A week between posts is a long time for me. The combination of family commitments, things to do and my own difficulty in mentally processing everything i'd like to write about are the primary causes for the delay. i'm just going to give it my best shot.
It's been about seven months since Diane reunited with Brian at a wedding we attended. So much has happened since then. Most of what's happened I know about, but not what Diane revealed to me this weekend.
As She was going through some office correspondence on Saturday morning and making notes, She nonchalantly said "Well, it looks as if you won't be buying me condoms anymore." It was a confusing statement and my initial thought was that She and Brian had somehow broken up and She wouldn't be seeing him again. Then realizing that if that had happened, i would have more than likely noticed a change in Her moods, i began to think a little differently.
Awkwardly, i asked Her what She meant. Again, it was something that came out sounding stupid.
"You know how careful I am" She said. "I've had extensive blood work done for both of us. Brian is clean as a whistle. I knew I was free of anything, but in all fairness, wanted to provide him with the same level of comfort."
i didn't know what to say and could feel myself blushing, but not in a good way. i felt nervous, uneasy, unsure and emotional. i stayed quiet and continued doing what i was doing. The silence in the room was deafening.
"Cat got your tongue?" Diane asked me. "Don't you have anything to say?"
Again i hesitated and said "i'm not sure what to say. i want you to be happy and i'm sure you've thought this through."
"Of course I have" She told me, "But, I want you to be happy also. I think you'll enjoy it as well, don't you?"
All of these questions that point out my submissiveness and sissy cuckold status are difficult to answer. i know the answers but the words are difficult to say. Speaking them in some ways is an admission of sorts, an admission of many things.
"i don't know. If it makes You happy, i'll enjoy that" i told Her.
"Well, we're going to find out this week when Brian comes over for a few hours. When I call you to come home, there will be a little something waiting for you between my legs" She said.
Brian comes over tonight. i'm going to find ways to keep myself busy while waiting for Diane to call. i wish i could be with Jake but that's not a possibility. i'm very anxious about the whole thing and i'm probably making a mountain out of a molehill. After all, i'm going to be doing what a countless number of other cuckolds do, and i bet many of them enjoy it.