Sissy Cuckold Frustration

i hate thongs.  Yes, they look very sexy on many girls but on a sissy (even ones with the tiniest of clitties) i just don't think they look nice.  And since i don't think they look nice, i don't like wearing them.  And since i don't like wearing them....well, so on and so on.

Diane knows all this and after what happened yesterday, it's safe to assume She shared this information with Her lover Paul.  The information along with some plotting on their part made for a very frustrating and humiliating afternoon for me.

It all began when i received a response from Paul to my daily Chastity Report email.  Here it is verbatim:

Sissy,

You'll be happy to hear I'll be over this afternoon at 2 PM sharp.  And you're probably even more excited to know I have another errand for you to run where you will get to spend a little more of your Victoria's Secret gift card.  Like that?  

Today's shopping list is small, just like the things you're going to buy.  You're to buy two lacy thongs.  One for Diane and one for you.  Her thong in black and yours in pink.  Make sure you buy the right sizes, we don't want those pretty things to go to waste right?

I expect you back with the thongs before I get there.

Sir

The email came in shortly after 10:00 AM yesterday not long after I had finished yesterday's blog post.  Paul's noting to buy the right size was an obvious reference to that post.  And the requirement to buy each of us a thong?  Certainly Diane must have let him in on my distaste for them. 

I had a couple of other things to do and when I looked at the time, realized that I would have to get going soon if I wanted to be back in time.  I mentioned the email to Diane and She suggested that "you get your pretty little ass in gear and go shopping."  i was gone in about 10 minutes.

i did my other errands first before i went to Victoria's Secret.  i was my regular nervous self but found what i was supposed to buy and got the usual courteous service from the sales personnel at the store.  It was before noon and the store wasn't that crowded.  i'd be home before one in plenty of time before Paul's scheduled arrival.  i even stopped at a Starbuck's drive thru for a coffee.

Wasn't i surprised when i pulled up the driveway around 1 PM to see Paul's car parked in front of Diane's garage door.  My sissy cuckold mind imagined Paul himself pulled up right behind Diane in our bedroom, just like the front of his car had pulled up next to Her's by the garage.  My imagination wasn't that far off.

Paul and Diane were already in bed together.  It was 1:05 PM.  The bedroom door was closed with a note taped to it that read "Do Not Disturb!  We'll call for you P."  i could hear some soft moans and giggling behind the door.  They knew i was there, our security system has small chimes that go off (one of them is in the master bedroom) when certain doors to the outside are opened.  i had entered the house through one of those doors. 

i waited until 1:43 PM before i was called.  Diane opened the door and called down to me to come up and bring the thongs.  When i entered the bedroom both Paul and Diane were nude, She standing near the bed and Paul laying on it relaxing.  "Strip down and join us for a little while" Diane said then gave me a kiss. 

Stripping down to nothing but my CB-3000, even though Paul's seen it before, was more humiliating than ever.  Probably the circumstances of the whole scene made me feel this way.  While i stripped Diane had gone into the bathroom to retrieve some small scissors to cut the tags off the thongs.  She held them each out and inspected them, taking Hers and holding it in front of Herself while doing a little sexy dance while facing Paul.  He liked what he saw and chuckled. 

"Why don't you slip Diane's on for Her?" he suggested.  It was more than a suggestion and i did it.  Diane handed me the thong, i knelt in front of Her and guided the garment up Her lovely thighs so that it fit nice and snug.  She grabbed my head and pressed it against Her crotch.  i kissed it.  She held me there long enough for me to get an appreciation for Her wetness, probably the result of some heavy foreplay but i didn't think Paul had made "full love" to Her yet.

"Sexy! A perfect fit too." Paul said.  "You're turn, put the pink one's on."

i put the pink one's on quickly and felt silly.  The front of the thong didn't cover the CB-3000 real well.  my stiffled erection was a non issue since it was confined in the plastic dungeon and the back of the thong felt uncomfortable as it nestled between my ass cheeks. 

