Deeper Submission, Cuckolding & Daddy's Little Girl

This may sound so silly to my readers - if i still have any left after not posting in so long - but i've been a little anxious about posting.  i have so much that i want to share and that's part of the problem.  The length of time between posts causes this, but so do the emotional swings i'm going through.  i'll do my best to get my feelings "out there" and hope you all understand.

Diane has fully embraced Her dominant role in our marriage, something that i never thought would happen when all of this first started.  i can honestly say that She is now far more dominant than i ever imagined She'd be, and it often goes further than i want it to.  She's come to the conclusion that it's what She wants, and knows She can have it. 

Diane's quest to find a lover took a break while we were on vacation for a little more than two weeks.  She continued to correspond a little with the three men She had decided were worth pursuing, but during that correspondence, She realized that only one was the type of man She was looking for.  During this time, She also shared with me that there was another man.  It was someone She worked with and they'd exchanged a few casual flirtatious remarks.  They have a lunch date scheduled next week. 

When we returned from vacation, Diane had a meeting with the lone gentleman from Her initial search and it was a huge disappointment.  He misrepresented his physical description for starters.  Diane wanted someone at least 5'11" or taller.  His claim that he was 6'0" was an obvious lie.  Less obvious was his misstating his professional status.  There was no attraction whatsoever. 

Diane's new potential lover does pose a few minor problems.  For starters, it's never a good idea to mix work with any type of romance.  However, the nature of their profession and the difference in their positions makes it a bit easier.   The other issue is that Diane and I both had the same profession, only in different fields, and I know this man.  He's not a close friend but we do know one another.  He's younger than the both of us, very good looking and masculine and it's obvious why a woman would be attracted to him.  He's also married. 

Diane definitely has a physical attraction to "Paul" and knows that he has one for Her.  Last week She told me that She's not going to insist that Paul agree to full blown cuckolding like She insisted upon with other suitors.  Instead, if he needs reassurance, She's going to tell him about our "arrangement."  Not all of it, but basically that She can have a lover if She wants.  In Her opinion, if Paul is into the whole cuckolding thing, then it's "a bonus."

My ultimate cuckold fantasies of being present when another man makes love to my wife and all the different things that can take place may never be realized.  That's not necessarily a bad thing.  i'm having a difficult time accepting some aspects of my increasingly submissive role in my marriage, so i'm sure i'd have a more difficult time with the extreme cuckolding.

i'm also seeing Jake again and that's fulfilling my bisexual and feminine needs.  He's become a bit more aggressive with me and i wonder if that will continue and if so, how far he wants to go.  The last time we were together he really enjoyed calling me "Daddy's little girl" while i sucked him.  i loved it.

i'll try to post more often.  Promise.

love,

sissy terri

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The Verbal Aspect of Sex

Some of the most fulfilling sex I've ever enjoyed has been when my wife Diane has been very verbal.  A quiet sexual encounter can never be as exciting.  Her words, often teases and taunts, along with her moans arouse me to no end.  They are often the catalyst for what puts me over the top.  Combined with her touch, movements and other actions, it's always such a wonderful experience for me.

I've experienced much the same with the very few men I have been with.  In the role as their feminized submissive, the best are quick to verbalize their dominant fantasies, calling me names and bellowing orders with an aggressive and demanding tone.  As I suck, lick or do whatever else I am told, their commands are like music to my ears and always bring me to the brink of orgasm, often without any physical stimulation whatsoever.

I remember the last time I was with Ken before he moved away.  I was dressed in a little girls outfit complete with a petticoat, ruffled panties, lacy anklet socks and a pair of mary jane shoes.  He had me lower my panties before getting down on my knees so that he could fondle my "clit" as he called it.  He forbade me from touching myself while I sucked him, cuffing my hands together behind my back.

I obeyed every order he have me, kissing the tip of his cock, licking the shaft, lapping at his big balls and presenting my face so that he cold slap me with his cock whenever he felt like it.  The orders, humiliating questions he was asking me as I did what I was told and the name calling were bringing me to the brink of orgasm.  He knew it and teased me about it:

"You're such a sissy faggot" he said.  "I can make you cum anytime I want.  Cum for me right now."

The teasing is all it took.  His words made me start spewing my cum on the floor as I knelt in front of him.  The orgasm lasted longer than usual.  The lack of physical touching on my penis seemed to lengthen the experience.  It was indeed beautiful.

I continued to suck him and he finally exploded all over my face and in my mouth.  He fed the cum that was on my face with his fingers and made me lick my own juices that had spilled to the floor.  Now you can probably understand why I miss him so much.

These and other experiences make me wonder if Dominants and submissives enjoy the verbal aspects of sex more than people who might be more vanilla inclined.  Diane enjoys being dominant over me and is usually pretty verbal when we make love.  There was never a scene with Ken where he didn't seem to enjoy verbally humiliating me.  It Dominants get as much satisfaction out of the verbal part of sex as I do, then I know they're having a very, very satisfying time!

