A Little Chastity Among Friends

With two days to go before our big family event, the house is bustling with activity.  The two daughters, their friends along with out-of-town guests arriving makes for a very busy time.   There's barely time for sex of any kind, never mind cuckolding.

i did get to give Diane a pedicure last night (a task that never fails to, at a minimum, at least partially satisfy this submissive's desire for servitude) and when the polish was "dry enough" move my attentions to more intimate regions of Her anatomy.  i was very grateful.  While Diane does enjoy my pedicures, this one was no doubt requested for my benefit, since She's having a professional one done Friday afternoon.

So today provided me with another opportunity to dip into the sissy cuckold mailbag and find one of the many unanswered questions you've asked in some of your comments.

Last Saturday i opened up my blog post with: "We're about to embark on an incredibly busy week that's to be followed by a week's vacation with some close friends."  This prompted Mick Collins, follower, regular reader and fellow cuckold to ask the following:

Sounds like a busy couple of weeks. Will you be caged up during that planned vacation with friends? Will they know your sad fate?

i later typed a hasty (complete with typos) reply to Mick from my iPhone that my chastity status for the vacation had yet to be determined and that if i was, our friends wouldn't be told.

Diane read the post and the comments and surprisingly brought up the subject last night.  She's decided that i'm to remain in chastity "as much as possible throughout the vacation."  The discussion was very brief.  i'll be able to get out of chastity only in "obviously risky situations, and only with permission."

At the risk of sounding argumentative, i did ask Her if She could define "obviously risky" a bit better or give me an example of what She meant.  Clearly not in the mood to enter into a debate with me, She simply said "A situation with a high risk of your chastity being discovered."  There was a pause just long enough to see if i had anything else to say.  i was mulling it over and before i had a chance to say anything else She put an end to the discussion with "And since it's a bit confusing to you don't worry about it.  I'll decide when it comes off."

As you can see, one of the benefits of a Female Led Marriage is efficient time management.   Very little time is wasted on decision making.  My chastity status has been decided.  Like the key, it will be in Diane's hands, where it belongs.

Submission to another requires some level of trust, otherwise it's not going to work.  i have complete trust in Diane.  Though Her dominance and/or my submission has been publicly displayed at times, it's been done in such a way that hasn't 1) offended anybody who might be around and 2) revealed anything that would be damaging to our personal or professional lives.  She's never done anything that would cause me to reduce the level of trust i have in Her judgement.

Our most recent experience with this was on our last ski vacation when, on New Year's Eve, Diane decided to wear the key to my chastity device around Her neck.  It was Her way of putting my chastity on display for all to see without offending anyone. 

We're very close to the friends we'll be vacationing with.  You could say we're best friends.  They're not aware of our lifestyle but by the same token are very familiar with Diane's personality and Her assertiveness at times.  i'm quite sure they don't read anything more than that into it.  On the other hand, Diane's friend Linda is very much aware of our lifestyle but not sexually involved in it.  Diane has a comfort level and trust with Linda that allows this.

i'm sure many submissives fantasize about being made to show devotion to their Dominants or perform some humiliating task in a public setting.   But it's also one of those things that's best fantasized about and not acted upon.  Much of what is fantasized would likely offend innocent bystanders.

i'm quite certain Diane has Her own dominant fantasies that She'd likely enjoy.  She certainly pushes the envelope and that's one of the things that makes Her so sexy.  She just never pushes it so that the contents spill out. 

The shopping trips i have to make to Victoria's Secret with specific instructions from Diane and/or Paul are humiliating enough. 

love,

sissy terri

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Erotic Cuckolding

The weather's been rather warm here in the southwest.  We're not native to the area and haven't lived here that long, but we went swimming in our pool earlier this year than ever before.  We were able to swim comfortable in early March, making our friends back east green with envy.

i believe that i've mentioned before that our backyard is rather private.  Because of our property's location and elevation, the closest neighbors can't see into it.  Distant neighbors could catch a glimpse with some powerful binoculars, a telescope, some satellite, surveillance or a drone but it's rather unlikely.  If they happened to do so yesterday around 4 PM, they might have seen Diane lounging topless on the patio with Her lover Paul after taking a relaxing afternoon swim.

Oh, and they might have also caught a glimpse of a sissy in a flirty apron serving them a gin and tonic.  That would have been me. 

The dip and the pool and the late afternoon served by the cuckold took the edge of a busy day for the two of them, relaxing them just enough to enjoy the hour or so of sex that followed in our master bedroom.

The two of them arrived at our house about 15 minutes after Diane had called me to tell me they were on their way and to take the solar cover off the pool.  Once i receive instructions from Diane like this, i can't help but think of what scenario might ensue after they arrive.  Would i be made to wear one of my feminine bathing suits and join them for a swim?  Would they be swimming before or after they made love?  Would they swim nude? Would i be made to serve them as they lounged by the pool?

They ended up in the pool for about 15 minutes.  Not much swimming took place.  Instead, let's just call it some outdoor foreplay in the pool, with Diane often being held by Paul with Her arms and legs wrapped around his muscular torso.  Diane must not have been able to quite convince Paul to go into the pool naked as he opted to wear the bathing suit he'd brought along.  When they got out, the suit did little to hide his excitement.

They didn't finish the drinks i prepared for them, leaving the patio for the master bedroom about 5 minutes after coming out of the pool.  i didn't join them until after 5:30 PM when Diane called me.  Paul had taken a quick shower and was almost fully dressed when i came into the room.  Diane was in a ruby red satin robe i'd bought Her for Valentine's Day many years ago.  It was always one of Her favorites.

Paul was pleasant and even thanked me for the drink, apologizing for not finishing it.  He seemed very comfortable with everything; being in our bedroom, seeing me dressed and the whole situation in general.  i had a sense however that he wanted to say something and i was right.

"Don't worry, it's not always going to be this way.  Diane has plans for you.  See you next week."  He gave Diane a kiss and he left.

Paul was no sooner out the bedroom door when Diane had Her robe off and was ready for me.  She was eager to have me go down on Her.  It was as if She couldn't wait for another orgasm or two.  And i couldn't wait to provide it.  Despite some remnants of Her lover's seed between Her legs, there was never any hesitancy on my part.  Later, She admitted that my lack of inhibition and reluctance about cleaning Her turns Her on.

It was a very productive "orgasm day" for Diane.  She began with one early yesterday morning, had "at least a few" with Paul that afternoon and ended the day with a long and powerful one with me.  She may not have as many as Molly at Under Contract to my Wife, but April was off to a good start.

