous right?"  Naturally, i responded "Yes Sir."

i felt silly just being left there, kneeling on the rug in front of our bed as Paul climbed behind Diane and began teasing Her.  "Go ahead" he said to Her "You can start."  i wasn't sure what he meant, but clarification came quickly (i would have cum too had i not been locked) as Diane began begging Paul to make love to Her.  This little game continued for a few minutes, Diane's please growing louder and more desperate.  i just watched, feeling humiliated, silly and aroused in my ruffled panties and thigh highs as eventually, Paul yielded to Diane and told Her to back up onto him.

Diane appeared to be in sexual heaven. There was little eye contact between She and i. Instead, She appeared lost in sexual bliss.  The lovemaking became more aggressive as He vigorously moved in and out of Her, grabbing the collar around Her neck and riding Her.  Diane seemed to have at least a couple of orgasms before Paul finally had his and he held Her hips tightly as he climaxed.

To a cuckold, there's quite nothing to describe the beauty of seeing your wife in the arms of another man, sexually fulfilled like you've never seen her before.  It's the most beautiful sight.  Diane looked more beautiful than ever.  

The two collapsed on the king sized bed, each laying back before embracing.  i felt awkward, still kneeling and waiting for the slightest hint that i would or wouldn't be needed.  Finally, Paul said "Well, I guess it's time for you know what" as he looked back towards me.  "Climb on up here and do the cuckold thing" he said "on me first of course."

For many cuckolds this is the moment of truth or the moment they've been waiting for.  Yet for me, it seemed like a very calming moment.  Maybe i hesitated a little but not much.  Diane's escape into Her own little fantasy world seemed to have expired, and She was back smiling at me.  i got onto the bed, knelt in front of Paul and did "the cuckold thing" and tasted Diane in a much more intimate way on him.  He seemed to enjoy it, keeping me there longer than i thought he would.  He started getting hard again.

"Okay, now we'll let you enjoy a real treat" he said.  Diane was waiting and i eagerly buried myself between Her thighs.   i don't recall Diane ever climaxing as quickly as She did.  Her orgasm affirmed that She'd enjoy watching what i did to Paul, and loved what i was doing to Her.  It was as if She was finally able to enjoy the fruits of Her labors; months of planning had come to fruition.

Of course, a cuckold's time with his Wife and Her lover is often abruptly ended.  That's what happened.  "Why don't you go put on a cute bathrobe and give us some time together" Diane suggested.  i took the cue and made my way into our walk in closet and came out with some pink slippers and a pink satin bathrobe with white polka dots.

"You look really cute" Paul teased.  "And you were awesome.  Really great.  Wasn't he?" he asked Diane.

She paused, looked at me and said "Yes, she certainly was.  We'll call you when we want the wine."

i thanked them both and left the room.

They stayed in the room together for about another hour.  There was more lovemaking, but not before the unmistakable sound of a spanking with the riding crop.  With all that had gone on, i'd forgotten about the crop and didn't even notice its absence on the bed when i got in the bedroom.  There were other things that had my attention.

i was called to serve the wine.  They enjoyed the "Menage a Trois."  They should, after all they're the one's who picked it out.

Paul left and said his goodbyes, giving Diane a big kiss and hug on his way out.  When he was outside and Diane had closed the door, She turned to me, gave me a big thumbs up, walked towards me and gave me one of the most passionate kisses i've ever had.

It wasn't the type of "Menage a Trois" that most men dream about.  Just sissy cuckolds.

love,

sissy terri


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2/11/15

Cuckold Day Arrives

No surprise that i didn't sleep very well last night, though most of my sleeplessness was caused by the discomfort of an erection within the cramped confines of my CB-3000 rather than my anxiety about my big "cuckold day" today.  Sure i did have a bit of hard time falling asleep, but it was the erection that woke me up shortly after 3 AM that was most to blame. 

Though i usually don't remember any erotic dreams that might cause my arousal, or if i do it's very vague, this morning when i awoke i was thinking (fantasizing?) about Big Dave, a man who i've been corresponding with and on whom i've developed quite a crush.  A few days ago Dave wrote to me about how jealous he was of Paul.  Dave also wrote this little gem, which naturally stirred my emotions when i read it, and last night became part of my dream....

