You heard a bit about our adventure as bunnies in the guy's dorm. It was scary. It's amazing how many people are up at 3AM in a college dorm and not really amazing the reaction guys have to a couple of scantily clad bunnies on a scavenger hunt. We told them it was a sorority stunt and they were extremely cooperative. Both Jill and I had to do a bit of kissing, but it was purely on the cheek stuff.
My grades are outstanding right now. Midterms were poorly timed, but I did well, even more so on the paper that I had than I did on the tests. I'm doing Thanksgiving with Jill and Colleen this year and I'm a bit nervous. Things are going well for me at work too. I've gotten a lot more relaxed with what I have to do and the discount has certainly expanded my wardrobe.
Getting Lost in Girl? Yeah, I think it could happen. We're not transsexuals. We're also not guys putting on a dress for Halloween and that's the end of it. Living 24/7 as a woman is tough for women, even tougher for us. There are times when being a guy, even if I'm wearing panties, hose, and a bra is nice. Some people obsess over gender, but it isn't that huge. It's easier to say that this year when I have Colleen around, but we all eat, sleep, talk with friends, work, study, want to be loved--male or female.
Am I a Girl in the Bedroom? Yes, sometimes. It changes depending on mood. I'm not going to write too much about it for fear of torturing Jill, but I've been male and extremely female in my relationship with Colleen.
I remember a time when I was the hot sissy. Jill said when she saw how I looked all dressed up, she was actually a bit jealous, but first Amber and now Xiu really put me to shame. Xiu's reputation preceded her, but she's just so small and delicate. It is kind of a mind trick I've learned. When I dress as a guy, I don't want to look unisex, I want to look manly. However, when I'm dolled up there is a bit of competitiveness. Especially, having a girlfriend who enjoys me being pretty.
Here's the work photo everybody wanted. I really needed a lot of Fall clothes so the discount is coming in handy. Xiu will be able to take advantage of it too when she needs a wardrobe. The job is a bit embarrassing, especially when a girl drags her boyfriend or husband and they look so bored while I have to ramble on excitedly about our merchandise. I am learning a lot about putting an outfit together and how to shop.
Work has started for me, but I haven't worked long enough to have a huge opinion about it. Unlike Jill, I've worked a lot over the past 5 years so it's a little less of a shock to my system. The girls are demanding, but not particularly mean or anything. I'm learning a lot about women's clothes and I guess I'm going to have to learn a lot before they will let me actually wait on customers. I usually ring them up at the cash register and stock shelves so far. There will be a lot more posted on the new job when I have more to tell you.
Classes are going well. I've got at least one of the girls in each of my classes. Somebody asked about me passing as a guy. Yes, it is harder now than passing as a girl. I have to dress practically 24/7 already, but honestly if I was just running to the drugstore or something I'd probably just touch up my makeup and throw on a skirt. It's a lot easier than trying to figure out how to make my hair and eye brows look masculine. There also is the matter of smell. Using feminine body wash, shampoo, and perfume, has all three of us smelling a bit girlish.
Amber is doing a bit better. She's definitely getting used to things, about as well as anybody can. She's still scared to death of going to class as a girl though.
Colleen and Kristine have moved on down here and are attempting to do a blog together. They won't make any promises on how often it'll be updated, but they are going to try. I've already been warned that if Colleen posts twice before I post once, I will be spending a day hogtied or suitably punished in another way.
Their blog's URL is http://oursissyville.blogspot.com/
I love Cindy and dating her is definitely something I was never prepared for, but by trial and error I think I've figure out how to be a stern mistress and a loving girlfriend at the same time. It is so much fun!!
The chastity belt is staying, but don't feel bad for Cindy. I gave her a choice. She's dating a horny 18 year old girl whose exploring her own sexuality---me! That means little Cindy will be getting plenty of attention. The chastity belt I put on her is extremely expensive and also gives her a totally flat front, which is real useful.
I enjoy sharing her with you, but just remember this is my kink and not your fantasy. If you think I'm too mean or too nice, I'm sorry, but that's my prerogative. I'm going to do things to Cindy you won't like--nothing permanent, but she's my toy and I will play with her. I'm not going to break her though. I love her too much.