As for me, i remained chaste all day.  Sure it was challenging...but erotically fulfilling at the same time. 

love,

sissy terri

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Orgasm Inequality

As i prepared today's Chastity Report for Diane and Paul, i added another green block to Diane's "Orgasm Column" and couldn't help but notice the growing disparity between Her green column and my pink one.  Of the twenty one days in March, fourteen have green blocks.  Only one has pink. 

The pink block represents the one, singular orgasm i enjoyed this month. On the other hand, Diane's green blocks rarely represent just one orgasm.  Like yesterday, She most often enjoys multiple orgasms during lovemaking, many times even insisting upon it.  Some women are multi-orgasmic.  Many men are not.  That's especially true of sissies in chastity.

Diane saw Paul briefly yesterday and it's unlikely She had an orgasm while they were together.  i didn't ask and She didn't tell.  When She got home we watched our local college team move on to the Sweet Sixteen in the NCAA tournament and once the game was over, i was led immediately to the bedroom.

As i pleasured Her, i had many sissy thoughts on my mind which added to my arousal.  When i'm like that i wonder if Diane can tell by how i provide Her pleasure.  Does my arousal make me do a better job?  Does She wonder why?  My arousal was heightened yesterday by several factors and with my CB-3000 preventing any full erection, it seemed like my sexual frustration was mounting.

As Diane enjoyed Her orgasms (one was especially powerful) it was obvious my condition was of no concern to Her.  Nor should it be.  i'm the submissive.  There for Her pleasure.  It's not the meant to be the other way around.  Yet when it was over and She told me to get Her strap-on and harness, for a moment i sensed an expression of concern, or at least interest, for my sexual frustration.

"Get the strap-on and stuff.  Let's see what we can do" She said.  There were no instructions to remove the CB-3000.  It would stay on.  "Let's see what we can do" meant She was going to try to give me an orgasm while i was locked.  Something that has yet to happen.

i've read that orgasms while in chastity are possible.  While i've yet to experience one, i've come very close so i believe it can happen.  From my personal "close" experiences, i believe they come about as a result of a combination of things.  The eroticism of what's taking place at the time is obviously important, as is the mental state and thought process of the individual trying to experience the orgasm.  Sensual touching, teasing, verbal and other stimuli also play a role. 

Yesterday, i came close....very close.  Diane made sensual love to me with Her strap-on and seemed to say all the right things that put me into deep subspace and sissy heaven.  A couple of times i thought i was going to cum and even seem to feel a little bit of precum leaking out.  i came close, but didn't come.

Diane enjoyed our little session and made it a point to tell me.  "It's fun to use you this way" She said, "even when you don't cum" She laughed.  "Especially when you don't cum" She added in Her own teasing way.  "Don't worry about it" She said, "It's going to happen sooner or later."

i could have easily had an orgasm.  All Diane had to do was unlock me and take the CB off.  i would have exploded in less than a minute.  But that would have been the easy and simple thing to do. 

Chastity is the new reality here.  My orgasms aren't going to be easy and simple.

Neither are they going to be equal in number to Diane's.

love,

sissy terri

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My Chastity Secret

i wouldn't call it a nightmare, but the dream i was having caused me to wake up startled, a bit disoriented and afraid of what would happen next.  A few seconds later i realized where i was and suddenly felt relieved.

Rarely am i able to recall my dreams with much specificity or detail except in very small snippets.  When it comes to any "plot" or "storyline" to the dream, forget it.  Usually the little snippets i do remember come with very little context; nothing about what happened before the memorable incident. 

In this particular dream one of our best friends somehow either brushed up against my crotch, with her hand no less, and felt the bulge of my CB-3000.  Our friend Valerie immediately turned, looked at me and said "Oooohhh....Wow!" and smiled.  My immediate reaction was that Valerie thought it was an erection but when i saw Her whispering to Diane and giggling, i thought my chastity had been "outed."

All of this took place at "dream speed", a matter of moments where all these thoughts and things happen at once and then i woke up.  Before i was fully reoriented to my surroundings i had a strong urge to take off the chastity belt out of embarrassment.  Instead, like any submissive husband who wakes up in an aroused state when in chastity, i went to the bathroom and sat down to pee, waiting for some relief from the pressure within the restrictive cage.

The seeds for the dream were likely planted several weeks ago when Diane and i planned a vacation with our very best friends Rhett and Valerie.   After we'd done so, i mentioned to Diane that the vacation might be another week where my time in chastity might not be as high as usual.  She just laughed it off and said "We'll see."

We've very close to Rhett and Valerie and we've been friends for a very long time.  It won't be the first vacation we take together.  We've done it just the four of us and with our kids as well.  We're not swingers or anything, but we're very dear friends.

One of my initial concerns about being in chastity so much was whether or not it would be noticeable to others?  It didn't take long for Diane to convince me that it really wasn't.  i agreed.  Someone would have to be staring at my crotch for a while to detect anything different.  As a result i've become more comfortable wearing it most all the time.

The dream brought back concerns about the possibility, accidental or not, of someone feeling the very rigid shape of the chastity belt.  The panties i wear, or any type of underwear for that matter, provide no real protection to avoid discovery by touch.  Personally, i don't think it's easily mistaken for an erection.  If that happens, then what's next? Will they expect some sort of explanation?  What will they think?  If they question me, what am I to say?  It's all pretty unlikely, but it's been on my mind the past couple of days.

Right now, the only people who know that i'm in chastity are Diane, Paul and Diane's best friend Linda.  Of course, my "sissy sisters" know but that's different.

If someone were to discover my secret, i'm sure i wouldn't be the first submissive sissy it's happened to.  However, i'd much prefer my chastity remain a secret.

love,

sissy terri

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Pre-Chastity Memories

With guests in the house, Valentine's going to be a very low key and vanilla day for us.  Diane's hinted that i may be in for a treat later tonight if things work out.  That leads me to believe i may even be allowed to have an orgasm.  It would be my first for the month of February.

Other than that, we're going out to dinner with our guests tonight.  Fortunately, we've secured a reservation and it should be a nice time.  So, before i get on to another topic, i want to wish all my readers a very Happy Valentine's Day.  i hope you all get to enjoy it in a special way!

While reading a post on "Robert Anthony's Chastity & FemDom Blog" a couple of nights ago in which he related how excited he was and how close he came to cumming simply by worshiping his wife's pussy, i couldn't help but reminisce about the times i experienced the exact same thing.