"Sometimes when I make love with my partner, I think of you in frillies watching me as I service your wife like a real man. I'll spread my legs a bit wider and invite you to lap my heavy balls as I drive in deep to your wife. Might as well be greedy while I'm fantasizing, right?"
Pornographic?  Maybe a bit.  But it certainly hit the bulls eye when it comes to a sissy cuckold's emotions!

Diane didn't seem to have a problem sleeping, though She was in a bit of a testy and Dominant mood this morning.  It was more of a sense i felt rather than anything specific and it didn't take long to soften.  Dressed in some just a lacy black bra and matching panty as She started to apply Her makeup, She invited me to kneel behind Her and kiss Her beautiful bottom softly.  It's something She likes to do sometimes, mostly on those days She's going to see Paul.  It's also a popular photo op you'll find often on cuckold blogs.  Today, it had more significance for both of us.

i was also given a few instructions before She went to work.  i was told to take down the bed before i left to meet my old friend for lunch, just in case She and Paul got her before i was back.  The next instruction was a bit of a surprise - "Take the riding crop out and lay it on the bed after you've taken it down."  When i asked Her if this was Her's or Paul's instruction all i got was a devious grin and a "Does it matter?"  She was right, whose idea or instruction it was is of no significance to me.

Finally, i was told that if they got here first (which now seems more likely) they'd leave me some instructions on the island in our kitchen.  "If you don't see any, just knock on the bedroom door."  Just before She left, there was a very loving and warm embrace and kiss.  She reassured me that things would work out fine and just before heading out into the garage, Diane told me just how much She loved me.

As the hours pass by i'm more nervous now about the lunch with my friend, hoping it doesn't drag on too long, than i am about anything that will happen later this afternoon with Paul and Diane.  The butterflies don't seem to be as bad anymore and i don't feel as anxious.  Diane's calming words this morning had a lot to do with that.

However, i also want to thank you, my readers and followers who have left so many heartfelt and thoughtful comments.  Many of them have little gems of advice that have been incredibly helpful.  Among the many helpful and thoughtful comments was this one left by "Marissa":

"Perhaps if you focus less on your own feelings and more on pleasing Diane and Paul, you'll find your nervousness diminishes and your own pleasure increases."
 Marissa's comment was timely in that just before i read it, i'd been corresponding with lill jo, the artist of the beautiful sketch that appeared a couple of posts ago, and discussing how we sissies tend to crave being the center of attention, or as jo put it "attention whores."  Our behavior misses the whole point of what it means to be submissive to the Woman we love.  Marissa's advice helped get me back on track and lessen my anxiety.

Just the same...wish me luck :)

love,

sissy terri
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2/7/15

Sissy's Big Day

Each year around this time, we host some friends who take a week or so to visit us and enjoy the warmer weather our climate here has to offer.  They're good friends but neither of them knows about our lifestyle so their presence tends to put a bit of a damper on things.  The two of them stay with us much of the time they're here but also do some traveling and touristy things while in the region on their own. 

Both of them are golfers and when they're here i always play a few rounds of golf with them and they'll also play quite a few on their own.  They arrive this coming Friday and we've already set a couple of tee times for next Saturday and Monday.  Their presence here will likely cramp both our styles a bit, but particularly Diane's.  With my cuckolding now totally in the "open" with Paul, their trysts here in our home don't have to be as carefully planned.  As Diane so aptly put it to me last week "Our marital bed is his to use whenever we choose." 

That's very true and i've accepted it.  But with vanilla house guests, it's going to be back to some careful planning and maybe even an alternate venue for their lovemaking.  When i talked to Diane last night on the phone (She returns today from the frigid temps of the Northeast) She was quick to tease me and point out that fortunately "....they don't arrive until Friday, so sissy's big day on Wednesday won't be affected."

i am always shocked and embarrassed at how easily and quickly i get aroused by some sarcastic or teasing little comment that Diane might make.  i don't know if other submissives have the same reaction to things like that, but She no sooner had said "sissy's big day" that i could sense some stirring in my CB-3000 along with some slight blushing even though there was no one around to see it.  Visions of this coming Wednesday when i get to meet Paul when he arrives for an afternoon of sex with Diane.  i remained aroused (and continued fantasizing) through the rest of our conversations.  It also helps that Diane referred to me in the third person.  That's another little quirk that turns me on.  Yes, i am indeed a strange sissy.