I also am an important part of Jill's life. This past week, I outed Jill kind of to our mom and to a lesser degree to our dad. My parents are actually really cool and Jill's experimentation isn't really that big an issue. Jill had reached a part where she couldn't hide how feminine she had become and I didn't want that causing her to avoid our mom and dad. At first she thought I was the biggest bitch for doing it, but she thanked me later. Mom and dad don't know everything, but they do know she's experimenting with crossdressing. I'll let her tell you the rest. They know she's dating Kristine so they don't think she's gay, but then again they really wouldn't care as long as she was happy.
I had her model some of my mom's old 80s clothes for her and her wedding dress. Dad didn't see that part, which may have been too much too soon, but mom though Jill was really cute and said she Jill looks like one of my aunt's.
That's it for now. I hope you don't hate me too much now. I promise you Cindy's in good hands and in good handcuffs too. Yee-haw!!
1. Were you actually having a good time or was it just an act at the BBQ? It was really embarrassing to be there, but of the people there I really only knew Colleen so that made it a bit easier. I guessed I'd say I started out acting like I was having a good time, but by the end of the party I was.
2. Can you earn more than 1 Girl Point? Yes, it just isn't easy. I find that slow and steady wins the race. My appointment with Wendy may earn me 4 points. Agreeing to be a bridesmaid earned me 2.
3. How did you get such realistic cleavage? The key in this case isn't breast forms, it's the less is more theory. Basically, you're only seeing a bit through my arms, which tape helped to make appear a bit fuller. You'll see the rest of the pro pictures soon.
It has made things with Jill a bit odd with me dating her sister, but at least she knows I'm not mistreating her or taking advantage of her.
Wendy dropped a bombshell on us today. She wants the three of us to be Bridesmaids in her wedding. I guess as a stylist, she had several gay male friends she wanted as groomsmen and wound up with 7 groomsmen when she added her fiance's friends. Meanwhile, she only had 4 friends she really wanted as bridesmaids. She got the bright idea of adding us to the wedding and we don't have a lot of choice. It's a bit odd to me and I'm really nervous about the "real" bridesmaids. It's still a long way off, but our newest sissy Amber seemed really upset about it.
I've been through a lot since I went home. Any hope of a rest from being feminized went out the window rather quickly. At the same time, I can't completely complain. I know you've heard about the handcuffs, and the ballroom dancing, and the photographs. However, Monday night was probably the biggest night.
Colleen chose Monday to lock me into what amounts to a modern chastity belt. I was tied up and helpless at the time, but she later gave me a choice to have it removed and I didn't. It's going to be part of the price for being with Colleen apparently.
She has told me that come this Fall, removal will require me to earn "Girl Points" and she has started that with me this week. I need 10 points to get it removed and I've earned exactly 3. 1 for going shopping on my own for new shoes, 1 for going out with an old high school friend while wearing my feminine underwear, and 1 for picking up an issue of Cosmo on my own to read. The belt is uncomfortable to wear and requires me to sit down to pee. I was doing that anyway, but I now have no choice. I am getting a bit used to it at least. For the next two weeks, don't expect me to get much chance to post. Obviously, there will be a lot to tell you when I get back.
On Wednesday I go home and I'm so terrified just walking in the door. I don't have to have a bra on for the big hugging, but I will be putting one on soon afterwards and I will have hose and panties on at all time. I really worry that I will be bombarded with questions. Colleen assures me that her presence in things being introduced as my girlfriend will make my parents think it's nothing serious. I hope she's right.
Colleen isn't my girlfriend, but we have some kind of relationship going on. I know she's going to have a lot of fun at my expense when I go home, but I'm still looking forward to seeing her. Kristine and Elizabeth less so, but they will be far nicer to me than they are to Jill.
I'm about 15 miles from Colleen's house and close to 20 to Kristine and Elizabeth, so it isn't like they will be around me all the time, but they will be checking to make sure I'm pantied, hosed, I'm silky smooth, and my toes are painted the whole time I'm home. They will also be arranging excursions as Cindy that will require me to go to their place or some other private area to change. The list of things they want me to bring home is scary and includes handcuffs, a remote control vibrating butt plug, and a lot of lingerie as well as heels and makeup. I'll only be gone for a week, but this is a scary week. It will be nice to see my family again assuming I don't get caught and it will be nice to see Colleen again assuming she doesn't totally destroy me.