Robert, who for various reasons hadn't been intimate with his Dominant Wife for several days, explained the scene this way:

"My cock was throbbing hard by now and being back between her gorgeous thighs felt so good to me, I swear as I finally tasted her delicious pussy I thought my cock was going to explode underneath me. I'm not joking, I seriously thought I was going to cum. Mistress's pussy tastes so amazing and I have missed it so very much.

Thankfully I managed to curtail my impending accident and concentrated on worshiping Mistress's beautiful pussy."

Robert's excitement and near orgasm was also induced by the fact that moments before his Wife pushed his face down between Her thighs, the two of them were engaged in foreplay they'd apparently used before theirs became a FemDome marriage:

"... it seemed very vanilla to me, like the old days, and I half wondered (hoped?) if she would pull me on top of her and tell me to fuck her hard and cum inside her. Okay, maybe hoping to be allowed to cum inside her was a bit optimistic... it's only been nine days after all.

Instead Mistress pushed me gently down between her legs, though I cheekily slid back up her body... partly to carry on kissing her, and just maybe, perhaps, hoping my cock would brush against her pussy and she might... maybe, pull me inside her. One can hope, right?"

Oh how i can relate! i've had similar experiences where, especially after pleasing Diane (She always has an orgasm first unless She feels otherwise) i would hint or make a move as if to penetrate Her like a real man, only to get pushed away.  i've written about it here before like in this post Sex Between a Wife and Her Sissy, and it can be a very humbling experience.

Like Robert, on numerous occasions, i've had to do my best to hold back an orgasm while i was worshiping Diane, my mind in a deep subspace as i became totally lost in my role as existing solely for Her pleasure.  Many times i wasn't successful, unable to control myself and would make a sissy mess!

Even though i'm just as aroused today when i worship Diane as i've ever been, i don't have that problem anymore.  Since January 1, every time i worship Her i'm locked in my CB-3000.

No more sissy messes.  So far it's been a very effective way to cure my "problem."

love,

sissy terri

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Safe, Sound and Satisfied

Diane arrived safe and sound yesterday afternoon a little after 4 o'clock.  Though i'd only been away from Her a couple of days, it felt so much longer.  i was so happy to see Her.  After i pulled up to the curb at the airport to help put Her luggage in the back of our SUV, the first thing She did was kiss me and reach for my crotch to feel for my CB.  The kiss and the groping for my CB were simultaneous.

"You missed a couple of my orgasms on the chastity report" She told me on the way home.

"i did?  When did You have those?" i asked, unaware that She'd actually pleasured Herself over the last two days.

"I had some free time with no one around and took advantage of it.  The last time I was even on the phone with Paul" She said with a big smile as She reached over and put Her hand on my thigh.  "And i missed you too.  Can't way to feel you between my thighs."

There was arousal stirring in my CB-3000.  It didn't hurt now, but i knew it would when i was between Her thighs.  "Feeling" me between her thighs doesn't mean the same thing as it would when another woman would say such a thing to her husband.  She didn't need to clarify it or anything because i knew what She meant.

Since i'm not allowed to penetrate Her, She was obviously referring to my pleasuring Her orally.  My lips and tongue are always welcome between Her thighs, the cheeks of Her beautiful bottom and anywhere else She so desires. 

Diane moved on to a different topic as we drove home.  Yes, i was paying attention to what She said but my mind had flashed back to an email i'd received from Paul earlier Saturday morning.  It was, what i thought at the time, just a short note in response to the Chastity Report i had sent him and Diane just a couple of hours before:

sissy,

Thanks for the update.  Had a lovely chat with Diane yesterday.  Wished her a safe trip back.

Sir

Diane's view

Now i knew just how "lovely" that chat was.  Obviously, he knew how much Diane enjoyed it.  i wonder if he can appreciate the type of perverse enjoyment i was receiving from it as well.

Later in the day, i did find myself between Diane's lovely thighs.  There was plenty of discomfort between my own thighs with all the straining against the restrictive confines of my CB-3000.  Diane had a powerful orgasm, one during which She was far more vocal than usual.  It took awhile for my discomfort to subside and i wasn't allowed any such pleasure for myself.

In the orgasm department i'm still "0 for February."

And Diane is far, far ahead.

"As it should be" She says.

love,

sissy terri
 

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Accepting Paul's Rules

Last night, much to my surprise Diane suggested that rather than wait until we return home, i let Paul know of my decision to accept the rules he set out for my full cuckold involvement with he and Diane. 

"Include Paul on the daily Chastity Report you send me tomorrow morning" She told me.  "I think it will it would be a very pleasant surprise.  I'm sure you'll make him happy.  Sending him the report was one of his rules right?"

It certainly was and in retrospect it was one that he appeared to emphasize a bit more than some of the others.  Diane believes he has no interest in being my "keyholder" other than at the times he is
there with us.  She also has not intention of relinquishing Her rights as my ultimate keyholder.  

Originally, Diane seemed to want to have some sort of formalized or symbolic event or scene where i would officially accept his terms in front of the two of them.  But always one to spring the element of surprise on me, She's now done the same thing to Paul.  Diane also wanted me to include January's Chasity Report in my email to him, giving him "a greater understanding of how this works."

Diane's "suggestion" fell short of a strict directive but i knew it's what She wanted me to do.  i refer to it as a suggestion because She did ask me what i thought about it.  i was surprised at Her suggestion, believing that all this would have to wait until we got back.  The wait was making me anxious for several reasons, one of course was wondering what Diane had planned and how all this would play out.  By doing it this way, much of that anxiety is gone or at least diminished.  i told Her it was a good idea.

So this morning, i entered yesterday's data on my time in chastity, attached the January and February reports to the email i routinely send to Diane each morning, added Paul's email address to the "To" line, wrote a brief message to both of them, and clicked "Send."

The message to Paul in part read:

"Sir....after careful consideration i've decided to accept the rules you set out at our meeting on January 14th and the subsequent discussion we had on January 23rd.  Beginning today, i will include you on this Daily Chastity Report....i look forward to doing my best to make this work so that it is pleasurable to both you and Diane.

submissively,

sissy terri

i let Diane read the note before i sent it and She thought it was nice.  i'd originally signed off with "regards" instead of "submissively."  The latter was Her suggestion, saying that it expressed a deeper commitment.  i agreed.

i'm not completely sure when i will get to see Paul with Diane next, but right now it looks like it will be next Wednesday.  i'm sure the anxiety might build up again, but for now at least i feel a bit relieved.

love,

sissy terri

p.s. - A special thanks, hugs and kisses to Candi for the beautiful post about her new maids uniform and the beautiful picture!  Aren't i lucky to have such a sweet and beautiful sissy gurlfriend?

