Looking for My Bull

One would think that if a man is looking to romance a woman sufficiently to take her to bed, he'd do his best to make a good first impression.  Or am I just being old-fashioned?

The ad I posted on one of the more popular "dating" sites for married women garnered more than 100 responses rather quickly.  They continue to come in but of the first 100 responses, here's a brief breakdown:

• 27 men only "winked" at me - I assume they aren't interested and it was just their way of saying hello on the site.
• 35 men only gave me access to their "private showcase."  I guess I was supposed to be impressed by the assortment of penises, hairy chests and firm buttocks that are out there to be had.  Not very intellectually stimulating.
• 15 men actually replied with only one sentence or less - less than a sentence is something that was grammatically incorrect.
• The other 48 actually wrote more than one sentence.
• I've begun correspondence with three of these 48.

I was surprised that of the 48 who gave me something worth reading, 35 of them either didn't understand what cuckolding was or weren't interested in it.  Surprising because my ad specifically stated that I wanted to cuckold my husband.  So of the first 100, one could say that I have three potential leads worth pursuing.

All three seem to be intelligent and keenly aware of what cuckolding is all about.  Right now I've got no reason to think that before the month is over I will eventually meet the three for coffee or lunch and get to know them a little better.   Before then, I also hope to talk with them live. 

I've made it clear to all three that somehow my sissy wife will be involved.  Not all the time but most of the time she'll be involved either directly or indirectly in what we do.  They say they are all good with it, but before I get into an intimate setting with them, I have to do my best to be sure.  I suppose there is no fool proof way to find out and I'll just have to judge for myself based upon our initial meetings.  If I decide to move forward with one of them after my first meeting, I will include terri at the next meeting and see how the potential lover reacts.

I'm staying positive about this because so far, two of the men seem quite creative about how they see themselves in such a situation.  All of them however have expressed some concern that my "husband" is on board with this.  I can understand that.  I've also told them to rest assured, the "the sissy" is definitely on board. 

Her being on board is just one of the many reasons I love her.

Diane

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So Sorry....

It's been almost a month since i've blogged and i apologize for that.  Everyone's busy so that's not really an excuse.  As busy as we've been, time could have been found to post.

i also want to apologize to those who posted comments that ended up awaiting moderation.  i'll recheck to make sure my settings are set properly so that they can appear more promptly.  i've made sure they are appearing now.

Emotionally i've been a bit down.  Other than Diane not having found anyone yet as a lover, our situation has remained pretty much the same.  i live full time as her "wife" here at home and our sex life, as active as it is, reflects that type of relationship.

i don't remember the last time i had intercourse with Diane, and i'm not saying that in a bad sort of way.  Diane teased me the other night about that, asking me if i wanted to try to make love to Her like a man, or would i prefer She make love to me like a woman.  The short dialogue got me terribly excited and i know i wouldn't have lasted long in my attempt at intercourse with Her.  She made the decision for me.

Diane got a large number of responses to Her posting looking for a lover.  She's astonished that some people actually think they're going to get somewhere with either one line responses or pictures of their privates.  One might be more impressive than the other but not enough for Her.  She's started some correspondence with three people, but She's not overly excited that even these will work out.  One in particular seems a little too pushy.  It's still way to early to tell.

i only saw Jake one time this month, but am planning to see him next Monday or Tuesday.  We also talked about taking a golfing vacation together this fall or winter.  Thinking about what a whole week would be like being femme for another man when in private sounds thrilling, but again, we'll see.  Diane is okay with it, saying that if she finds a lover, then a similar trip could be on the agenda for the two of them.

Discussing that potential golf trip with Diane got me a little depressed when the discussion was done.  It was just one more thing that demonstrated that even though She loves me, i'm a husband to Her in name only.  In every other aspect, i'm Her submissive wife.   It hurts feeling that way sometimes, but my need for submission and feminization at the hands of a dominant woman like Her is too great.  i just can't walk away from this.

i'll try to post more often, unless Google makes my blog disappear!

love,

sissy terri

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My Turn

Think I've waited long enough to post here?  I suppose I have but this is really my terri's blog and as a full time housewife of an empty nest household, she has much more time to post than I do.

Sure it's been pretty boring around her lately.  No Brian and no cuckolding. 

I'm hoping that changes soon.  I've posted an ad and we'll see what happens.  Posting an ad has it's advantages.  You can get right to the point and explain exactly what you want.  No need to "train" the guy about cuckolding and all of its related erotica.  Things get get going immediately.

On the other hand, postings attract way too many undesirables.  But it's probably worth a try.

I might also get lucky and find the right man when and where I least expect.  Who knows, maybe by chance there's a masculine, virile, hunky guy out there who stops by this blog once and awhile because he's got a cuckolding fantasy. 

If he's read the blog, he's certainly familiar enough with what I'm looking for.

Wish me luck!

Diane

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A Prancing Sissy

Things have been pretty quiet around here.  Diane hasn't seen Brian in a long time and they don't speak as much as they used to.  She told me that She's nearly complete working on a ad She wants to post, most likely on Ashely Madison but she may also post it on another site.

Today, Diane sent me an email with a link to an article on the Huffington Post.  It promotes a type of exercise called "Prancercise."   The article goes on to say that the woman in the video, Joanne Rohrback, even has her own official website for Prancercise.

Diane's email read in part:  "I think I should insist that you work this type of workout into your routine every day.  Wouldn't you feel cute prancing around the neighborhood dressed just like the lady in the video?  I'm sure you'd enjoy it. And think of the health benefits...."