Wendy is the woman who does our hair and has taken both Jill and me slowly from masculine hairstyles to rather feminine ones. She doesn't tie us up, post online, or do things like that, but make no mistake she enjoys the power to turn us into her projects. She's already requested pictures of Amber so she can see what she can do to her in the future.
I'm going to be going home in a couple of weeks. You can relax because I live close enough to Colleen and Kristine that they will be paying visits and making sure that I am following something of a sissy regimen, but I need to appear masculine and you know with my current hair that's pretty impossible. I talked to Wendy about it and she promised me she could make my hair look masculine without losing length and have it meet with the girl's approval on my return--her price silk wraps and extensions for a month when I return. I don't so much choice. Wendy is older and though she has made it to parties, she isn't involved in our day to day lives, but there is no question that she's running at least part of this show.
For me, he's a true gentleman. He's fairly safe and Karen basically told me, "you need to learn to carry yourself as a lady when you are with a guy. Do you want to stick with Tom for awhile or do you want us to set you up." I think Tom is the easier choice.
While the kissing is not as passionate, I am basically going out on dates with a guy who I am acting flirty and feminine for. The girls are thrilled that I am regularly being put in this spot.
This is obviously not an ideal situation for me, but the closest thing I've had to a girlfriend since this has begun is using the picture of me kissing him as her desktop supposedly. I guess it's working for everybody so far though sometimes I find it hard to believe I'm going through with it.
1. Our own
2. Peter and Dan - Friends of the girls. My first date with a guy was Peter.
3. Sheila and Karen
4. Amanda and Heather
These are the regular ones. There are a few others that I'll tidy up after a party or if a parent is visiting.
Q: I hope your barbecue was a success. I assume nothing blog worthy occurred.
A: No, nothing really major. Jill was going to write about it and other things came up. We had a lot of rain, which didn't help.
Q: You mentioned Karen's boyfriend treats you OK. Are you around many guys that are aware of your sissy status? Do any of them tease you or have the girls protected you from any abuse?
A: There are 8 or 9 guys who know and the girls do protect us to the point of threatening one of them with his own makeover if he didn't knock it off--it was funny who quickly he changed his tune. They do tease a lot, but the girls have been very careful with who they've let in on it--thank goodness. The guys who know are not neanderthal types.
Q: After reading Jill's latest blog, I feel there is quite a bit you aren't sharing. I realize it can be embarrassing, but this is a blog about sissies dominated by women.
A: I'll try. It's hard to admit everything.
Today was supposed to be an off day without an apartment to clean. A brief discussion of a wedding that Amanda will be in later this summer, turned into a trip to the bridal shop for Amanda, Heather, Sheila and I where I played the part of a bride to be browsing wedding dresses and the girls were my maids of honor. They've done this before mostly with Jill, but last time Heather went home she borrowed her sister's engagement ring--bad breakup, cheap ring, so she was happy to give it to her. When I slip on the engagement ring, it sort of adds more credibility to the story. I don't think I've always been able to pass in the bridal shops, but people have always been most friendly as long as the girls don't crack up too much. This afternoon was spent browsing and trying on a lot of white lace. Not quite how I expected my day off to go.
The girls bought Jill and I military style outfits, that are anything but regulation. Aside from feeling like Armed Forces Barbie, but I really dislike having my stomach exposed. I'm not used to it and I'm constantly trying to pull down my shirt.
This whole thing started with Sue this time who asked if they dress us up special for the holidays. I hate to think what they have planned for 4th of July. Anyway, we're barbecuing today. It won't be a huge party, but the girls have decided that it's important we host these things because it'll be good for our reputations.
The kiss itself was an open mouth kiss that he initiated. I was tipsy and he was definitely very drunk by then. It's a very awkward situation to be in because you are trying to flirt and make him think you are a girl and that you are into him. You can't exactly knee him in the balls if he tries to kiss you. I should not have opened my mouth then. We did kiss several times throughout the night, but this was the only open mouth one. He did put his arm around me in the car, but we didn't exactly make out--he would have known if he had gotten too close.
Yes, I did feel his penis when we were dancing. I would guess about 8 inches--definitely bigger than most. I don't know if that's common or not, but I definitely felt it. In answer to questions I've been asked--I use a gaff to keep my penis from causing a bulge, but I was not excited during the evening. Yes there was some bumping and grinding on the dance floor.
I'm no expert on passing, but I would say what helped in that situation more than anything was that we didn't make a ton of real close contact before he had beer goggles. There is a pro and a con to that as while he may get less perceptive, his inhibitions loosen too.