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A Sissy Cuckold's Chastity Progression

Nearly three years ago i wrote a post entitled "Too Much Work" where, after i'd brought up the idea of keeping me in chastity at times to Diane, She immediately dismissed it.  She felt it was too much work for the Dominant partner in any relationship and preferred "low maintenance domination."  How times have changed.

Fast forward to this past June when during a phone conversation we had while i was away on a short business trip, Diane was the one who brought up the chastity discussion.  Her hinting at it and the suggestion that maybe She'd make me wear one only when i was at home or when She was with Her lover Paul aroused me.  She was teasing me and though i enjoyed it, never thought that the idea would go much further.  i was wrong.

Then this fall Diane surprisingly and suddenly set chastity as a condition of my seeing Jake again.  Jake had contacted me and wanted to get together again but i needed Diane's permission.  She took Her time in making up Her mind.  i wrote about Her decision and how shocked i was when She said:

"You can see Jake" Diane said.  i immediately thanked Her but was quickly interrupted.  "I'm not finished.  There's a condition attached to my decision.  If you're going to see him, you're going to be wearing a chastity belt when you do."

More shocking was the fact that She'd already ordered a chastity belt for me; the pink CB-3000.

Then in late December, when the time i was spending with Jake became less frequent when he began dating a woman after his divorce, Diane took it a step further.  On New Year's Eve while we were on a ski vacation, She announced that as part of "our" New Years Resolutions, i was to begin a daily calendar that would log how much time i spent in and out of chastity.  Each day i provide Her with the updated calendar.  It contains daily, weekly and month-to-date percentages of my time in chastity, along with notes.  The notes explain why i was out of chastity as well some of my own personal thoughts.  Yesterday marked four full weeks under this new regimen.  i've spent approximately 88% of 2015 in chastity.

Another surprising, and peripherally related, event took place on Monday, January 12th.  We hosted Diane's friend Linda that night to watch the Ohio State - Oregon national championship game.  Diane delivered another shocker, telling Linda:

....that Paul would be coming over on Wednesday afternoon like he usually does but this time, "terri will be here and won't be hiding this time.  It's all in the open now between the three of us."

The announcement was a shocker to me, though Diane made it seem like i knew all along.  It was difficult to hide my embarrassment and shock, but i was aroused.

Then just two days after that on Wednesday the 14th, i sat down with Paul and Diane and listened to his "rules" for me as a cuckold, two of which related directly to my chastity.  They are:

• When the three of us are together i must always be in chastity and he will determine if i am allowed out of it.  At all other times, that's up to Diane.
• i am to send him a copy of the daily chastity report i send to Diane. 

And finally last night, Diane added one more small but not insignificant requirement to my daily chastity report.  Beginning on February 1st, i will also be required to keep track of those days on which either of us has an orgasm.  There's to be a column for each of us.  If Diane has an orgasm (or more than one) on that day, i am to highlight it in green.  If i have one, it's to be highlighted in pink.

This most recent command from Diane made me realize just how few orgasms i've been allowed to have this past month.  i don't even remember when the last one was.  i think it was two weekends ago.

i hope i haven't bored you with this post which is more or less just a summary of how my chastity has progressed, a timeline of sorts that helps put this part of my life in a different perspective. 

Orgasms are indeed an important part of someone's sex life.  We tend to view them as some type of "mark of success" of any particular sex act.  For many, i suppose it's impossible to separate sex and orgasms.  Seems like you need one with the other. 

i'm beginning to understand how that isn't necessarily true.  i can't quite explain it but i can feel it. 

It's almost unbelievable how things have changed, Diane's attitude towards chastity in particular.  i also can't help but wonder when, in the course of the events i've just described, Diane might have decided to connect or link my chastity to the decisions She's made in the past several months. 

love,

sissy terri

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Chastity Time - Lots of it

On New Year's Eve in a post called A Chaste New Year i wrote the following:

Diane wants to discuss some New Year's resolutions later today and one of them is definitely chastity.  She wants to institute a calendar which will log how many hours i spend in chastity each day.  She's yet to decide what the daily/monthly goal will be, but She definitely wants me to keep track of it.

We did discuss New Year's resolutions and the chastity discussion was first and foremost.  The end result (a better term would be "Diane's final decision")  was that I would keep a daily tally of how many hours i spent in and out of chastity, enter it on a spreadsheet, calculate the percentage and enter a short note about my time in and/or out of chastity each day.  The spreadsheet would contain columns for the date, time in, time out, daily note and another column for a weekly summary.

She also told me to set it up so that there would be a separate sheet for each month.  She wanted daily, month-to-date and year-to-date percentages calculated on a continuing basis.  i would email the spreadsheet to Her each day.   i'm not an excel geek but this was pretty easy to do.  i've also been emailing the sheet to Her every day.  We've called it "The Chastity Report."

Formalizing my chastity is a significant change in our lifestyle.  It's something that i would have written about much sooner, were it not for the other significant event that took place last Sunday - the sissy cuckold gift i received from both Diane and Her lover Paul.  It reminds me of how one significant news event overtakes another on cable news networks.  Everything else is placed on the back burner.

Diane's chastity rules are quire simple:  i'm to be in chastity all the time unless i have Her permission to be out.  i don't have a specified target percentage.  She says i don't need one.  She's correct.  She decides when i'm in or out and as a result, these decisions will drive the percentage.  i can ask to get out and in "emergencies" i'm allowed to take it off, but understand that there will be consequences if She deems no real emergency existed.  i'm allowed to take it off when i shower or bathe for hygiene purposes, thoroughly washing the CB and putting it back on when i'm done.

We're ten days into this and Diane is very satisfied with the results thus far.  All my orgasms are controlled by Her.  How and when they occur is something that rests with Her.  Where once She found the whole "chastity thing too much work" She now enjoys the control it gives Her.  She says i appear even more docile and submissive than i was before.  Some may find that hard to believe.

As for me, i do feel it has had a positive effect on me.  Other than the angst i've had about what the future holds with Paul, more time in chastity seems to have had a calming effect on me.  In the strangest sort of ways, i believe it's helped me deal with the situation and handle it better.  i'm also sleeping with the CB more often.  Some nights Diane has told me i could take it off, but most nights She says nothing.  i've overcome the morning discomfort i feel from erections, learning to accept them.  They eventually subside and are a reminder that true submission does come with some discomfort and yes, even pain.

Remarkably after these first ten days of 2015, my time in the pink CB-3000 is nearly 85%.  When we started this "chastity thing" i never thought it would get to this level.  Now, i'm committed to it and obviously so is Diane.