Here's the video

Diane's right (as usual).  It is very appropriate for sissies!

love,

sissy terri

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Full Cut Panties

i did plenty of housework today, a little more than usual for a Tuesday.  Diane had left me a list of things to do and a few of them took longer than anticipated.  i'm very satisfied with myself though, i think my work was very thorough and of the highest domestic quality.

i'm also happy with how i've adapted and accepted my role in this relationship with Diane.  During our lovemaking last night, where She played Her usual role in penetrating me, She reminded me of that role; the one as Her wife.  And not just any wife, but a submissive wife.  i love the verbal aspect of lovemaking and it was so intimate and beautiful.  The best part was that i felt She enjoyed it as much as i did when it was all over.

She must have, because before She left for work today She told me to treat myself to a couple of pairs of luxury panties. "Go head and buy something online today" She said before kissing me goodbye.  What sissy can refuse that offer?  Not this one anyway.

So i did as i was told.  i love buying high end lingerie, items that cost way more than the panties youmight find in even an upscale department store.  The mere price of these things makes it feel naughty to buy and when you put them on, well....i think the price is worth it.

Diane did give me some instructions.  The panties were to be full cut and nothing trashy.  "Nothing over the top.  Not necessarily plain, but classy and feminine.  You knowwhat I mean" She laughed.  i hope i did.

i chose two similar pair, one pink and one white.  i've bought many feminine garments and other lingerie online, but today's  shopping felt pretty special.  Maybe it was last night's lovemaking, or the domestic things i did today, or just a good feeling about where i am in my life with Diane.  Most likely, it was a combination of the three and more things.

Anyway, i hope you like the panties.  i can't wait for them to get here!

Love,

sissy terri

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A Very Sissy Sunday

Diane's recent disappointments with her likely ex-lover Brian over the past couple of months haven't dampened Her Dominance over me at all.  Neither have they lessened Her playfulness when it comes to keeping me interested in being Her submissive wife.

We spent parts of Friday night and Saturday discussing how She wants to go about finding a new lover.  She's admitted that She's very picky and although that's part of the problem, it's also one of the things i love about Her.  She doesn't want to settle for just anyone.  Diane brought up an interesting option which i hadn't thought about at all.

"Why not look for another married couple" She suggested, "one where the husband is dominant and the wife submissive.  He might be interested in cuckolding another man, and enjoy having his submissive wife play along."  i had to admit that it certainly sounded intriguing and maybe She sensed some excitement on my part because She made it clear not to get any thoughts about my possible involvement with the other woman.  Not surprising.

Diane's working on putting a posting together, although She's still not sure the best avenue to start this search.

We also talked about Diane posting here on the blog once and awhile.  i have it all set up for Her to contribute whenever She wants to and this weekend She promised me that She would, but in due time.  So earlier today, She surprised me by telling me that She had posted something on the blog!

i couldn't wait to log on and see what She had posted.  i was terribly disappointed when i didn't see a new posting and went to tell Her that She'd probably done something wrong because there was no new post.

"Look again, and look closely" was all She had to say.

i went back and sure enough, She had posted something on the "Daily Femme Delights" section - a picture of a pretty pink sissy dress She'd like to buy me so i can wear in front of Her "new lover."

All i can say is that She knows me like a book.  The picture and Her caption excited me immediately.

"Do you like it?" She asked.

"No, i love it" i told Her.

She lifted the hem of my skirt and fondled me through my panties.  i had to wait until She was finished what She was doing, but soon i was upstairs pleasing Her like a sissy pleases a woman.

love,

sissy terri

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Unfortunately, There's Nothing New

It's almost safe to say that Brian is now my wife Diane's "ex-lover."  He's gone back east for a six month assignment and for all intents and purposes, the affair they had going is over.  Diane's desire to find a lover went beyond just having sex with someone.  The sex was a large part of it, but so was the whole idea of openly cuckolding me with this lover. 

Brian was a convenient option for Her.  She knew him and thought that eventually, She could get him to accept this whole cuckolding lifestyle and adopt to the role of the Dominant Bull She so desperately wants.  That didn't work.  As much as She tried, there was always a reluctance on Brian's part to accept that role.  The reluctance, coupled with his lack of availability as often as Diane would have liked sort of doomed the relationship from the start. 

Diane is back to looking again, but hasn't quite pulled the trigger when it comes to posting ads on some of the more popular websites like Ashley Madison, Collar Me, or Fetlife.  Diane's reluctant to use the latter two options.  Admittedly, She's being a bit aloof when She thinks that they're not likely to attract the type of lover She wants.  But by the same token, She doesn't think that Ashley Madison (a site designed primarily for married people looking to have discreet affairs) will have many men actively looking to openly cuckold a woman's husband. 

Diane's also had several overtures from people She's worked with over the years, but She's just not into mixing business associations and pleasure, unless there are several degrees of separation.  i can't blame Her for that. 

i remain comfortable in my role as Her wife, dressing en femme every day and doing things that a normal stay-at-home housewife would do.  i pleasure Her in every way i can with the exception of the way a real man would, and She seems happy with me for that.  However, the void that exists in Her sex life right now is difficult to miss.  i see it and i feel it. 

When She really has the urge i'm made to wear a head harness with a dildo attached and She goes absolutely crazy  as She straddles me.  More so than She ever has.  It's a very submissive feeling.  i'm being objectified and it arouses me.  When it's over, She teases me about riding a sex toy that's protruding from my face while "the real thing" is staring her in the face.  Of course, She's referring to the erection i get every time i'm pressed into this type of service.

i did see Jake briefly last week.  He stopped by briefly so that i could service him.  i felt guilty.  i'm getting real cock and my Wife isn't. Hopefully that will change soon.  i want to see Her happy. 

love,

sissy terri

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