Had our guests been arriving a few days earlier, my introduction to Paul as a full cuckold and submissive would be delayed even more than it already has.  The anxiety that i bring upon myself as the big day approaches would have an extra week or two to build up.  Instead, i've only got another four days to go. 

i'm glad it's turning out this way.  i can't stand the wait for "sissy's big day."

love,

sissy terri
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1/25/15

Sissy & Cuckold Thoughts

i'm enjoying a lazy Sunday morning.  Diane's still lounging in bed while i sip on some coffee, read the Sunday paper and take care of a few other sissy things.  We're going out this afternoon but other than that it's a pretty low key day.  i'll just have to think of what to cook Diane for dinner.  Maybe She'll decide that we go out instead and give me the night off!

There were some interesting comments to last Sunday's post, A Sissy's View of the NFL Playoffs.  They were also pretty informative.  Thanks to Florida Dom, i now know that NFL cheerleaders usually don't travel with the teams except for the Super Bowl and that the Packers don't have cheerleaders.  Maybe that's why they lost last weekend, as did the Colts.  It's more likely that than under-inflated balls.  Florida Dom sure knows more about football than i do.  But then again, he's a Dom and i'm a sissy.

Another anonymous commenter suggested i run a search for the Dallas Cowboy cheerleaders in pink uniforms they'd worn to support breast cancer research.  i did and OMG!!!!  How could i have missed this before?  Very poor research on my part.  For missing it, i should probably receive and punishment spanking while dressed in these sexy little uniforms!  Some punishment that would be.

i don't wear shapewear that often, but i got an email yesterday from Zulily announcing a sale on Spanx.   i do have a couple of Spanx items and enjoy the feel of them.  They have the restrictiveness of shapewear (a very feminine feeling) even though their items are pretty comfortable to wear. 

Most of the time i ignore these emails but this morning i decided to take a peek and ended up buying a pair of "Skinny Britches" that are similar to a long leg panty girdle but much sleeker.  Honestly, i bought it because of the color it was available in.  i'm a softie when it comes to anything pink!

As much as the meeting with Paul on Friday went very well, i'm still anxious and nervous about moving forward.  Until i actually do it and hopefully get more comfortable with the situation, i don't think these feelings and emotions will go away.  They'll probably never go away completely no matter what happens, but i do feel far more comfortable than i did a couple of weeks ago.

i'm going to take my time in making my decision but i'm sure Paul knows which way i'm leaning.  i asked Diane how i should let Paul know when the time comes.  Should it be via email? a phone call? a time when they're getting together?  Diane thinks the delivery of my decision should be special in some way.  When i asked Her to be more specific She said She wasn't sure either, but it shouldn't be just a phone call where i say "Hey, i'm ready for this."

We dropped the discussion and moved on to something else, but there's no doubt in my mind She'll have more than one idea!  It got me to thinking about how i'm going to be dressed the first time i'm
allowed to be with them as a cuckold.  In the meetings with Paul, there was really no discussion or even the slightest reference to anything about my dress or what i'd be expected to wear other than my chastity belt. 

i'm wondering if the two of them have even given it any thought?  The cuckold really is an afterthought anyway.  It's probably something they'll decide at the very last minute while i fret and worry about it for days ahead of time.

Of course that doesn't prevent my own vivid imagination from running wild.  What will Diane and/or Paul want me to wear for this special occasion?

Just another reason to be anxious and nervous :)

love,

sissy terri
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1/24/15

Taking a Step Forward

"Are you playing with  yourself?"  Diane's voice startled me as i stood in the shower this morning enjoying the warm and soothing water all over my body.  The question sounded more teasing than any type of admonishment.  Shower time is when i'm allowed out of my CB-3000;  hot soapy water can be very soothing after you've been locked for many hours.