Yesterday Diane had me put in an order for a 200 plastic numbered locks.  She wants to move awayfrom the little brass padlock She uses now.  Even though i don't, it's something i could easily sneak in and out of without Her knowledge.  The numbered locks will eliminate this security issue.   The CB-3000 came with a handful of these locks but She believes we'll need more.  Many more.

Sure, i could still "cheat" when i take my CB off when i shower.  She knows that.  i've promised Her i wouldn't.  It's a promise i want to keep.

As for Paul, he does know that Diane keeps me in chastity.  How this plays out in the future remains to be seen.  

love,

sissy terri

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Displaying my Chastity

Despite the bitter cold and snowy weather conditions, Diane and i ventured out on New Year's Eve and had a wonderful time. it  It was romantic in a "cuckold sort of way", with Diane having chatted briefly with Paul before we went out to dinner and exchanging intimate New Years' greetings while i was safely locked away in chastity.

Diane dressed in what i'd like to describe as classy casual.  i couldn't keep my eyes off the key to my CB-3000 that seemed so sensually attached to Her necklace, right beside the heart shaped diamond  charm my daughters had given Her for our 25th wedding anniversary.  The key seemed so out of place; larger than the diamond studded heart, it looked like an amateur's awkward attempt to steal the show from a professional.  One couldn't help but notice the silver key against Her stylish white sweater.

The key did receive a few glances from both men and women.  She'd worn it before but never so prominently.  Drinking Her cosmopolitan so sexily, with the key dangling from Her neck, there was little doubt left about anything.....our relationship, my submission, Her Dominance, cuckolding, chastity....and more.  At least that's how i felt.

There were a few times during the evening where men or women did a "double-take" and stared.  i know they couldn't help see the key, but i do think it was Diane's lovely cleavage that got their initial attention!  Diane seemed to enjoy it.  On more than one occasion She stated back at them, made eye contact and almost seemed to invite them into a conversation.  Perhaps Her intimidating stare scared them away from any question or comment.

"What are You going to say if someone asks You about the key" i asked Her.

"I'll just tell them the truth" She said playfully.  It left me wondering if She would actually tell them the truth.  She probably would have.

At midnight we got to enjoy The Great Pinecone Drop followed by a nightcap at a local watering hole.  i kept gazing at the key.  i thought everyone there did the same thing.

Later, with the key and the diamond-studded heart still around Her neck, She made love to me with Her strap-on.  i remained locked and didn't orgasm.  i'm pretty sure She did.

love,

sissy terri

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A Chaste New Year

We're being hit with rather heavy snow here, so much so that we're actually taking a day off from skiing and focusing on more indoor activities :)  We're going to a local pub/restaurant tonight to celebrate New Year's Eve and if we're up to it, we'll head outdoors at midnight for the countdown in the city square.  Hope the snow stops.

i want to wish all of my readers a very Happy 2015; one that's filled with happiness and serenity.

Diane wants to discuss some New Year's resolutions later today and one of them is definitely chastity.  She wants to institute a calendar which will log how many hours i spend in chastity each day.  She's yet to decide what the daily/monthly goal will be, but She definitely wants me to keep track of it.

This is a sharp departure from Her previous attitude towards chastity.  She used to feel that the whole lifestyle was way to much work for the keyholder!

There's no doubt that chastity as a lifestyle is becoming more popular with many couples.  Just today i found this interesting post on tumblr, which promotes January 14th as International Male Chastity Day!

i'm not sure i'm a fan of the release date being Valentine's Day, but i think the idea is a cute one.  What better way to express your love for the woman who's your keyholder?

i guess chastity really is catching on!

love,

sissy terri

p.s.  We still haven't exchanged our intimate Christmas gifts yet, which is kind of a bummer.  Diane only does things when She's ready!

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Fascinated with Femininity

By the time this post goes up, Diane and i will hopefully be on our second run of the day up at the Snow Bowl.  This is the busiest week for ski resorts everywhere but for infrequent skiers like us it's just nice to be out there.

my time out of chastity while skiing has necessitated making up for it in other ways.  Diane's insisting i sleep with the CB-3000 and get into it immediately after my shower when we return from the slopes.  That's the difficult part.  Late yesterday afternoon after a fun afternoon in the snow, Diane was looking forward to some extensive body worship...and so was i. It's just that i had to do it while locked up and wearing the new pair of white ruffled panties Diane bought me from Amazon a few weeks ago :)

Both the chastity and the ruffled panties were Her idea. 

"I'm sorry I have to lock you up" She said, "but you're likely to squirt into your new panties and make a mess if I don't."  You can imagine what Her teasing did to me.  She continued....

"I know you're fascinated with feminine things, so consider the ruffled panties a treat" She laughed. 

Yes...i am fascinated with feminine things.  All kinds of feminine things.  As i worshiped Diane, i thought about so many of these things...corsets, petticoats, ruffles, wedding gowns, little girl outfits and more.  The idea of being dressed in such pretty things while locked and pleasing my Dominant Wife only made my imprisoned state that much harder to bare. 

Here are a few "feminine fascinations" that went through my mind last night!

A pretty pink babydoll of course...

And this gorgeous corset dress...

And layer upon layer of crinolines....

And finally, some cute heels, anklet socks and a pretty sissy bow in my hair.....

love,

sissy terri

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Chastity in Public

Diane and i attended a retirement dinner last night.  It was a combination celebration/roast of an esteemed colleague of mine who spent many years as a credit to his profession.  His departure was rather sudden considering his position and the many responsibilities he has.  His decision was his own and driven by his ultimate dedication to family.

For me, it was an an opportunity to chat with many colleagues i haven't seen in awhile and to wish the guest of honor a long and fulfilling retirement.  It was also kind of a melancholy.  Having retired relatively early in life from a profession that for the most part, bestows prestige and accomplishment upon those who remain well into their 60's and beyond, i felt a tinge of sadness.  How many people walk away when they're at the cusp of the peak of their profession?  By the same token, how many people have the opportunity to fulfill a fantasy that they've had for most of their lives?

i was greeted by many people curious to know how and what i was doing.  Questions like what i was doing with all my free time now, how my consulting business was doing, etc.  When Diane was close by She would often answer for me by just saying She was keeping me busy at home with a "honey do list."  It got a few chuckles.

