Chaste and Feminine

Yesterday marked the beginning of my third month in chastity.  As required, early in the morning i sent Diane and Paul a copy of the daily Chastity Report that included a monthly and year-to-date summary of the time i've been in chastity.

In February i spent 81.62% of the time locked up in my CB-3000.  Year-to-date, the percentage is a bit higher at 85.29%.  February's drop in percentage was driven by our hosting guests for a two week period and the various activities that surrounded that time.

Diane is very happy with the percentage of time i've been locked up.  Similarly, i am pleased but also proud of what i've been able to accomplish.  The percentages are far greater than either one of us thought they'd be and are driven by the fact that almost every night, i've slept in chastity, despite some morning discomfort.

i still find it surprising and remarkable that this has worked so well.  If you recall, Diane was never a fan of chastity, insisting that the whole thing would be too much work.  She prefers a "low maintenance submissive" and in that regard  She's trained me quite well.  The chastity has turned out to be pretty low maintenance and as i get used to it, should be even easier for Her.

In addition, the "results" of this effort aren't only manifested by the hard data She and Paul see every day.   Sure, those numbers represent concrete and easily measurable results, but they fail to take into account other intangible benefits that my chastity has provided.  Among these are a more submissive demeanor (i know, that's hard to believe i could be more submissive), greater obedience, a calmness that comes from accepting my sex life is under Diane's total control and even greater commitment to  my role as Her sissy wife.

Finally, chastity has at times made me feel more feminine. Yes, i am in panties 24/7 and very often wearing more than just lingerie, but the pink CB-3000 also enhances my submissive femininity.  Even if i'm wearing just a pair of panties, or even nothing at all, the cute little pink cage and lock between my legs reminds me of my sissy wife status!

However, it's always nice to get really "gurlied" up while in chastity.  Maybe a cute pink corset like this.  Do you think it's feminine enough?

The photo is courtesy of my sissy gurlfriend Jo Bradford.  Kisses Jo.....xox!

And for those of you who guessed that the last pair of panties shown in yesterday's post were my favorite, you guessed right!  But let's be honest, i'd be happy to wear any of them!

love,

sissy terri

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My Pretty Sissy Gurl Friend

Several posts ago, readers here were treated to a beautiful post by my loving (and lovely) sissy gurl friend Candi.  Candi also treated us to a beautiful photo of her modeling her new sissy maids uniform new sissy maids uniform.  She looked absolutely gorgeous.

With guests still hanging around and limiting my time to blog, not to mention putting a crimp in our regular lifestyle, i want to share a picture of another cute sissy friend of mine, Jo Bradford.  Jo's also been a contributor to this blog with a beautiful sketch i used for the post sissy terri meets Paul.  Jo has other beautiful artwork that will be shown here soon...so stay tuned.

But on Sunday, Jo sent me this picture of herself with this cute little snippet:

Just a little photo of me,

Looking the way I'd rather be.

Jo, please take this as a conpliment, and i'm sure my readers would agree....you look like the absolutely perfect sissy!!!!!

And we'd all rather be looking that way :)

love,

sissy terri

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"Sissy terri Meets Paul"

As Wednesday and my initial "full cuckold" meeting with Paul draws near,  it's on my mind nearly all the time.  You all know about the anxiety i feel and even though two face-to-face meetings with Paul have helped tremendously, i still experience it.

It won't be the first time that i've been dressed in front of a man before, nor will it be the first time that i'm a man's submissive.  i've played that role before.  But this is different.  Very different.  With Jake it was definitely a role i played.  With Paul, it's not just a role.  It's been carefully incorporated into our lifestyle.  i've also never experienced entering into something like this, especially the way it was done with the establishment and acceptance of Paul's rules.

Though we've met and talked, and our second meeting was far more comfortable than the first, Wednesday will be different.  i've got a little more than 48 hours to think about it.  Butterflies in my stomach?  More like angry birds flying around looking for a way out?

My constant reflections about my anxiety and such must be "getting old" to some of you, or maybe even all of you.  i don't blame you.  However at the same time it's elicited some very welcome words of support either through your comments or personal emails to me.  i'm incredibly grateful to everyone, even those of you who just read the blog.

One question that's always on my mind about Wednesday is what Diane and Paul will make me wear, if anything at all?  Exactly how "sissy" will they want me to be?  It ranks right up there with just how much they will want me involved with them.  My only prior experience with Diane and Brian didn't go that great because Brian didn't seem to get the whole cuckolding thing.  Paul, under the fine tutelage of Diane, does. 

What will i be wearing for that first "cuckold meeting" with Paul?  Will Diane make that decision?  Will it be the both of them?  How humiliating will it be?  i feel humiliated yet aroused just thinking about it now.

One of my loyal readers, lill jo or Jo Bradford, who happens to be a very, very talented artist, sent me a beautiful sketch of just what my first cuckold meeting with Paul might look like.  She calls it "Sissy terri meets Paul." 

First, i have to say that i'm incredibly flattered the lill jo would take the time to create this piece for me.  Thank you sooooo much Jo.  You have no idea how much it means to me.

Second, i have to say that i'm amazed and impressed by how well the sketch seems to capture the moment i've been fretting about for so long!  Though we never talked about it, Jo's sketch was created simply by what she read here on these pages. 

The picture illustrates Paul and Diane in casual embrace, apparently pleased by how effectively they've feminized their sissy cuckold.  The cuckold, sissy terri, stands demurely in front of them with her head submissively tilted downward to avoid eye contact.  she's dressed in a pink babydoll dress that's short enough to reveal the bottom of her panties, a pretty bow in her hair and some heels of perfect height.  Everything is in pink, the sissy's favorite color!  Amazingly, Jo captures this sissy's favorite things in this one sketch!

Who knows what i'll be wearing over my chastity belt on Wednesday?  Diane and Paul probably haven't even decided yet.  But whatever it is (or isn't) Jo's art certainly captures the powerful sissy emotions and anxiety i'm feeling now, and will no doubt experience on Wednesday!

love,

sissy terri

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