"Of course not" i answered Her.  i was close though.  The release from the CB, the warm water and most of all my thoughts about the meeting with Paul last night and what might happen in the near future had me in a semi-aroused state.  It was a little difficult "getting back in." 

"Better not be.  you've been in there quite a while.  Hurry or we'll be late" She said before leaving the bathroom.  The two of us had a volunteer commitment this morning.  The time constraint i faced brought me back to reality and i was finally able to put the CB in place and was safely locked once again.

Our meeting with Paul last night took place in the lobby bar of one of the more upscale hotels in town.  The setting gave us plenty of privacy and comfort.  Nice leather chairs and sofas, space enough between us and other patrons and waiters who knew when to leave us alone.  Coupled with my more relaxed frame of mind it was a better way to begin our meeting.

i use the term "our" meeting because it was important to all of us.  It wasn't just about my own concerns.  Paul had a vested interest in hearing what i had to say and to understand how i had reacted to the first meeting and the rules he had set out. 

Honestly, i had little concern about the rules he'd set out.  i asked him why he felt i would need a "safe word", was there something that he intended to do to me that would require something like that.  His explanation was a good one and revealing.  He said that it really wasn't in his plan to get into a situation where it would be needed, but never having been in this type of relationship before, if things were to move in that direction, it would be nice to know that he'd "crossed a line" with me and did something i wasn't comfortable with.  Fair enough i thought.  In a way, each of us had admitted some level of insecurity and angst about what we were possibly getting into.

The "no sex with others" (in my case that meant Jake) was discussed.  As Jake becomes more involved with another woman (or perhaps women) i understand this demand and quite frankly, happy to comply.  i also trust Paul will be honest about this too.  My trust is based upon Diane's trust of him also.  One follows the other.

What was left for us to discuss was the revelation that he'd become aware of the blog.  i was honest and told him about the sense of betrayal i initially felt along with the risks that might come from him knowing all the he knows, considering everything i'd written since the blog started.

He understood how i felt and was quite reassuring that the blog would be held in strict confidence.  "I'm mentioned in it too, so I'm assuming some risk as well" he said.  Then he told me something that was another.  "You know, if Diane hadn't told me about the blog I'm sure we wouldn't be at this stage today.  It's your blog that convinced me.  She told me to read it and it would help me understand what She was getting at.  It worked."

It made total sense.  It wasn't like i had cracked a code or solved a puzzle, but the pieces were coming together.  All these months where i would wonder if i'd ever experience cuckolding intimately with Diane where little progress was made caused me to more or less give up on the fantasy.  Finally, Diane felt that the blog might be the final piece of "evidence" needed to convince Paul that it could work.

i wasn't quite sure what to say.  "i'm surprised it didn't turn you off, or send you running away" i said trying to add a little humor.  Paul laughed.  "On the contrary.  The more I read, the more I became intrigued and even aroused.  Not just your blog either.  The links to others are like a labyrinth of sexy adventures" he said.  "It was amazing.  Enlightening really."

Paul had to get home so the meeting wasn't that long.  Each of us only had one glass of wine.  Paul wrapped it up by telling me to take my time in making a decision.   "If you take more than two weeks that's fine.  "Just don't take forever" he said, with an air of dominance i hadn't seen in the rest of the meeting.  That was fine with me.

i shook his hand and thanked him for taking the time to meet with us.  He did the same, saying he thought it was beneficial. 

Then, he reached for Diane with his arm out.  She moved to his open arms and there was a hug and a kiss on her lips.  It was more than a friendly kiss as i saw it.  The innocent bystander or even someone that knew us might think the same, or maybe not.  i also saw how he held Her.  His hands slid very subtly down Her back before resting briefly on Her sexy butt. 

The kiss and the placement of his hand on Diane's butt was just as much for my benefit as it was Paul's.  Having read my blog, he must have understood the effect it would have on me. 

i was humiliated in a way; an erotic way.  i was aroused.  

It's also what i was thinking about in the shower this morning.

love,

sissy terri


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