Overall, the evening was kind of awkward for several reasons.  First of all, Paul was in attendance.  Even though he sat at our table (without his wife) we didn't socialize that much, nor did we go out of our way to avoid each other.  But sitting across from my Wife's lover who also happens to know that i'm submissive to Her and thinks i don't know that they're screwing around can be a little awkward. 

i also happened to be wearing my CB-3000 and was self-conscious about it.  It wasn't a formal event, more business casual than anything else.  i wore a blazer, button down shirt and dress slacks but felt that the CB was noticeable through my slacks.  i asked Diane if i could take it off before leaving and She dismissed the idea as silly, saying i was being paranoid for no reason.  i was nervous about if throughout the evening.  The worst part was when i got a hug from a few women i hadn't seen in quite a while.  One time, i swear one woman got close enough to me so that her inner thigh pressed against the CB.  i thought she gave me kind of a weird look.

Finally, i was bothered by that fact that Diane appeared indifferent to the possibility that someone could possibly realize i was wearing a chastity belt.  Again, She dismissed this idea as total paranoia and silliness on my part, saying that anyone brushing up against my CB might laugh it off and think it was just my being a little "excited."  Unlikely.  There's a big difference between an erection and a piece of hard plastic.

When we got home, our discussion about the evening was short.  It was late and She wasn't in the mood to talk much about it.  "You make it seem like everyone there was focused on your crotch" She laughed.  She also suggested that i enjoyed the many hugs i got from different women.  "You probably enjoyed all the attention you were getting" She smirked.

"You're right" i finally told Her.  "Maybe they did mistake my chastity belt for excitement."

"Would you rather they feel some bra straps on you?" She asked.

She was right.  The CB could be mistaken for an erection, but not a bra strap!

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Sissy Satisfaction & Sexual Frustration

An anonymous reader left the following comment/question to my post "Serve me...you sissy slut!"several days ago:

"I believe in one of your prior posts you mentioned Jake taking your man p***y. Does that still happen, or was it just wishful thinking on your part? We would love to hear about it when it does occur."

Here's how i answered it:
  

Yes, it does. i've always had a hard time writing about the more sexually graphic aspects of my intimate relationships. So i tend to leave that our or sometimes hint at it. In time, i may include more about it. Hope you understand...xox

i tried to keep the answer simple but obviously, there's some complexity to it.  i shouldn't find it hard to write about such things but i do and shortly after i started this blog i decided that i would keep it more R-rated than X-rated.   i suppose my reluctance and difficulty to pen these things here stem a bit from the embarrassment of it, some guilt and maybe even a bit of prudishness.  Who knows.  i've given up trying to psychoanalyze myself a long time ago.  i wouldn't even turn that process over to the experts!

i have enjoyed taking the full female role during sex with Jake in the past, and this time around we've done it again.  But now, it's quite different, fulfilling and even humiliating in a very kinky way. 

Yesterday's meeting with Jake was in a strange way, all encompassing of the many feelings i fantasize about as a submissive sissy.  That's were the "sissy satisfaction" comes in.

First, there was the anticipation of receiving a spanking for what i believed to be an unknown offense on my part.  Turns out, the spanking i received was just to prove that Jake could spank me anytime he wanted to.  i questioned him about, which only led to a more severe spanking.  "I owe you one because I can" was his explanation.

There was also his requirement that i be wearing a white bra, white panties and white thigh highs to greet him when he arrived.  Whether they are easy or difficult, sissies follow orders and derive enjoyment from doing so.

Then there was the housework i did while waiting for him.  He'd left me a list of things he wanted done with the final item simply stating that he wanted the house to look perfect when he got home.  i thought it did, but he hardly noticed or said anything.

Before any expressions of intimacy, there was the spanking.  Jake was more verbal than usual, at one point telling me to thank him for every swat on my fanny.  The spanking began as playful and became more intense though never being violent in any way.  Yet it was quite painful; the pain brought about by the length of time i spent over his lap.

My ass a shiny shade of red - "Go look at yourself in the hall mirror" he told me - he was ready to have me serve him orally.  i had to slip off his shoes, take his socks off, undo his belt, take his slacks off and fold them neatly, slide his jockey shorts off and wait for him to give me permission to take his cock.  Anticipation can be very arousing.

My serving him wasn't a rushed type of thing.  i didn't spend all my time on his cock either.  He wanted his balls paid attention to.  My preferences weren't important.  i just followed directions.

i was so looking forward to receiving a facial from him.  Honestly, i'd been looking forward to it since i knew we'd be getting together.  He knew it.  My desire was ignored.  i thought sure he was going to orgasm several times and somehow he was able to show the type of self control i certainly lack and continued to have me serve him.

The last time he did so he told me to stop and go into his bedroom, take the bed down and wait for him there.  i didn't have to wait long.  He had me take my panties off and climb onto the bed on all
fours.  My ass was reddened again, sensually lubricated and used for his pleasure.

So much sissy satisfaction.  Yet, there was plenty of sexual frustration.

My CB-3000 was on the entire time, without a chance of it being removed.  Jakes lovemaking was marvelous, skillful, sensual and dominant.  He had me assume several positions, a couple of which we'd never tried before.  i wasn't able to have an orgasm in chastity, though once i felt very, very close.

Perhaps a true submissive experiences no such frustrations.  They're 100% in tune with the desires and pleasure of their Dom/mes and nothing else.  Does such a submissive even exist?

On the other hand, the frustrations i experienced yesterday provided a perverse type of satisfaction.  The type only a sissy submissive might be able to understand.

love,

sissy terri

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"Licking" While Locked

Diane absolutely detests the term "licking" when it comes to the attention i pay to Her privates.  i'm been corrected every time i use it, sometimes the correction is more severe than others.  i've been trained to use the term She prefers; the correct term which of course is "worship."

However today, in an effort to promote some alliteration and assonance to my literary endeavors, i've been granted an "exception" by the powers-that-be.  In other words, Diane said i could use the term "licking" in the title of this post. 

It's not always this bad!

Since my CB-3000 arrived, Diane's discovered just how much She enjoys having Her pussy worshiped while my own private parts are safely secured.  While my "clitty" is caged, Her vulva and vagina are void of any such restrictions.

With Paul being absent from the scene longer than She'd like, Diane's made use of my lips, tongue, mouth and face more than usual.  Each time, my own excitement has been carefully compacted and confined to the cramped conditions of my cage.  Ouch.

i left a comment at the blog Under Contract to My Wife where Mick, the submissive, wrote about licking his Mistress as she recounted the time she had spent with her lover earlier that day.  Diane loves to talk to me as i do my own worship while never expecting (or allowing) a response from me.  i've tried to interject but have been told to just keep worshiping.  Her teasing talk continues until She's just about ready to explode into an orgasm.  The lull in Her chatter indicates She's focusing on the orgasm to come.