So in answer to the big questions--yes there was tongue and no I was not turned on. I don't deny that I did get carried away and probably did more than I had to or should have. I'm going to have two more dates with him and we've talked on the phone since. I've taken full responsibility for the night apologizing for taking advantage of him with his girlfriend out of town. That should tame things down a bit for later in the week and we've agreed to go out again as friends. I guess he has an understanding with his girlfriend over summer.
I have wondered if Kristine reads the blog since she never posts, but I've received several texts from her totally enjoying it and teasing me about the whole thing. Some of you are way too quick to try and get me in trouble. I had tonight to get my thoughts in order and frankly I needed it.
His Lacrosse club is having a dance tonight and one of his friends had his girlfriend go home for summer and she was unable to make it back. So last night, when I'm just relaxing and watching television, I was a little surprised to find Matt, Karen, and his friend Tom at the door. As they sat down, I served them beer and got one for myself. We keep beer in the fridge, but it is only there for when guests come over. They explained the situation to me and I couldn't really do much. I made a lame comment about not having anything to wear and Karen told me we'd take care of that this morning. I had no choice but to agree.
Today I bought a new dress for tonight. It's soft pink with spaghetti straps and a tiered skirt. I also bought a pair of white strappy sandals with heels. We then went for manicures. The girl who did it suggested that I might try silk wraps next time and Karen said she thought that was a great idea too. The girl who did my nails seemed very nice, but it didn't take her long to figure out Karen was in charge and asked her about polish color instead of me. We went with a pink that matches my dress.
As Jill has mentioned, Wendy is cool with taking care of our hair and doesn't even care that we're not exactly there willingly, but she doesn't want us to cause any problems for her at work. As she explained that my hair was definitely long enough to do something with I started to panic. I immediately felt Heather's hands on my shoulders. She must have sensed that I didn't feel like staying there. All four girls including Heather made it very clear in a very subtle way that my best option was to relax. I couldn't help, but freak as I saw my hair taking on a feminine appearance. They were all overjoyed with how it turned out and informed me that as my hair grew longer the style would change. I can't figure out how to make it look masculine. I can't even do a pony tail with it.
As Heather, Amanda, Sheila, and I headed over to our class Heather started commenting on how much she loved my shoes. As these were just simple gym shoes I knew I was in trouble. As we passed a bench she had me sit down and asked me (read that as ordered me) to sit down and switch shoes with her. I tried to put on the women's flats I was given over my socks, but I was soon corrected by Heather who told me, "If you want to wear socks that's fine, but only to fill out your bra." Needless to say, the socks wound up in my book bag and the shoes showed off my pantyhosed feet.
We only walked a few more feet when I was forced to trade belts with her. She got my simple black leather belt and I get her metallic silver one. Being partially feminized is the worst. You have no prayer of passing and at that moment I would have much preferred to be in a little black dress and stilettos than in half male, half female mode.
I spent the week as Jill's sister's project and if anything she was tougher than the girls at school. I'd be up shortly after Jill's parents left for work every day, so that I could serve breakfast in bed. The mornings usually consisted of chores while the afternoons consisted of shopping. I have not been out much in public and at least I got to go out where most people don't know me, but there's a big difference between looking cute in a picture and passing when you speak and move. I've been told that I need to start focusing more one learning how to act and move. I don't see much choice if I'm going to constantly be out in public.
The girls responsible for feminizing me are all very attractive, but they're also extremely cunning. They have so much to blackmail me with now. Some people have even told Jill and I that 4 girls can't overpower one guy. Even when the guys in question aren't that big. That's a picture of Heather. She's now a blackbelt in judo. She doesn't use physical force on me or anything, but it sure we no trouble for the girls to get me tied up or to control most any situation. Now, don't get me wrong they don't physically threaten me or anything, but that's just another thing that makes escape hard.
Jill and I took off from class today to get manicures and pedicures. Jill even had some work done on her hair and we had our eyebrows neatened as well. It was a major embarrassment even if Jill had been there before and had at least something of a rapport with the stylist. The girl who took care of me was only 18 and couldn't have been sweeter. I actually felt kind of bad and gave her a big tip, but I just felt so embarrassed as I saw that brush go into the polish and come out dripping red and watched my fingers one by one receive the treatment.