"Cute!" Diane teased.  "Turn around and show us your pretty little butt."

i did and Diane quickly gave me a swat on the ass. 

"Thank you" She said.  "You can go now.  Go check the laundry room.  There's some ironing to do."

That was it.  i was shocked, embarrassed, humiliated and then some.  i went to pick up my clothes and Diane stopped me.

"No no.  Just like you are now.  Scoot."  There was another slap on the ass.

i left the clothes there and hurried out of the room.  i was alone with my thoughts doing some ironing for some 45 minutes.  There was a pile of clothes in a basket that Diane had taken out of Her closet to be ironed.  Tucked in the middle of the pile were a pair of Paul's slacks that I hadn't seen at first.  Ironing his slacks became the most humiliating cuckold task i've done to date.

my ironing was interrupted when i heard Diane call out.  "Did you get to Paul's pants yet?  He has to leave soon."  i replied that i had and Diane told me to bring them up to the bedroom.  i did and when i got up to the bedroom She was at the door  waiting.  She kissed me, took the pants and closed the door.

i was in the laundry room when Paul left.  He didn't say good bye or anything.  Soon after he walked out the door Diane told me to meet Her upstairs.

i was finally physically involved.  Paul was gone, but had left me a reminder of his presence there that afternoon.

love,

sissy terri

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My Chastity Commitment

i spent much of yesterday doing some volunteer work, a situation that precludes me from wearing my chastity belt.  i could wear it, but it's better than i don't. So i spent a little less than 10 hours unlocked, bringing my monthly percentage down slightly.

The effect that chastity has had on me has been profound.  How i've handled this and the effect it's had on me has surprised both Diane and i.  For instance yesterday, as soon as i got back home the first thing i did was to get back into my CB-3000.  i've become very good at putting it on and i was locked in a matter of minutes.

The urge to "cheat" (or please myself like a sissy) was there and several months ago i would have no doubt succumbed to that urge.  But now, with almost three full months of chastity under my "belt" - thought you'd like that one - that same urge is overpowered by my commitment to chastity.

Last night shortly after pleasing Her and adding another orgasm in Her column on the Daily Chastity Report, i mentioned how i'd gotten back into chastity immediately upon my return from the volunteer assignment.  "That's what you're supposed to do isn't it?" was Her response.  Not that i was expecting a compliment because She's right, it is what we agreed upon and what i'm supposed to do in such situations.  i was just hoping She would share in my amazement at how well things have gone.  Eventually She did, sort of.

"Don't worry.  I don't take your chastity for granted" She said.   i wasn't quite sure what She meant by that, but was certain that it was said with much affection and love.

i sent out the Daily Chastity Report to Diane and Paul early this morning.  Diane was still sleeping and i'd forgotten that Paul was on call and possibly up and working this weekend until he fired back this quick response:

Sissy,

Your time in chastity this month is impressive despite yesterday's minor setback.  Also nice to see you took my earlier instructions to heart.  See you Wednesday?

Sir

The note surprised me and for a moment, i wasn't sure what he meant by his "earlier instructions."  Then i remembered that last month, he sent me a brief note telling me that my time in chastity for February needed improvement.  Paul's subtle display of his dominance in the note along with his teaser about this coming Wednesday has me aroused.

Coming from my Wife's lover, it's also pretty embarrassing.

love,

sissy terri

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Keeping Everybody Happy

Our guests arrived early yesterday afternoon, while both of us were still enjoying the aftermath of a very beautiful afternoon with Paul.  Neither of our pleasures were solely the result of the eroticism of the encounter.  Rather, there were other factors that made us so happy.

For Diane it was the fact that She'd pulled this off and it worked so well.  Her strategy, with all its behind-the-scenes tactics, wasn't without risk, though She'd done Her homework to minimize it.  One such tactic, telling Paul about this blog, seems to have been the key to making this work.