In the meantime Her caged cuckold, continues to lovingly lick.......oops....i mean worship :)

love,

sissy terri

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my Time in Chastity

It's been about three weeks since my CB-3000 arrived.  It's not a long time, but enough for me to start getting used to wearing it.  For Diane, it's also been enough time to start establishing some rules and a regular routine that i'm expected to follow.

Her purchase of the CB-3000 was to initially set a caveat for my seeing Jake:  i wouldn't be allowed to see him unless i was wearing the CB-3000.  Now that i've had an opportunity to get used to wearing it and without much discomfort, Diane's expanded Her demands.

With little exception (there haven't been any thus far) Diane's expectation is that i will be in chastity whenever i'm not with Her.  Since this new protocol has begun, i haven't yet had to travel on business so that hasn't been a problem.  When asked about that all Diane said was that She'd "come up with something that will work for both of us."

Diane doesn't insist that i wear the CB-3000 to bed, so since She started these new rules i'm locked into the CB in the morning after i shower and before She leaves and let out at night before bedtime.   i've gone to the gym while in the CB and even played a round of golf.  Interestingly, the first round of golf I played while in chastity took place yesterday afternoon while Diane was hosting Her lover Paul here.  It was their regular Wednesday afternoon tryst.

Wearing it to the gym hasn't posed the problems i thought it would.  There's been little discomfort.  And it's not unusual for me to come home and shower here after my workouts.  Same thing with golf.  i used to shower at the club once and awhile, but my not doing so isn't going to raise any suspicions with friends or anyone else.  My golf game didn't seem to be affected either.  It might have even prevented me from "over-swinging" and  help to keep the ball in play!

It's no surprise however that the most uncomfortable times are when i'm submissively pleasuring either Diane or Jake.  Serving them is very arousing and gets me into a very physically high state of arousal.

As medical professionals, both of us are careful about things we do and eat and about lifestyle choices.  There's not a lot of research and data about the long term effects of chastity on men (or on women for that matter).  Like many things, moderation and listening to your body is important.  Wearing a chastity device while in a state of arousal can cause some pain and that's something to be aware of.  By not wearing it at night, i don't have to worry about the compression my CB would cause from uncontrolled nocturnal erections.

i found this interesting article written by the well known sex writer Dan Savage.  Savage's column, "Savage Love" appears in many places.  In this particular column Dan answers this reader's question:  "Can locking my penis in a chastity device cause long term damage?"  Pretty interesting.  The suggestion that serious chastity players get a more expensive custom made belt is a good one.  Maybe down the road.  The biggest drawback there is that all the custom made ones i've seen are in stainless steel.  Diane is insistent on a pink colored belt.  No surprise. 

Diane is actually the one that found this article and had me read it.  When we were talking about it She couldn't help but tease me about the urologist whose primary concern was "the long term health and preservation of erectile function down the road."  She couldn't help Herself and had to ask me why, as a sissy, would i have a need for erectile function anyway!

Ouch!

love,

sissy terri

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A Sissy in Chastity

i haven't been able to post because of some personal commitments both Diane and i have had this weekend.  This one is also going to be a little short, but i've been dying to tell everyone that my meeting with Jake on Thursday went real well.  It wasn't rushed, we had time to talk privately so that i could tell him everything i wanted to and best of all, he was more than accepting of Diane's decision to insist on chastity when i see him.

Our meeting could be summed up very well in two short sentences he said to me:  "Why should I care if you're in chastity or not?  When we're together you'll be there to please me and your pleasure will be secondary."  It's the most dominant thin he's ever said to me.  It's evident that he wants to be far more dominant with me than he ever was before.

There's also another wrinkle that's changed things a bit since we last met.  Jake is getting divorced.  It will be final in a few weeks.  His divorce has nothing to do with his bisexual desires or me at all.  It's not even a nasty divorce.  It's an amicable break up and Jake is going to keep his house here, at least for now unless he decides it's just too big.  He teased that he's now going to need a "lady of the house" once and awhile and asked if i was interested!

The afternoon ended with my following him to his house.  We didn't have much time because i had something going on Thursday evening with Diane, but there was time enough for what he wanted.

After sliding down the pantyhose i was wearing and dropping my pink panties so he could check out my CB-3000, i dropped to my knees and took his cock into my mouth.  The combination of sucking his cock and being in chastity created as submissive a feeling as i've ever felt.

From Jake's reaction he enjoyed it plenty as well.  "It's been way too long" he said.  True.  It has.  Now that we're back together, this is going to be a regular thing.  i'm going to get used to serving in chastity -  both Diane and Jake.

love,

sissy terri

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Full Cut Panties and Fall Hosiery Styles

i'm slowly getting accustomed to my CB-3000.  Daytime wear isn't that much of a problem (unless i become aroused and even then, the discomfort isn't as bad as i thought it would be) but wearing it to sleep results in quite a bit of discomfort in the morning.   A couple of my readers commented on my earlier post that "morning wood" would be a problem. 

Diane laughed when i mentioned this to Her.  "Morning wood?" She giggled.  "I think you mean an enlarged clitty!"  It was a cute joke and being accustomed to these comments, i took it in stride and appreciated Her sense of humor.  For now, Diane doesn't make me wear it at night.  At least i'm under close supervision as She sleeps by my side :)

Full Back Panties

i've also found that i'm more comfortable wearing a "full cut panty" when the CB-3000 is on.  If the panty i wear is too small, the extra bulk of the CB stretches it out and the leg openings seem to rub against my testicles causing a little bit of irritation.  i also mentioned this to Diane and She thought itwas a good idea that i wear a panty that "covers everything."

I'm going to have to do some shopping for more full cut panties.  Many in that style are plain.  Even though i love the plain pastels, i want to vary my selection so that i can get some that have pretty lace, trims and bows like the panty shown here.

i'm prepared to meet with Jake tomorrow, at which time i'm going to tell him about the conditions Diane has set for my seeing him.  It's going to be a long discussion.  i want to explain things fully to him; how Diane knows not only about my dressing, but about my seeing him.  i'll also tell him about Her Dominance over me, most of our lifestyle and Her decision to put me in chastity.  i'm going to be honest and up front with him.  It's the best way to go and given the circumstances, i don't have much choice.

i'm glad some of you enjoyed yesterday's post about the Maidenform sale.  i should also mention that i get a daily email from Bare Necessities.  This company has an excellent panty selection that features all the brand names in various styles.  Today's email blast from Bare Necessities promoted "6 Must Have Hosiery Styles!  Check it out.  Why miss out on all this sissy fun?

love,

sissy terri

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Diane's Decision - Chastity

A few weeks ago i wrote that Jake, the man i had an affair with a while back, had contacted me again and wanted to reestablish our relationship.  This time, Jake seems far more interested in taking on a more dominant role than he did before, something i also wanted.  However, i needed Diane's permission to see Jake again.  i discussed it with Her and She told me She would think it over and decide.  

i followed this up with a post called "The Sissy Waiting Game" where i wrote: "Diane hasn't yet given me permission to get together with Jake.  This morning She assured me Her decision was imminent.  "Don't be so impatient" She said with a laugh.  i have the feeling She is going to let me see Jake.  At least that's how She's acting.  She just seems to be enjoying the "waiting game" She's making me play.