Jill and I then spent all afternoon working on looking our best. Scented bubble baths, painstaking making application, you name it. Now we'll be heading out to set up the party. I have received instruction on how to curtsy and say "Yes Sir" and "Yes Ma'am". I can't think of anything more humiliating then doing this party and trying to act so feminine. I just keep thinking these girls have shown absolutely no tolerance for piggish behavior. Their friends can't be too bad...I hope.
Sex and the Sissy
I have a few questions to answer from the blog:
"are you saying that the feeling of your skirt brushing against your stocking-clad legs does not give you a frisson of sexual excitement? I would be most surprised if it did not...Please let me know. You have lovely, shapely legs by the way." -- Sissy Isobel
I do know what you mean, but they are such a bother and so uncomfortable sometimes. If I was sexually excited by wearing pantyhose, I'd be walking around aroused 24/7. Thank you for the compliment on my legs.
"is that your real hair cindy? its soooooooo girly? i'm surprised you can ever pass as a guy?"--Mandy
I did not have real long hair when this thing started. Maybe a bit long for a guy, but certainly not feminine length. I have several very high quality wigs that I wear. The girls keep telling Jill and I that over Summer, we can go together once a week for new hairstyles, but I don't really have enough hair yet. Jill does have passively feminine hair without a wig now, but wears one for more exciting styles.
"Cindy, congratulations on looking so cute, you have come a long way in such a short time. Could you please expand on two of the comments you make?
1)....is pantyhose going to matter that much or do you face the consequences?
2) I have resisted at times, but they're always prepared for it.
What are the consequences you mention and how are the girls prepared?
On a related note, if your at college do you have a room mate (if so what's their take on things) or are you lucky enough to have a place of your own?
On the bright side, you do look cute in your new clothes and at least you have great girl friends.
2. The biggest threat is public exposure and they have more than enough. They can completely embarrass and humiliate me if they so choose, but there are also enough of them to simply overpower me. Both Jill and I have been threated with being tied up to a statue in the middle of campus in just our lingerie and heels.
3. I am lucky enough to live on my own, but it is still difficult to be undetected. In some ways, the summer apartment with Jill sounds like it would simplify my life a great deal.
This morning Amanda was over at 8AM for 2 hours of makeup practice. She calls it tutoring, but she mostly just says, "no" and tells me to do it over. She fixed my makeup before she left and I'm now stuck dressed like a school girl until one of them returns and gives me permission to change. Heels have been a huge problem for me. They keep telling me that I'm shuffing like a guy, How do I make them see that I am a guy?
After this weekend, my closet has dresses and my drawers have lingerie. I should not have let things get this far.
Cindy,I think both you and Jill are beautiful. How ofen do you girls "get" together?
They've been making us pose and model together a lot this week. They've told us both that they have plans for us and if one of us screws up, we'll both be in trouble.
Hello Cindy, You don't seem to happy being able to spend time with 4 beautiful girls, who seem to be hard working bright and very helpful and supportive of you? I'd have thought it would be great spending time with them and Jill? In your first post you said "I've been in panties all week and I had to purchase most of them myself." where did you purchase them and what styles fabrics and colors did you decide on?
This is not something I would ever choose for myself. Walking in heels and pantyhose and trying to do everything perfectly feminine for their satisfaction isn't a lot of fun. I bought my panties at Target. They're simple cotton panties. I bought 3 packs to make things easier.
Have you started to wear long night gowns or short baby dolls yet? Once you start, you'll never want to stop!
I have not. I'm sleeping in just my panties.
Cindy, you just look hotter every time I see you. So, how do you feel knowing that guys, and gurls like me, are looking at you thinking what a hot sissy you make?
I really try not to think about that. I'm not a big fan of guys checking me out.
Cindy, you look so hot dressed as a ballerina, and your smile is so cute. I think it was nice of Sheila to teach you to dance but I'm not sure why you say that "The girls have come up with some exceedingly humiliating things to do" why would teaching a pretty ballerina to dance be humiliating?
Oh come on. You can see why wearing a tutu and dancing like a ballerina is humiliating for most guys I would hope.
I really love your pictures, you look so beautifull all girled up. Where can we find those 50 pictures? I'd love to see all of them
Gradually the good pics will make their way onto here. They're also putting together a website to replace the one that was up. The ones online are naturally the best ones.