My own pleasure came from knowing, and seeing first hand just how happy and content Diane was.  Sure, there was plenty in it for me, not the least of which was seeing Her happy, but it was evident that this was something She really wanted for Herself.  She wasn't doing it just to keep Her submissive wife happy.  There is something incredibly special when a couple's most intimate fantasies are so closely in sync.

The two of us spent a lot of time talking on Wednesday evening.  Yesterday's post was long enough without going on and on about our discussions.  It's a blog post, not a novel!  Diane reassured me that Paul also enjoyed himself and was looking forward to our next encounter.  i was a little unsure yesterday though.  i sent him a copy of the Daily Chastity Report at which time i also thanked him for Wednesday.  i added that it was helpful for me to see just how happy he made Diane.  i felt both silly and humiliated (two common feelings of mine) telling him that but it just felt right.   

After sending him the report, i expected a response of some kind and was disappointed each time i checked my email and there was nothing from him.  His message didn't arrive until late in the afternoon....

Sissy,

I had my own fun too.  With both of you :)

Looking forward to next time.

Diane was right about you.

Sir

Short, but reaffirming what Diane had told me.  Finally, i'm feeling more comfortable.

i showed Diane Paul's note and She just smiled and said "See, I told you.  Now comes the hard part for you.  Keeping the two of us happy!"

On a somewhat related note, i also forgot to mention that earlier last week when i asked Diane about doing some shopping at Victoria's Secret with the gift certificate She and Paul had bought me for Christmas, she told me to "hold off" until She gave me the go ahead.  i asked because i wanted to know if there was anything She wanted me to buy for Wednesday of this week.  So, i still have the gift certificate, waiting for further instructions.

love,

sissy terri

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Real Men Don't Wear Chastity Belts

Will tomorrow ever come?

i spent much of today doing some administrative volunteer work for a local non-profit organization.  More than anything else i've done over the past few days, it helped take my mind off tomorrow.  But as soon as i got back home, the anxiety started again.

It's also been complicated a bit by a call from an old friend who's in town and insists on having lunch tomorrow.  Diane's told me to relax and "chill out" a bit, accept the invitation to lunch and come home when i'm done.  If She and Paul get here before i do,  "you don't have to worry, we'll just start without you.  We've done it before!" is what She said with a smile.

She's done Her best to help me relax, telling me time and time again that it will work out because it's what we've both wanted for a long time.  As true as that may be, until it happens and is enjoyable, then i don't think the anxiety is going to go away.  i'm more nervous now than i've ever been on any "first date" in my life.

Paul seems quite relaxed about it all and apparently enjoy the role he's in.  He's only sent me a few brief notes via email in response to a Daily Chastity Report i send to both he and Diane.  One such note came earlier today:

Sissy,

I'm quite impressed by the amount time you're spending in chastity.  I could never do it.  Nor would I of course.

And my intrusion into your blog doesn't seem to have affected your openness.  Make sure that continues.

Sir

The notes are short but very direct.  As the submissive cuckold, and being who i am, i pore over every word and over-analyze every phrase, searching for any hidden or every possible meaning it contains, along with wondering what he's really trying to convey.

Today's note had two things that immediately jumped out at me.  The compliment about the time i spend in chastity, even when taken alone, emphasizes my submission and his superiority.  Put together with the "Nor would I of course" phrase, it was even more powerful.  The difference between Paul and i is made very clear isn't it.  The "hidden" message?  Real Men Don't Wear Chastity Belts!

Then there's the "Make sure that continues."  i took it as a direct order.  i have been doing my best to continue blogging just the way i did before i found out he knew about it.  So i'm happy at least he thinks i haven't changed.

So i continue to wait for tomorrow.  i'm sure if they have to start without me, Diane will have instructions ready for me when i arrive.  Or maybe they'll be Paul's instruction.

love,

sissy terri

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