After that post, i didn't put anything up here for a week.  When i finally wrote again i explained my silence by letting everyone know that i had some things to sort out in my life and how i wanted to proceed.  i'm ready now to let you know what led to the silence and what i've decided.

Diane did give me permission to see Jake.  From the way She was acting i thought She would, but i also thought She was simply enjoying the control She had over me and the fact that She could make me wait while She took all the time She wanted to make Her decision.  Her decision however came with a catch.  The condition She put upon my seeing Jake took me completely by surprise.  It was something She'd previously expressed no interest in.

"You can see Jake" Diane said.  i immediately thanked Her but was quickly interrupted.  "I'm not finished.  There's a condition attached to my decision.  If you're going to see him, you're going to be wearing a chastity belt when you do."

"What?  i'm not sure what You mean." i stammered.  Diane had usually discounted chastity as a means of expressing Her dominance.  i'd brought it up several years ago and whenever the topic came up She dismissed it immediately, saying the whole process or lifestyle was simply "too much work."  She would also say that She knew i masturbated and it didn't bother Her that i did.

"That's my decision" She continued.  "I ordered a chastity belt and it should be here in a couple of days.  If you're with Jake, you're in chastity.  Besides, isn't it a fantasy of yours?"

i suppose it is.  It was then that i remembered having a discussion with Diane and Her teasing me about locking me up while i was home alone.  i wrote a post about it and finished the post writing about what it might feel like to be locked up while with a man of my own.  Diane doesn't comment much about my posts, but it's clear that She had read this one and filed it away.  

The chastity belt arrived as scheduled and i've been wearing it regularly, beginning with only a few hours and working my way up to most of the day after about 10 days.  It's not as uncomfortable as i thought it would be, but i haven't yet been made to wear it at night.  It's a  CB-3000 pink package  from A.L. Enterprises.

i want to see Jake but haven't yet got back to him to let him know i'm "available."  If i do, i'll have to explain to him that i'll be in chastity and that will no doubt lead to an explanation on my part that will reveal far more about my relationship with Diane than he already knows. 

The fact that Diane decided to have me in any type of chastity is not the only thing that's surprised me about this whole thing.  i'm also very surprised that Diane is prepared to have me share this part of our life with Jake.  She knows Jake, but not in an way that She'd want me to share such intimate details of Her dominance over me.  

i'm going to call Jake early this week.  i want to be with him again, and i think he'll understand.  His only contact with my cock has been fondling it through my panties and seeing me masturbate in front of him after providing him with pleasure.  The fact that it would be locked up while i serve him shouldn't be an issue as far as that concerned.  i'm hoping that perhaps, he might even be aroused by it.  i would think that some Dominant men would enjoy having a chastised sissy to use.  We'll see,

Once again, Diane's exerted Her control in an a way i never thought She would. 

love,

sissy terri

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A Sissy Crush & A Chastity Discussion

Having a Wife like Diane who understands my fantasies, submissive demeanor and sexual needs, along with my own understanding of Her own fantasies and needs makes communication between the two of us much easier and more open.  There's certainly an upside to that but...there are times when the honesty each of us displays leads to a little angst, especially on my part.

i've been away on the road for the last ten days and also took the opportunity to visit some family in another part of the country while away from home.  My time away has given Diane plenty of free play time with Her lover Paul (not that She needs me to be away from home to carry on Her affair) but we still miss each other and talk every day, most times more than once.

Our conversations aren't all about sex by any means, but neither is the topic absent from just about every call home i make.  Diane's honesty about Her feelings and what She and Paul have done
together and have planned to do while i'm away aren't always the easiest things for a cuckold to hear.  It's the whole fantasy vs. reality issue; fantasizing about your wife with another man is far different than knowing it's actually happening.  That's especially true when you know it's not just casual sex, but an intimate and lasting relationship that fulfills your Wife's emotional and sexual needs, the needs She has to be with a "real man."

During last night's phone call Diane asked me if i missed Jake (the man i was seeing last year from time to time).  i admitted that i did but that it wasn't the ideal situation for me.  i still fantasized about being with a more Dominant Man, even though i understood She was prohibiting me to do so.  i also admitted to Her that i'd been communicating with a man i'd met on tumblr.  It's been a very innocent exchange but one that's been sensual and erotic in a different way.  This man, who i'll call Dave, really seems to understand me and my feminine needs.  i was up front with Diane and told Her that i really enjoyed our correspondence and i'd developed kind of a "crush" on Dave.

Diane thought my "crush" was pretty cute and laughed a bit when i told Her.  Her comment and reaction caused me to blush and feel a little embarrassed, even in the solitude of my hotel room.  As i felt my face redden a bit Diane added that "maybe it's time we think about chastity again.  After all, you're gone so much and i need to be able to trust you!"  Diane's comment was said in a teasing
manner but i did sense a hint of realism to it.

Up to this point, Diane's lack of interest in keeping me in some form of chastity stems from the amount of work it is on Her part and Her not being bothered by my masturbation habits.  She's told me before She thinks "it's cute that my sissy wife plays with herself for satisfaction."  That comment and those thoughts add to my own submisive feelings.


"Maybe i can keep you in chastity just when you're here at home" Diane said later, adding that it would be especially erotic to know that i was locked while She was enjoying Herself with Paul.

After i had hung up and was left alone to ponder the whole chastity thing, i thought about how i might feel if Diane allowed me to be with a man of my own, but only while i was in a chastity device of some sort.  The idea of making myself available to please a Dominant Man while i myself was prohibited from any physical pleasure myself got me quite aroused.  So much so that i slipped into a pink nightgown and lay on the bed, fantasizing about being with Dave and making him happy, all the while locked up in a chastity belt knowing that His pleasure was all that counted. 

love,

sissy terri

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