I also can't help but wonder how verbal my wife Diane is with Brian, as vanilla as that relationship might be.

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A Cuckold's Big Day

Today's the day.  Diane told me last night that Brian will be in town today and tomorrow.  She's going to be meeting him in his hotel room this afternoon after work.  I asked her if this just came up yesterday or if she'd know for awhile.  She knew since the middle of last week but didn't want to tell me until last night.  She thought I'd worry too much about it unnecessarily.  She's right, I would have.

I've spoken with Diane four times today.  She's called me to reassure me that she still loves me and I've called her to do the same.  That's helped.  It's an emotional day for me.  Yesterday began "my time of the month"  so today, I'm not only wearing a maxi pad but the tampon Diane inserted this morning.  I'm to replace it as needed throughout the day.  I've spent the day doing housework (there was plenty of ironing to do today) and running other errands.  Now it's just a matter of waiting for her to come home later tonight.

This morning Diane took longer than usual to get ready.  She looked sexier than I've ever remembered.  Of course she's probably looked just as good or even better before but with the circumstances of this day make her sexiness more pronounced.  I'm sure she'll raise eyebrows at work. She's wearing a black lace bra, matching panties, garter and thigh highs.  The black bra is very noticeable under her white blouse, but is covered quite nicely by the black jacket she's wearing.  Her black skirt is just tight enough to accentuate her shapely ass and thighs.  A tad more makeup than usual, a hint of perfume and a pearl necklace and earrings made her look irresistible.

When she was getting ready to leave, she had me retrieve the Magnum condoms I bought for her to use a couple of weeks ago and put them in her purse.   After I put them in the purse, I wondered how many she would use tonight.  I was daydreaming when Diane came over and gave me a big hug and kiss.  She promised to call me today and also tonight when she was on her way home.

Brian is going to be one lucky guy.   All that's left for me now is to wait.

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A Sissy's Hormones

My wife Diane's involvement in my feminization has always varied over the years.  There were times when it seemed constant, for days or weeks at a time.  At other times, it was as if she could care less about it.  I'm not saying that in a bad way at all.  I'm very understanding of the fact that it shouldn't be a high maintenance thing for her.  There are times when she definitely enjoys it more than others.

I can usually tell when her moods are changing.  She'll make a few comments about what I'm wearing, how I'm acting, my looks and generally just act different.  The little subtle comments she makes in public sometimes in front of friends are those that have the most profound effect on me.  We both know exactly what she means, but our friends don't get the true meaning of her comments.

Last night we got into a very tiny spat over something quite insignificant - coffee filters.  I'll leave the subject at that so as not to bore you with what are ridiculous details.  The discussion we were having didn't make any sense at all and at one point Diane said "I can tell you're getting ready to start your period this week just by the way you've been acting!"  It was a not-so-subtle reminder about my feminine role in this household as well as a warning that come Tuesday, I better be wearing some feminine protection.

The comment stopped the argument dead in its tracks.  She walked towards me, hugged me and gave me a big wet kiss.  Without another word, I finished making the coffee for Sunday morning and met her in our bedroom where she proceeded to make love to me.

When we were done Diane told me how much she loves it when my sissy hormone's kick into high gear just before my period.  I guess she's back in one of those moods!

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Pretty Pastels

Of all the panties I own (too many to count), less than a handful are dark colors.  I have two pair that are dark red, one black and another that are deep purple.  Everything else is pastel colored or a light floral print (the vast majority are pink).  Part of the contract with Diane is that I only buy and wear those types of panties unless she gives me different instructions.  Of the four dark colored pairs I own, Diane has bought them all for me. 

She on the other hand, owns mostly black and dark colored panties.  The darker colors are obviously meant to convey her dominance, especially when they are contrasted with my pretty pastels, and she looks so hot to me in black panties.

This morning at breakfast she teased me about possibly having to do some lingerie shopping soon.  When I asked her what it was she was looking for, she told me that she may want to wear something more "passive looking" when she and Brian finally get together.  She also laughed that to save money she could borrow some of my lingerie.

I believe Diane's comments, as much as they are meant to tease me, also provide insight as to her frame of mind as she thinks about how things will play out with Brian.  Her desire, if that is indeed what it is, to be more sexually passive with Brian also serves to reinforce my own submission to her.  Her desire to wear something pink and feminine for sex with Brian, just like I often do for sex with her, speaks to the issue of woman's need for sex with a very masculine man does it not?

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My "Time of the Month"

Last night as we lay in bed after I pleasured my wife Diane orally, I cuddled next to her as she held me close.  I have very sensitive nipples and she played with them very sensually.  I moaned softly as she touched them a pinched them a little bit.


"Are your breasts a little sore?  You should be starting your period soon right?" She asked me.

"They're a little sore" I told her.  "I'm due to start tomorrow."

She knew very well when I am supposed to wear a sanitary pad.  It was just one of her little subtle reminders of how much things have changed.

I loved it too.

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